A/N: Resident Evil belongs to CAPCOM/Paul W.S Anderson/Constantine Film. Lyrics belong to Within Temptation. This short drabble is from Jill's POV. Set somewhere between the end of Apocalypse and the end of Afterlife. This is just what I thought could be going through Jill's head before she worked for Umbrella….maybe they forced her into it, or maybe she went willingly….who knows? As the saying goes, If you can't beat 'em, join 'em.
A/N 2: Jill isn't aware that Wesker made Alice human again.
Now I'm fighting this war since the day of the fall
and I'm desperately holding on to it all
but I'm lost
I'm so damn lost
And I'm wondering why I still fight in this life
Cause I've lost all my faith in this damn bitter strife
I truly believed Umbrella could be taken down. It didn't matter to me that it seemed impossible, I would bring them down, and show everyone what they're really like.
Ever since the virus got out to Raccoon City and after that the rest of the world, I've been doing my best to take down Umbrella. Although they covered their tracks well and made me look like the bad guy who created the "hoax" tape, I know the truth and I'll keep holding onto that. It's all that keeps me going, never mind that the worlds been shot to hell.
Lately though, I've been wondering…..is it worth it? Should I still keep on fighting? If anyone out there is still alive, they won't care that Umbrella is responsible. They'll just want to live to see tomorrow. Besides, I'm sure that "Project" Alice will try to destroy Umbrella, surely she must have learnt by now that it's futile. I have nothing against her, except for the fact that I will never forgive her for killing Angie, it's just that Umbrella are too powerful to try and bring down.
Ok, so maybe I've lost my faith in someone finally bringing Umbrella down. I'd defend that it's not my fault, but maybe it is my fault I've lost my faith in the one thing I believed in. After all, who would go work for a company that they hate just so they could get revenge for something that happened years ago? I will avenge your death Angie, even if it's the last thing I do. Who knows what Alice is capable of, especially now that she's bonded with the T-Virus.