Journal Entry
A wife recalling the past
How long has it been? Ten, twenty years? The passage of time just felt so fleeting. I could remember, so vividly, the day you proposed to me. You tried your best to make it a night I wouldn't forget. It was funny seeing you fumble on your words, trying so hard not to lose all that bravado you openly showed everyone in the village. You were always like that, to those who didn't see past the mask you wore. You wore it so well; so much confidence that misled even the wisest of the populace. That was one of the things which drew me to you in the first place. Your boundless enthusiasm, your iron determination in the face of insurmountable odds, these characteristic I lacked.
Yet, I saw past that. You were orphaned at young age; a victim of circumstance. Almost everyone in the village hated you. They did not see the burden you carried for us all to keep us safe. You were a sad and lonely child; all you wanted were some friends, or a family to call your own. Yes, there were those that cared for you, but they couldn't always be there, and I saw in your expressive blue eyes, the need to talk to someone intimately.
I wanted to be that person. I wanted to stand by your side. Every time I look back to those dark days shame would always follow. I was too much of a coward and weakling. No, I'm not coward, nor am I week! You said those words to me during times of great despair. You gave me the courage to stand up to those who outclassed both you and me. I still remember my friends telling you swore revenge in front of all of our peers against my cousin. You did that for me, and I smiled when I heard that, as well as worried. Knowing first hand what my cousin was capable of. That didn't stop you, and in the end you did defeat him.
Time just seemed to blur from there. All the tragic events came to pass. Learning of your parents, the reason for the burden you carried; our marriage. I still have butterflies in my stomach every time I remember that event. I will never forget that day; or the night afterwards. It would be something that will always be in my heart. It was the day the two of us became whole; the day our feelings were laid bare to everyone. I was surprised that father gave us your blessing. You always had that strange charisma you always seemed to carry, whether you knew it or not.
Now, it is our time of bliss; a bright future awaiting us, and our soon to be family. I just hope that our children won't be as loud as you. After all, you are unique in every sense of the word. It would do no good if people started seeing miniatures of you running around pulling pranks and gorging themselves on your favourite food. I'm your wife, and soon-to-be-mother, I'm sure that some of my traits ill be passed down.
I'll always love you, my dear, sweet, husband. The light of my life forever.