Author's Note: This is my first fanfic ever so if it sucks, I am sincerely sorry about that. However telling me that may not stop me :P I'm mostly writing this for my own enjoyment and I figured it would be neat to see what other people thought of it.

Some info on my femshep: Name is Jane Shepard (so it isn't just my Shepard) pretty much a paragade kind of gal, but very persuasive. Earthborn, but is a war hero (rose above what people expected from her). She's a powerful adept, cause biotics are freakin' awesome. Thank you kindly for reading :D

Word Count: 904

Jane Shepard was always a natural leader, would've been deadly as hell if she didn't have high standards for herself. Everyone expected the gang raised, Earthborn to be nothing but a problem. The only thing that expectation accomplished was making Shepard all the more determined to show everyone how wrong they were.

Defeating the geth, Saren, and a Reaper all at once was apparently what it took to prove how good she was. Even now the council was too scared to see the real threat, sending her after geth. When they gave Shepard the order, it took all the effort in the galaxy to not roll her eyes.

Now she was staring at a panel, checking that the weapons systems were synced up properly. Normally a job for the gunnery chief, but Virmire took care of that. Jane felt that damn rock in her stomach again, remembering her friend's face and the extreme guilt she felt. Shepard turned her head over her shoulder to look at Lieutenant Kaiden Alenko, to remember something good that had come out all the bullshit. It took a little bit of starting, but he eventually looked back. It was enough to bring a smile to Shepard's face, enough to make this mission feel a little less pointless.

Concentrating on the screens in front of her, Shepard got lost in the calculations and algorithms as they flew in and out of sight; which made the sudden shake from an enemy gun all the more shocking, quickly jolting her out of the math stupor. Instinct took over, Jane quickly got in the rest of her space gear as explosions were heard and felt from every angle. Just before getting her helmet on, Shepard sent out a distress probe.

"Shepard!" It was Kaiden, alive thankfully.

"Distress beacon is ready for launch," It was the only comforting thing a commander could say at a time like this.

"Will the Alliance get here in time?" Shortly after that there was an explosion; Jane caught Kaiden as he fell.

Trying to look into his eyes despite the helmets and mass chaos Jane told him they damn well better be. He said something about Joker not leaving, how he wouldn't either. There was a temptation to smack some sense into Alenko, but Jane settle for an order instead. Now she just had to rescue the other heroic idiot in her life. Getting to the cockpit was no walk in the park but Shepard got there, she was too stubborn to let little things like fire and lack of gravity get in her way.

It took some convincing but Joker came to his senses and let Jane carry him to the emergency pod. Then everything really went to hell, but big lasers tend to be a bad thing. All at once Shepard was sucked out the pod, pushing the button to send Joker to safety, and being blown out of the ship by another attack.

She was breathing like she just ran a marathon but there wasn't any air, maybe it was fear. No things were too dark, then it hit even harder than the laser. Her suit was hit, there was an air leak, she was going to die.

~*~

Shit, that was Jane's first thought since that's just what she felt like. The next thought was something along the lines of Where the hell am I? Then it came back; the darkness, no air, going to die, had to move.

Jane tried lifting an arm only to have it brought down by a woman. Jane focused on the women, trying to get her bearings.

"Just try to relax." Relax? I'm supposed to be dead! I need to move!

Then it all was getting blurry, something about a sedative.

~*~

Next thing Jane is waking up to that voice, the one that belonged to the woman. Her name had been Miranda.

She had to get the pistol; Jane had already died once this time she wasn't going down without one hell of a fight. There was Jacob, nice guy if a little naïve. Then Wilson, but he ended up getting shot by Miranda, he was a traitor apparently. Then Jane is working for Cerberus and the "Illusive Man", going to Freedom's Progress.

She got to see Tali again, but that did no good since she wasn't going to join up with Shepard. Then there was Joker, which was unexpected on so many levels. The biggest sucker punch was seeing another Normandy, only this one was supposed to be "better". Whatever it all meant didn't matter; Shepard set a course for Omega and then went to her quarters. When she saw that big, comfy bed Shepard decided that now was the time to fall face forward and pretend none of this crap ever happened.