So here's a quick one shot that's been swirling around in my mind for quite some time now. Not much to say other than that...
I hope you guys enjoy!
DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own Tokyo Ghoul!
It was bearable.
Life, that is.
It was dark. There was no color. Everything seemed to blur together in the most nauseating way; a monochrome hue taking over the night.
Day in, and day out.
It was always the same, but it was bearable.
It was bearable because he was there.
He always had a way of giving the dreary shades of grey a sort of radiance that I thought disappeared a long time ago.
Along with my father.
Along with my mother.
Yet as small as it was, it was still there.
It shined down on me on my worst days. On the days when I didn't have the courage to get out of bed. On the days when I debated my reasons for existing. On the days where I believed it would be easier to just give up.
He shined down on me, and I swore I would protect that radiance, that silver lining in the raging storm of grey that was my world.
I swore to protect the last thing I had left.
I swore to protect the only thing that held me together.
I swore to protect him…
But I couldn't.
I thought I could take the burden of this sick, twisted world off of his shoulders. He would be free and happy. He would be able to live the life that I wanted to live. The life that wasn't reality.
God, anything but reality.
Looking back on it now as I stand in front my dwindling light, I realize how naïve I was.
I wanted to take all the pain away. I wanted to give him the life he deserved, not the life he was fated to because of me.
But now I can see that I was stupid to think he wouldn't want the same.
As I watch him move towards me, tripping over nothing and staggering into my arms, things become much clearer to me and I realize how foolish I was.
I wish I could take it back. Take it all back. Start over.
But that's not how things work.
I've accepted that.
And as I sit with him in my arms, watching the last glimmer of light die in his eyes, I feel a single tear escape. It rolls down my cheek and lands on my light, fully extinguishing it. Never for it to be lit again.
"Let's go home, Hide."