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Side One.
In which Ruka starts contemplating darker aspects of the human nature, and begins having darker ideas of her own.
It was by no means like Ruka to consider things like revenge. That was more befitting a Dark Signer. However, the girl found herself entertaining those sorts of thoughts a lot more often, especially since the duel with Lucciano not too long ago. She didn't understand it, though. She was confused. Rua said she had short periods of time where she was acting strangely.
He mentioned that she was muttering something about "her prey." There were times where she had gaps in her memory. Without even meaning to, she was fixating on that one idea.
She was fixated on the idea of making that young member of Yliaster pay. Not even intentionally really. However, as much as she tried to distract herself, through dueling, through spending time with her friends and her twin, she couldn't get her mind off the idea of making the boy suffer. Even in her dreams, she found this desire, though, slightly more overwhelming than if she were awake.
These dreams always involved her calling him out. Sometimes, in the dream, she would even go as far as end his life- But why? She wasn't a killer! She had no desire to be. Though, sometimes, whenever he was brought up, she could feel her hand twitch. It was as if her body were subconsciously wishing for something to grip, such as a knife. She could feel herself be overcome with this foreign hate. It wasn't really hers. It couldn't have been. Those thoughts of revenge, of hurting him, those dreams... not a single one of those were really her own... were they?
She couldn't believe herself when she thought of these things. She was disgusted with herself. She didn't, no, couldn't hate him that much... could she? As much as she wanted to think otherwise, it was difficult to do so. She told herself that she was above those sort of things multiple times, but now, as she found herself frequently thinking about them, that firm belief couldn't help but waver a little bit. Everyone was starting to worry about her.
In all honesty, she was, too. She was scared, terrified of those malevolent thoughts, those morbid dreams... and yet, at the same time, she wasn't. However, she was scared for Rua. What if all this had started to affect him? She couldn't have that happen. She tried to assure her twin that everything was fine. Though, really, she was trying to assure herself.
She had even pondered the possibility that she had gone insane.
Every night, she'd hear a voice in the back of her head. Every night, it said the same thing. "I'll make him pay for deceivng me and hurting us."
The worst part was how similiar the voice sounded to her own.
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I really have no clue what drove me to write this. I suppose I just wanted to try my hand at writing something a bit more serious. So here you go. Not-exactly-stable!Ruka. I will try to write more of these, possibly centering around different characters and maybe eventually, a follow-up to this one. Because really, with half the crap the characters of 5D's go through, I'm surprised more people haven't snapped yet.