Door slam!
Arizona turns around, shocked at the image in front of her. It's Callie. After 4 days of being at the McDreamy's with her daughter she's finally home. But wait, where's Sofia? For a millisecond Arizona was happy to see her wife, thinking that maybe she was ready to accept her apology and move forward but the look on her face was anything but acceptance. No, it was anger. Callie was still pissed so Arizona just stared at her waiting for Callie to say something, anything.
"You wanna talk. Let's talk." Callie said throwing her purse on the couch behind her.
Arizona looked at her with a shocked expression on her face, she wasn't expecting Callie to want to have a conversation, she was expecting Callie to come in here and tell her how terrible she was for sleeping with someone and breaking her heart.
Arizona had tears in her eyes as she looked at Callie with her mouth slightly agape. Before she could even say anything Callie spoke again.
"How was she Arizona? How was the sex?" Callie asked with a hard stare. Arizona just shook her head.
"Callie, please. Don't." Arizona looked at her with pleading eyes.
"Don't what? I wanna know if she was worth it." Callie looked at Arizona with an expectant look, waiting for her to respond. Without hesitation, Arizona responded as she stood up from the bar stool in the kitchen.
"No Callie. She wasn't. Callie, please I'm so sorry. Please." Arizona pleaded before Callie could cut her off again.
"So she didn't make you orgasm. You didn't come when you were with her?" Callie knew the answer to her questions she just wanted to hear Arizona say it.
Tears falling from Arizona's eyes, "Callie.." she said as she slowly approached her wife.
With the step that Arizona took forward, Callie took one back and held her hand up to stop the blond from moving closer. "Say it Arizona!"
Startled by Callie's angry tone Arizona jumped a little, tears falling heavier now as her heart breaks more. This isn't the conversation she wanted to have with her wife. She wanted to talk about how they were gonna fix what she broke.
"Yes." Arizona said as she lowered her head in shame. "She made me…" Her voice so small she wasn't sure Callie heard it. She hoped that would satisfy Callie. When she looked up, she saw Callie looking at her waiting for her to finish her sentence. Callie was really gonna make her say it.
Arizona inhaled and let out a shaky breath, "She made me c-come." Arizona said, choking on that one word.
Callie's eyes started to fill with tears as she stared at Arizona. Seeing the pain in Callie's eyes, Arizona pushed her palms into her eye sockets to try and stop the tears. 'I have no right to cry.' She thought. 'I did this; hurt her wife in the worst possible way. I am now lumped together with the George O'Malley's of the world.'
When she lowered her hands to look at her wife, she couldn't help but reach forward to touch her wife's face that now had tears covering her cheeks. She barely made contact when Callie brushed her hands away. Callie turned away walking to the opposite side of the room while wiping her face with one hand.
Arizona held her breath, she knew another question was coming as Callie stopped at the couch and turned around.
"Did she go down on you?" Callie asked looking at her wife. Arizona nodded and continued holding her breath. She knew the next question Callie was going to ask.
"Did you go down on her?" Callie asked in a neutral voice. She wanted to remain strong through this; she didn't want Arizona to see her hurt.
Arizona couldn't answer; she just broke down sobbing into her hands as Callie continued with the questions.
"How did she taste? Sweet? Did you like it?"
Arizona shook her head. She couldn't believe Callie was asking her these questions and that she was actually wanting an answer.
Arizona thought it was best she didn't answer those questions. She didn't want to tell Callie that she did like the way Lauren tasted. She didn't taste like anything which made sleeping with her so much easier. She didn't have to associate or be reminded by the taste of anything. How was she supposed to tell Callie that though?
"Did you make her come twice?" Arizona shook her head and looked at the ceiling. This isn't what she wanted to talk to Callie about. She was getting a very tired of the questions and wanted them to stop.
"Yes, okay! She came twice! She came in my mouth the second time! Is that what you wanna hear?!" Arizona was so shocked at what came out of her own mouth. She covered her mouth with her hand and stared at Callie with wide eyes.
Callie looked like she got the wind knocked out of her. She sat on the sofa that was behind her and put her head in her hands. She knew that she wasn't going to be able to keep herself from breaking out in tears in front of Arizona. Sobs racked her body as she thought 'My mom was right all along. This wasn't real. This isn't marriage.'
"No, Callie. No. Don't say that." Arizona said as she ran to kneel in front of her wife and pulled her close. Arizona couldn't believe what she just heard what Callie said.
Arizona did the only thing she could think of. She answered Callie's questions honestly.
"She didn't taste like you. Not in the least bit. You taste so sweet I can't get enough of you. She didn't taste like anything, or maybe she did. I didn't really pay attention. And the only reason I… she came twice is because I came twice. Please Callie. I love you."
Callie was too defeated to fight or push Arizona away from her. And she was slightly comforted in the fact that she was being held, not necessarily by Arizona just but anyone.
When Callie didn't respond Arizona continued, "I love you so much. And I'm so sorry I was so stupid. You ARE my wife. And this is real and I wanna make this up to you. I NEED to make this up to you. I love you so much and I NEED you. You are the love of my life; I can't live without you. I'll do anything, I swear. She was nothing and you are EVERYTHING. I didn't sleep with her to hurt you. It had nothing to do with you and everything to do with me. Please, Callie."
Arizona pleaded with Callie as she removed her hand away from her face. Callie once told Arizona that all she needed to feel better was for her to kiss her. So Arizona inched closer to Callie. "I love you." Arizona breathed one last time as she moved closer to close the gap. Callie closed her eyes letting everything Arizona said sink in, she hadn't even realized Arizona was about to kiss her until she felt Arizona's breath on her lips and the slightest of graze against her lips. Callie immediately turned her head to the side to avoid Arizona's lips. Callie curled her lips inwards and licked them.
"You just told me that she came in your mouth and then you tried to kiss me." Callie told Arizona pulling away from her grasp and pushing Arizona to sit on her heels. Arizona now realizes how stupid of an idea that was.
"C-al… I-I'm sor.." Arizona choked. "You're sorry. I know." Callie said as she sniffled and wiped her eyes dry as she stood up.
Callie walked to the other couch and grabbed her purse. "I'm going to be out of town for a while and I'm going to take Sofia with me. I'll let you know when we're back." Callie said as she placed something on the table in front of the couch.
"Callie. Please don't go. Remember you said you wouldn't leave me. Remember. Please Callie." Arizona said begging Callie to stay with tears streaming down her face.
"I remember." Callie nodded. "But that was before you broke my heart." Callie said and then turned to make her way out of the apartment.
Arizona's shoulders slumped as she sobbed. Once she heard the door click closed she completely fell apart. She laid on the floor next to the couch and cried. 'She broke Callie's heart' was all she could think about. 'Callie was heart-broken because of her'. She cried for an hour and a half before she pulled herself off the floor to sit on the sofa. She needed to figure out how she was going to get Callie to forgive her.
Arizona looked at the table and saw what Callie left; it was her engagement ring, her wedding band, and her key to the apartment. Arizona grabbed all three items and got up from the couch. She needed to find Callie. She needed to hear Callie say that they can move past this. Where was she? She said she was leaving. Leaving where? Airport, that much was clear, she needed to go to the airport! Arizona grabbed her keys, purse and wallet and was out the door. She didn't even bother locking the door behind her. There was nothing that mattered to her in there anymore anyway.
Arizona made her way to the airport breaking pretty much every traffic law, good thing she wasn't pulled over. She parked her car in the drop off zone and ran towards the only airline Callie would fly with if she wasn't taking her dad's jet. "Hi. I'm… Do you have anyone by the name of Calliope Torres flying with you? She's my wife and she forgot her house keys and I just wanna make sure she gets them before she leaves."
The lady working behind the desk just smiled politely and said "Let me check. Last name you said was Torres?" Arizona nodded. "I'm sorry ma'am. There's no Calliope Torres flying with us." Arizona's shoulders fell. She knew where Callie was going; she was going home to Miami. Arizona walked away from the flight attendant and back to her car. She drove to the other side of the airport; the private strip that held the Torres family jet. 10 minutes later Arizona could see Callie getting out of the car with a sleeping Sofia in her arms while the driver pull their bags out of the trunk and gave them to one of the attendants.
"Callie! Wait, please." Arizona shouted as she ran up to Callie and held on to her hand for dear life.
"Arizona.." Callie said as she looked at their hands. "I can't. I have to go." Callie motioned to the plane with her head.
Arizona pulled the three items out of her pocket and held them up to Callie "Just tell me that we can survive this. Please. J-Just tell me that we're gonna be okay."
Arizona pulled the hand that was in her own, palm up so she could place the three items in her hand. If Callie took the items then she knew that they would be okay. Before Arizona could even place the items in her hand, Callie pulled her hand away. "I have to go" Callie said with a shaky voice. Callie knew what taking those things back meant and she wasn't sure that she could do that just yet. She needed to talk to her father and be away from anything and everything that reminded her of Arizona Robbins. Arizona leaned forward and gave the sleeping baby a lingering kiss on the back of her head and took one last breath before she pulled back. Sofia smelled like Callie; vanilla and coconut, her favorite scent.
Arizona's heart constricted in her chest as she watched Callie board the plane. She needed a plan to get
Callie back and she knew what she needed to do. She needed to face her demons head on and fight to keep her wife. The things she said to her wife about evening the score was something she didn't recognize and regrets greatly. She needed to find a counselor ASAP.
Arizona sat in the driver seat of her car and watched at the plane took off. She put her head on the steering wheel and said a silent prayer that her wife and child got to their destination safely.
Arizona started her car and wiped her eyes of any tears and began her drive home. Maybe she should call her mom, she would know what to do.
Callie left Seattle 10 days ago and she felt refreshed. She was able to clear her head and think about what she wanted to do. She got some good advice from her father and she learned that her father strayed from her mother once. She couldn't believe it, but all she really wanted to do was talk to her mom and see how she got over the whole cheating. But like usual her mother wasn't talking to her because she married a woman. However, her mother did finally start bonding with Sofia and that's more than she can ever ask. If she couldn't have her mother at least Sofia could have a grandmother.
After she put Sofia to sleep in her bed Callie made her way to the patio out back. She sat in the sand with a glass of wine as she buried her feet in the sand. Callie looked up at the stars thinking that maybe she would get a sign from above about what she should do. She wished more than anything that she would be able to get over Arizona's infidelity and move on with their marriage.
It was so easy for her to come to the conclusion that she would try and move past the fact that George had an affair with Izzie Stevens, but why was it so difficult for her to decide to move past the affair with Arizona? Love is love. Marriage is Marriage. She was in love with both Arizona and George. She was married to both Arizona and George. Shouldn't she give Arizona the same chance she gave George? She should try and work on her marriage with her wife like she tried with her husband.
Callie felt so conflicted; she had so many different thoughts running through her head and no one to talk to; no one to give it to her straight. She didn't want anyone to sugar coat anything.
"Mark, I wish you were here. You would help me through this. Better yet, this might not even be happening right now if you were here. Send me a sign. What do I do?"
Lucia was walking to the kitchen to set her wine glass in the sink when she saw her daughter asking for guidance from above. Her heart hurt for her daughter, she didn't understand her life choice to marry a woman but she didn't want her daughter's heart to break. She didn't know how Arizona could do this to her daughter after all she fought to get her blessing to accept them as wives.
Callie got up from the sand and walked into her house. She stopped in her tracks, shocked that her mom was standing right in front of her. "Mom." Callie said tears forming in her eyes.
Lucia's heart broke at the sight in front of her. She had never seen her daughter so broken. It was then that she realized that Callie's love for Arizona was real. "Oh mija" she said with arm wide open. Callie ran into her mother's embrace and cried. After a few minutes Callie pulled away from her mom and looked at her mom with a questioning look. Lucia motioned to the chairs on the patio for them to sit down.
"Your father told me about what happened with Arizona." The tears forming in Callie's eyes fell as she shook her head. She didn't want to talk to her mom about the affair. She wanted to talk to her mom about how she proceeded to be in a marriage where someone broke a vow. So she asked.
"How did you ummmm….what happened with you guys?" Callie asked. She knew their experiences weren't the same, she really just wanted to know how they moved passed it.
"Well, I had just given birth to Aria and he and I weren't getting along very well. He was always working and I was tired you know, from having the baby and was getting frustrated that he wasn't helping. Anyway, he got a new assistant and she was very….friendly and so we started fighting a lot. Then he started staying later and later at work, he was getting frustrated because you know, we couldn't be intimate for 2 months after the baby and so he went somewhere else. He said it was just one time and that it was the worst mistake of his life and that he would never do it again." Lucia said with a sigh as she finished her memory.
Callie just nodded her head. Basically her dad was horny and frustrated and couldn't wait to have sex with his wife. That was a terrible excuse. Then again there really isn't a good excuse to have an affair.
"But how did you guys….ya know. Get back on track?" Callie asked
"It wasn't easy. We talked a lot. We both had to work at the marriage. You know, I may have not been thrilled about you committing your life to a woman, but if you're going to act like a married woman, I'm going to treat you like one. You will not get a divorce, Calliope you committed a life and now you need to make it work. You will not disgrace this family by getting a divorce." Callie lowered her head at her mother's words. 'Did she want to get a divorce?' Callie was brought back from her own thoughts as her mother continued "Look at it this way, you get to win every argument from here on out and you get lots of expensive gifts and flowers all the time." Lucia smiled at Callie recalling how Carlos showed his affection and remorse, trying to lighten the mood. Callie just smiled. Lucia patted Callie on the leg before getting up and walking back in the house.
Callie stood outside for a few more minutes looking up at the stars. She loved looking at the stars they were so peaceful and they made her feel like all her problems were so small. She was just getting up to go back inside when she saw a shooting star. She smiled because she knew that it was the sign she was looking for. "Thanks Mark" Callie knew what she was going to do, she was going to work with Arizona on her marriage.
Callie made her way to the kitchen to set her glass in the sink, on her way she bumped into her mom on the way out. Callie hugged her mom tight "Thank you mom. I love you." "Te quero mucho, Mijita." Lucia said as she kissed Callie's cheek.
Callie made her way to her childhood room tired from the day. She would take a few more weeks to compose herself and think about how she's going to talk to Arizona.
Arizona laid on her bed thinking that she missed Callie so much. She missed her smile and her hair and the way she smelled. She rolled over to lay on Callie's pillow and inhaled her scent when her cell phone rang. Florida… She didn't recognize the number but answered it anyway. "Hello?"
"How could you cheat on my daughter? How could you betray her trust and sleep with someone who isn't your wife? You broke her heart and now you better make it up to her!"
"Ummmmm…..Lucia?" Arizona was confused. Lucia called her up yelling at her that she better make things right with her daughter… when she didn't even want them to get married in the first place!
"My daughter is heart-broken because of you! Now you are going to show her when she gets home that you love her and how sorry you are! Dinner, chocolates, flowers, jewelry, do you hear me?!"
"Yes but…." Arizona didn't understand what Lucia was saying, did she say WHEN she comes home?
"Good!" And with that Lucia hung up.
Arizona pulled her phone away from her ear and looked at the screen, shocked at what just happened. Callie was going to come home. She's going to come home and I need to woo her. Flowers and chocolates and jewelry and romantic dinners, she could do this! But when? When was she coming home?!
Arizona cleaned the entire apartment spotless and made sure there were flowers in the living room; she wanted to make sure everything was perfect for when Callie came home.
The next few days Arizona was on edge, she spent extra time attention to her appearance in the morning. Anytime she wasn't in surgery, she changed back into her street clothes. She wanted to make sure she looked good for her wife. She was nervous, she didn't know what to say or do when she would see Callie again. She had been seeing a therapist since the day after Callie left; she didn't want the plane crash to be an excuse for her to treat her wife like shit any more.
She relived every conversation she had with Callie since the crash during her sessions, she couldn't believe how nasty and hateful she was. She'd been going to her sessions she'd been going to her sessions 3 times a week for the past 3 weeks and she was finally starting to feel better about opening up about the crash. It was hard and she was starting to have nightmares again and she wished that Callie was there to hold her through the night. She felt so safe in Callie's embrace and she couldn't believe that she ruined something great.
It was 7:30 and she was tired, she worked a 13 hour shift and she was just now getting ready to leave. She entered the elevator and pushed the button for the lobby. She almost made it to the bottom floor when the doors opened on the second floor. She slouched in the back of the elevator leaning against the wall. She was looking at her shoes when she heard her voice. Her head snapped up, Callie was back. She was talking to Owen while carrying Sofia in her arms. Arizona was in awe, Callie looked great dressed in a white v-neck t-shirt, dark blue jeans and her black and white converse. Only she can make such a simple outfit look so sexy.
She was broken out of her trance when the elevator doors started to close. She tried making her way to her wife but, where the hell did all these people come from!? She made it to the doors right as they closed. She pushed the door open button rapidly hoping that it would open, then she pushed 2 hoping that the elevator would recognize the floor that it was on and open the doors again. She groaned in frustration when the elevator started it's descend. As soon as the elevator doors opened she ran to the stairs, she needed to get back up to the second floor, she needed to see her wife.
She burst out of the stair well door out of breath searching for the love of her life. She was no longer standing in the middle of the hall talking to Owen. She sighed in defeat when she thought that she missed her chance to say anything to her wife. She made her way to the elevators, the stairs already made her leg hurt, there was no way she could walk down them now. She was walking with her head down with her arms across her chest, she could feel the tears burn in her eyes. It wasn't until she felt her body collide with someone else that she was brought out of her daze.
"I'm sorry. I wasn't paying…." Arizona got lost in the most beautiful brown eyes she'd ever seen staring back at her.
"MAMA!" Sofia screamed with her arms outstretched. The locked gaze was broken when Arizona felt her daughter fling herself into Arizona's arms.
"Hi baby." Arizona said kissing her daughters head while holding her close. "I missed you." Arizona said looking back into Callie's eyes.
Callie turned away, the intensity in Arizona's gaze was beginning to be too much for her. Pushing the down button to signal the elevator became very interesting. She could hear Arizona talking to Sofia about how much she loved her and how much she missed her while she was gone. Finally the elevator doors had opened, both Callie and Arizona stepped into the elevator with Sofia in Arizona's arms. Sofia was so happy to finally be with her mama again, she laid with her head on Arizona's shoulder never wanting to let go.
The elevator ride was silent and awkward, the only sound was coming from Arizona who was kissing her daughter's head repeatedly. Callie and Arizona made their way out of the hospital.
Callie finally broke the unbearable silence, "I'm going to be staying at the Archfield, you can keep Sof tonight if you want. I know she missed you." Arizona looked at Callie with a confused look on her face. She didn't understand why her wife was staying at a hotel instead of at home with her wife and daughter.
"But… I was thinking that we could have dinner at home….maybe talk?" Arizona shifted her gaze from Callie's face to her shoes suddenly feeling embarrassed. Realization finally hit her, her wife was heartbroken, of course she didn't want to be around her.
Callie didn't know what to say, she shook her head and looked at her shoes. "Arizona…I..I can't… not yet." Callie said looking back up at Arizona's face. Arizona nodded. "Okay. Umm.. Are you working tomorrow? I can bring Sofia to day care."
"I won't be back at work for a while. But I do have a few things to take care of in the morning so you can bring her to day care and I'll just pick her up after lunch.. in case you wanted to have lunch with her." Callie said looking at Sofia whose face was still buried in Arizona's neck. Their 2 year old really missed her mama.
Arizona nodded. She really wanted to know what Callie's plans where but she didn't feel like she had a right to ask. So she just said what she wanted to say for 3 weeks. "I'm really happy you're back. I really missed you." Arizona stared into the depths of Callie's brown eyes with unshed tears. Callie just nodded, gave Sofia a kiss on her head and started to walk away. Arizona took that moment to take in Callie's closeness. She could feel goose bumps start to spread across her skin. Callie made it two steps before hearing her name being called. She turned to see a sad smile on Arizona's face, "you look really pretty." Callie gave her a half smile and turned to walk the rest of the distance out of the hospital.
Watching Callie walk out of the hospital, Arizona hugged her little girl tight making a squeal come from the child. She was so happy to have her little girl in her arms. She looked from the little girl's smiling face to the parking lot where she caught Callie pulling out of the parking lot. She exhaled, she was ready to get her woman back. She would clear her schedule tomorrow so she didn't have any surgeries after lunch. She would spend lunch with Sofia like she told Callie, but she would wait for Callie at day care. Maybe she could get Sofia to convince Callie to get some ice cream. Arizona just wanted to spend time with Callie, she desperately wanted to hear her voice. Even if she wasn't the one being talked to; she always enjoyed hearing Callie and Sofia talk because they were so silly.
The next day Arizona was a nervous wreck, she hardly got any sleep. She had a great evening with her daughter; they ate lots of junk food, something Callie would not approve of. They watched movies until late at night. They cuddled on the couch while they watched movies and held her baby girl in her arms all night while Sofia slept peacefully. After Sofia fell asleep she kept rehearsing how she was going to ask Callie to join her and Sofia for ice cream. What if Callie said no? She didn't know if she could handle that. If Callie said no then, that meant that she should probably give her some more space. The problem with that was Arizona didn't want to give Callie more space. Arizona was ready to move forward; start to rebuild their relationship. It's been almost a month since Callie left to Miami. She wanted Callie to come back home. She missed lying down next to Callie every night being able to smell her hair, feel her skin, and hear her heart beat. She wanted her wife back and she would work damn hard to make sure that happened.
Hours later…
Scrubbing out of her last surgery of the day, her hands began to shake. Letting out a breath as she looked up at the nurses as they wheeled out the patient she just finished with. "I can do this." Arizona said to herself out loud. After changing out of her scrubs, she made sure her hair and makeup was perfect, she wanted everything to be perfect for when she saw Callie. She thought that if she looked good it would be harder for Callie to say no to her.
After stopping by the cafeteria to pick up some food, she headed to day care. She had packed Sofia lunch knowing her little girl wouldn't eat anything they served. She grabbed a salad, Sofia hates green vegetables and that was the safest thing to eat in the cafeteria.
Walking in to the day care she spotted her little girl giving one of the day care nurses a hard time. Sofia threw a carrot at the nurse's face, terrible twos were not a myth people. I repeat, NOT A MYTH.
"I can take over for you." Arizona said to the nurse. The nurse got up from the toddler chair she was sitting at and let Arizona sit down. "Sofia, you're not supposed to throw food. That's not nice." Sofia looked at Arizona with a pout on her face. Oh no, we all know what's gonna come next. "No no no no no. It's okay baby. I'm not mad. Come on. Just eat your food. See yummy! Chicken nuggets! Do you want some ketchup?" Arizona was trying so hard to take her daughter's mind off of the fact that she was scolded for throwing food.
