"Charlotte, may I ask you for one last favor?" Breathed Jem, gravely. He had known it since the last drop of yin fen had been consumed, that his last resort, for more unpleasant as it sound, would be that which will let him live under the same sky as his loved ones, as Tessa's and Will's.
"You shall ask whatever it is under my control Jem, for I promise to do what I can." She seemed reluctant, he knew she didn't pity him, yet she was in so much pain looking at him, he felt almost guilty of his sins, of being an addict, and a dying one at it
"Call the Silent Brothers, for I have been thinking that at last, my only cure, that which will even if I stand in a fragile strand in between death and living, would be joining them, becoming one." Charlotte looked shocked, the last thing she would have been expecting Jem to ask, would be this. Choosing a life of solitude, confined under the grounds of the Silent City, renouncing his own music, his engagement. But what more would he ask? When he was drawing his last breath under her hands. His skin translucent, his agony palpable. And then she remembered, the boy who came from Shanghai, a child at it, black brown hair and pale.
"Jem, for I don't want to intrude of your decision, you know I love you dearly, almost, no, clearly as a son of my own. But are you sure to take the oath? To live in solitude, confined?"
"You know, Charlotte, how I have never been the one to take the last minute resorts, rash and unthinkable such as Will. But I am beyond salvation, and even this which I ask of now, could possibly kill me, yet it would be the only thing to draw breath into my body, find peace. I have been thinking thoroughly since Tessa mentioned it. I was horrified as this words had escaped her lips. How mad it would be to live without her, without Will! To brake two promises so dear to me, my fiancée and my Parabatai, closer then a brother. But I have seen truth, and I have heard of love, and I am no hero, but I do not wish to die, even if this had been dragging for some years now. It is terrifying the thought alone, and here as a bring the last breath of my soul, I beg for redemption. Someday, maybe I will come back, someday maybe a cure will be found, and then, alas, I shall end the brotherhood. But please, I ask for you to fetch Brother Enoch, and speak no words of this with either Tessa or Will."