A/n: I wrote this for an anime club contest. I didn't have long to write it and I had to type it with one hand due to an elbow injury but it's up to my usual standards nonetheless, I think. Anyway, it's a Taiora, so have fun.
The View through the Dark
There are certain situations in which one cannot help but turn his back on the world and lose all hope. I was unfortunate enough to spend nearly a year and a half in such a miserable mindset. I was alone, even with in my loving family, and felt a deep emptiness inside. The truth is, I was missing the love and companionship of Sora Takenouchi, my best friend and the girl I've loved since before I could grasp what it meant. But she betrayed me, broke my heart and left me to lose myself in a dark void of depression. And yet, I continued to love her. I continued to love her because a love like that is not one easily lost and somewhere in my deepest sub-conscious, I knew she didn't want to hurt me and still wanted to be by my side.
Sora and I had been best friends since we were in preschool. We were the center of each other lives, always side by side. It wasn't until 7 years ago that I realized how deeply in love I was with Sora. I spent the next 5 years trying to figure out how to tell her. Every time I thought I had gotten up the courage, a voice in the back of my head always asked, "What if she doesn't feel the same?" By the time I finally silenced the voice, Sora had found someone else. On Christmas Eve, I stood with her, about to tell her how I truly felt, when she said she had a date with Matt, a mutual friend. I was crushed and my heart was shattered. I smiled and was supportive on the outside but on the inside, I was an absolute wreck.
Once Sora started dating Matt, I fell into a deep dark depression with no light at the end of the tunnel. I was in an extraordinary amount of pain but as it was my best friend who caused it, I was forced to keep it all inside and turn my back on the world. Sora had been my life. She has a certain light she brings with her that never failed to make me smile and that was something I missed. The emptiness left me alone with only my spiteful thoughts to keep my company.
Its funny, I always told myself that I would never forgive Sora for breaking my heart even though I still loved her more than anything. However, love is a funny thing. On a cold, stormy night last month, I found Sora standing on my doorstep, her tears mixed with the rain water that drenched her. All my spite and anger melted away as I pulled her into my arms. She cried and eventually told me how she had gotten to be on my doorstep. Matt had broken her heart and left her shattered. After she calmed down, I told her I felt the same way, that I'd been there. She looked deep into my eyes and said, "I'm so sorry, Tai, I never knew…I never knew…"
Sora and I sat on my couch for hours, just talking. For the first time in a year and a half I felt like a complete person and for the first time in my life, I knew what it was like to love and be loved back. Throughout this painful period, I was constantly questioning myself and my life, with little result. What I learned in the end is that love, much like life, had no real rules and can never be planned. Love, however, is quite possibly life's greatest asset and is most definitely worth enduring the pain to discover.
A/n: Another Taiora, finally! It feels good to be writing them again. Review, would ya? Catch ya later.
~Mulder
D/C: I own nothing.