"The world is my canvas and I create my reality." -Unknown

She doesn't start painting till a year after the war's end.

The High Lords rarely see eye to eye but despite their differences, peace negotiations finally start to become productive, and Velaris slowly but surely stitches itself back together.

She hasn't been home in weeks, opting to split her time between the private residence in the Night Court and Vassa's court in the continent instead of winnowing to the town house at the end of every day. Her obligations as High Lady dictate that she be present for nearly every (if not all) meetings amongst the seasonal and solar courts. Her vow to help severe the spell that bounds the rebel human queen to transform into a fiery winged creature during the day means that her pursuit as Cursebreaker is never far behind.

The titles have never felt more prominent as they do now, not even during the war - weighing over her shoulders like an anvil along with all the responsibility they bear.

And while she wouldn't trade her life, her experiences, all of it, for anything. . . still, Feyre is hard-pressed to find room in her daily routine to catch a break that even nights with Rhys are spent laying side by side and just breathing.

So it's no surprise that the sight of a paintbrush laying innocently on the sidewalk of the shops that line the Sidra startles her so badly that it stops her in her tracks. She stares at it like it's a foreign object cause it might as well be, given how long it's been since she last held such a thing.

Mor doesn't notice that Feyre is no longer beside her till she's more than a couple steps away. A small panicked shriek escapes her before she whirls towards the direction they came and she spots her friend hovering in front of an opening of an alley.

"Feyre," she huffs as she jogs back to her side, "you could at least warn a girl before you drop off like that."

"Where did this come from?"

The humor falls from Mor's face at the seriousness in her tone. She frowns.

"It's a paintbrush."

Feyre rolls her eyes and gives the blonde a flick on the forehead. "Thanks, genius, I got that." Mor sticks out her tongue in response. "But what's it doing here?"

Mor examines the paintbrush, then quickly glances at the alley yawning ahead before the dawn of recognition lights her features.

"Oh!" she exclaims. "They must be moving onto the next phase."

"The next phase?" Feyre just stares at her in confusion. "The next phase of what?"

"Well, with all the damage inflicted during the Hybern attack, Velaris has been hard at work restoring the parts of the city that were affected the most. The process has been slow, unused as they are to such things but," a small but proud smile graces her lips, "it appears they're at the tail end of their plans, if they've already moved on to putting on fresh coats of paint."

Feyre shakes her head, in admiration of her people but mostly in shame. She had no idea this was still going on, the attack having been a little over a year ago. Had she really been that far from home? For so long?

"Show me."

Mor, who had been ready to resume their walk, whips her head towards her.

"What?"

"Take me to where the reparations are heaviest."

"Now?"

"I'll only be a minute."

Mor looks at her with incredulous eyes. "But Feyre, we're due to meet with the Palace governors-"

"Please." She places her hand in Mor's arm and squeezes. "Please."

Mor studies her - eyes the tremble in her hand as she withdraws her touch to the haunted gleam in her gaze - and reads the truth etched into the lines of her gaze.

She nods.

"A minute," she concedes, though they both see it for the lie that it is.

Still, they exchange smiles as they link arms and step into the alley, where Mor leads her through a couple of turns to one of the busy squares of Velaris.

A burst of sunlight hits her face and she has to shield her eyes against the blinding brightness. But when her vision clears, the sight that greets her takes her breath away.

Fae of all kinds, high and low, old and young, different shapes and sizes and color - are scattered about the square, holding various tools necessary for construction and, even this early in the morning, covered in sweat, paint and grime.

But still bright-eyed. Still standing tall.

The ring of laughter, strong and loud amidst what was once a site of destruction, is as much a symphony to her ears as it is a balm to her frayed nerves. The fume of paint is heavy in the air and almost dizzying in its intensity yet it is nothing compared to the proud smiles that are etched upon the expressions of the citizens of Velaris. She eyes the groups that are mixing buckets of paint and rolling fresh coats of their desired colors onto their walls. When was the last time she had even an inkling of a desire to paint something, anything? Surely, longer than Starfall - the itch to hold onto a paintbrush even longer than that.

(She doesn't count her time playing spy in the Spring Court, every movement, word and image wrapped in a deception then - even her desire to paint.)

The once absent urge to paint, truly paint and not just a wisp of an image, now flares hot and irresistible in her veins. Like a beacon, her gaze is drawn to the lone roller brush nestled innocently amongst the unopened cans of paint and paint trays laid haphazardly in the middle of the square. Perhaps she should have hesitated and reconsidered her presence in the square. She definitely should have never made the venture from the start - her duties call to her, after all.

Yet all it takes is a single heartbeat for the brush to be in her fingers, two to approach a fae and ask if there might be "room for one more set of hands" and just another to dip that brush into a tray of paint - lub - and make an experimental sweep up the length of a wall - dub.

Her heart beats a thunderous rhythm in her chest but in lieu of the wariness she expects to fill her as she holds the brush aloft, she finds anticipation coiling in her bones. Excitement.

"Are you alright, High Lady?"

In this instance, the title makes her blush and automatically she replies, "It's just Feyre."

The fae, with yellow-skin and upturned eyes that remind her of Amren save for the soft smile that covers her lips, merely continues with, "I could show you, if you'd like?"

Feyre, heavy with an emotion she cannot place, nods. "Please."

She's painted on canvas for sure and on the furniture of their old cottage, but never has she painted walls or storefronts. So she listens and observes with apt attention as the fae, Tyla, instructs her on the basics of wall painting and demonstrates the direction with which she should drag her roller brush, up and down, till her lines form the letter 'W' in wide, sweeping strokes.

When she finally does it herself, well. . . she must look a fool, for all she can do at the moment is stare at the lines of paint she's swabbed upon the wall, at the brush she holds aloft her, and find wonder in how so simple an action can turn another into something different, something so purely made. . . anew.

And she did that.

So she stays. She stays in the square, with Mor as she runs amok with the village children (causing more mischief than assistance, much to the adults' amusement and fond exasperation) and with Tyla, Feyre tailing after her and following in her tasks - till every roughened surface is sanded to silky smoothness and every chip and gap is made whole again with the right plaster. Then she paints. She paints one coat to patch up the uneven coloring of the current store's building materials, two for evenness and three for protection and reinforcement. She paints till she can no longer see the cracks that once lined the walls, as if every stroke of her roller brush brings with it the ability to heal and mend (she ignores the voice within that asks her if she's still talking about the wall, or is she referring to herself). She paints till her mind quiets and the brush is nothing but an extension of herself and she paints and she paints and she paints.

Lub.

Paint.

Dub.

Brush.

Lub.

Stroke.

Dub.

Breathe.

It's probably why she doesn't notice him till he's directly behind her. She jumps at his smooth voice whispering silkily at her ear.

"That looks wonderful."

She lets out an undignified shriek, the hand holding the brush flailing as she reaches up to cup her throat and she squeaks out his name. He laughs.

"Hello, mate."

He winds an arm around her waist and kisses her brow. She sighs into his embrace. "Hi," she breathes into the skin of his neck, and they stay just as they are - the noise of the square fading into a dull thrum as they remain wrapped up in each other and they share their day in an exchange privy to just the two of them.

What are you doing here? She asks.

I missed you. The words are a soft whisper in her mind and she hums in response. His voice is laced in amusement though, when he continues with, as did the governors, when you didn't show up at their meeting.

She abruptly pulls away at the words, her eyes wide as saucers when she lets out a curse. Rhys only laughs harder, pulling her close and nuzzling into her neck even as she groans miserably into his shoulder.

"Oh Cauldron, I must have lost track of time! And the governors. . ." She shakes her head. "Are they angry?"

"More worried for you than anything." He rolls his eyes. "It's the High Lords of Prythian I'm more concerned about."

"The High Lords?"

"I thought that the meeting could wait another day, and I told them as much. Beron, of course, threw a fit." Rhys rolls his eyes again, an action she happily mirrors. She makes a mental note to discuss with her mate their bargain with Eris and his plans to depose his father, later. "Regardless, I told them they were free to carry on without the Night Court present." She raises her eyebrows expectantly, as if knowing that isn't the end of it. Her thoughts are confirmed when the look she gives him urges him to divulge, "All right, so maybe I gave them a. . ." he smirks, "gentle, reminder of who they were dealing with." An image of the most powerful High Lord in centuries in his true form echoes through her mind, and she shakes her head in exasperation. What she's come to realize about her mate is that some days, the mask is harder to shake off than other days. He huffs at her look. "What? Like they know what to do with themselves without us!"

He shakes his head then turns to her, a sudden seriousness overcoming his features. "When I heard of my High Lady's absence, naturally, I was concerned." Sorry, she whispers sheepishly. He just holds her to him even closer and places a chaste kiss to her neck. Nothing to forgive. You come first. Our family and our court come first. Always, is what he says with a warm smile before continuing. "Even if I'd already arrived at the Dawn Court, I was ready to winnow back here, but I figured I should check with Mor first. She told me where you were, what you were doing."

She frowns. "Why didn't you just ask me?"

"Your shields were up." Her eyebrows raise in surprise. "Nothing I couldn't get through, if I really needed to." Even as he says it she can feel him there, a gentle hand caressing the walls of her mind that she's barricaded - quite loosely, now that she's aware.

"But there was something calm about their presence, peaceful. Like the solitude was a comfort, a way for you to center yourself." He shrugs, as if the action of leaving her alone when he was probably worrying himself sick isn't a big deal. "It didn't feel right to intrude."

He shifts so that her back is to his front and his arms encircle her. "I'm glad I didn't." He rests his chin on her shoulder. "Look at everything you've accomplished here, on your own."

"It's just paint," she mumbles, a faint blush creeping into her cheeks at the praise, "and I was hardly alone. . ." But even as she says the words, pride seeps into her veins at the work she's done, small as it may be, here in the city and with the people that she loves so much.

"I mean it you know, this place looks even better than it did before." It's true, the fresh paint of the square glistens beautifully under the afternoon sun. But Feyre thinks it's not so much the look of the buildings but rather, it's the expressions in everyone's faces as they, too, admire the square and beam at the storefronts - pride and healing outweighing the exhaustion of a hard day's work.

"Rita better watch out," he jokes and they share a laugh, content to let the hustle and bustle of the city pass by them. He entwines their fingers. "You're painting," he whispers, his breath hot against the back of her hand as he brushes his lips on a smear of dried paint there. She swallows heavily.

"Yeah," she murmurs. "It felt. . ." she struggles to convey just how much this moment means to her, how burdened she's felt the past year - trying to fix so much of this broken world when she hasn't even gotten a moment to catch a breath and process. Yet every stroke of the brush felt like a brush on her soul, patching up the parts of her that have been battered and hurt by the events of the war. The closest she could compare it to was -

"Like flying," she utters, recalling their first ever flight together post-war and the feeling of freedom and hope it had given her - that her promise to the Suriel of building a world that would be better than she left it now, would be fulfilled. Yes, the events in the square that day were ones she'd akin to, "healing."

"It's been a hard year," Rhys says in quiet understanding, the prior assumption (or should they have known it was mere fantasy?) that things would be easier after Hybern left unspoken but weighing heavy in the air between them. She agrees.

"It has, but. . ." She catches Tyla's eye and the fae gives her a happy wave before bounding over to Mor, who remains engaged with the children but this time accompanied by the remaining paint, drawing figures and colors on the young ones' faces. Feyre smiles. "I guess I just forgot. . ."

A burst of laughter erupts somewhere in the square and Rhys turns at the catch of her breath. His concern fades when he catches the expression on her face.

Feyre laughs quietly when a group of fae shriek. The children have apparently tired of the art aspect of the day and begun a paint fight amongst themselves, their dreaded next target the older faes. At the head of their assembly stands who else but Mor, the biggest child amongst them - leading her little paint warriors into the fray of adults.

Despite his confusion, his lips melt into a crooked smile. "Forgot what?"

Another ray of yellow sunlight bursts through the clouds and the brick of the square floor glimmers.

"I've been so focused on trying to purge all the bad from the world," But Feyre's gaze is brighter - like all that is light in this life was born right there, right in her eyes. "I forgot about the part of it that was already good."

She nods to herself. "I'm going to paint again."

He grins excitedly. "Yeah?"

"Uh huh. In fact, I'm going to start. . ." a calculating look overcomes her face and it doesn't occur to him to sift through the bond till it's too late and she's shouting, "now!"

A bucket of paint appears in Feyre's hands just as Mor winnows behind him and all at once -

The most powerful High Lord in Prythian, Night given form and Death Incarnate, finds himself soaked all the way through.

With paint.

And nothing so flattering on his color like the violet of his eyes or the jet-black hue of his hair or even the golden brown of his skin. Rather, the two demons have doused him in the most mortifying shade of green paint ever created in all of existence.

Rhys can only stand in shock, the latex already stiffening onto his skin, his hair (thank the Cauldron he didn't have his wings out), as Mor cackles behind him. Then she saunters, saunters, to his wife's side.

His wife. His mate, his queen and his equal in every way. . . who is now doubled over laughing her ass off. At him.

The High Lady and his cousin are bent at the waist, Mor's hand on Feyre's shoulder like she needs the support lest she falls to the ground. She wipes a tear from her eye.

"Oh Feyre, I admit I've yet to see any of your paintings but," she takes one look at Rhys before erupting in giggles again. "But this," she hiccups once she catches her breath and makes a sweeping gesture towards Rhys, "has got to be your greatest masterpiece yet!"

Feyre bites her lip. "You're not wrong."

His jaw drops. "Brazen, wicked thing." She waits till he rubs the paint off his eyes to shoot him a feral grin.

Strangely, he purrs down the bond. I am both angry and aroused. Her grin widens. He shakes his head, as if it will dislodge the lustful thoughts circling his brain. He makes a show of command by glaring. Mostly angry, make no mistake.

"You two, are in big trouble."

Feyre smirks, outwardly unruffled despite the sizzle of heat that tingles down her spine. "Is the big, bad Illyrian coming out to get us?"

"Oh I'm so scared!" Mor adds, feigning a faint as she leans against Feyre. The two break out in laughter again and Rhys, in annoyance, shakes his head at the pair, causing paint to fly everywhere. The girls hardly flinch, flicking off splatters from their skin as they snicker between themselves and comment about how the green clashes horribly with the wounded look in his eyes, which flash as their teasing only serves to raise his hackles.

He summons his magic, intending to splash them with the paint from his body, when this time his cousin yells, "Attack!" and the kids launch a handful of paint at him.

And, High Lord he may be but Rhys is not ashamed to admit that the girlish shriek heard across the square comes entirely from him as he runs from the pint-sized cavalry, and for his life.

(Dramatic as always, my lord, Feyre teases down the bond.)

Just as Rhys manages to free himself from the clutches of the little ones, he launches himself on Feyre who, caught off guard, slips on a small puddle of paint, and though Rhys manages to wrap his arms around her and take the brunt of the fall, the trip down remains as unpleasant as ever.

You're going to pay for this, he says. This time, it's Feyre who says with a purr, I look forward to it.

At this point, the older faes have joined the brawl - using their magic to build forts and find creative ways to launch paint bombs at each other, much to the children's (and, admittedly, the adult's) entertainment.

The square becomes a battlefield - albeit a joyful one - to replace the more horrifying one that took place before because today, they paint a new memory here, onto the walls, the loam and the very foundation of this square.

Rhys, ever the general, commandeers his own battalion of young and older faes and Feyre takes a moment to just stop and appreciate the scene before her as she sees everyone having such a grand time - her family members included, because it seems to hit her over again that there was a time when she could have lost this, lost it all.

And the square is a mess, true.

Still, she finds.

It could not have looked any better.

(That night, Rhys makes good on his promise that she "pay" by using his entire sexual arsenal on her - tongue, fingers, cock, everything - only to pull back just as she reaches the very brink.

The blessing - or in this case, the damn curse - with being immortal is that they have the leisure of time, and each fucking time she gets close to completion . . .

The payoff, however, is amazing - when the light of dawn breaks and they chase the shadows from Rhys' face. It reminds her.

There is no light without darkness.

And her dark, fallen prince is all aglow when he enters her just as she least expects it and brings her to the edge of that golden peak once more. With that one, swift move she shatters around him in an orgasm so powerful.

This time, it is her keening that makes the mountains tremble.)

AN: This is my first ACOTAR fan fic. I hope you enjoyed it! Next part coming up soon.

If you want to cry about all things ACOTAR (which I pretty much do everyday) with me, I'm on tumblr under the same name :)