Sorry Guys!!! New Story!!!

I couldn't help it, I just needed to write this!

But considering I just updated 'Queen Of Hearts' and I'm nearly finished 'I don't wanna be' as well as 'Better than OK' I figured I should be allowed to start one more now ;)

Although Julian isn't in this first chap, for a change this one will probably be a Brulian (That's right Lelina I finally did one for you!) but will also involve Brucas... and I honestly don't know what endgame will be (Will have readers vote when the time comes)

Anyway it is kinda AU. I will explain as the story progresses what changed etc.

ENJOY!


Damage

Chapter 1

'How Could You?'


"Our best built certainties are but sand-houses and subject to damage from any wind of doubt that blows"

- Mark Twain

"YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" Brooke screamed, picking up the nearest plate and throwing it at full force towards her husband of two years. Lucas ducked and it hurtled past him, smashing on the wall. "You cheating!" she threw another plate which narrowly missed, again shattering against the wall "lying!" another plate smashed "BASTARD!" this time she didn't even bother throwing the plate at him instead she threw it against the wall before storming out of the kitchen, Lucas in hot pursuit. "I can't believe this!" She cried, entering the lounge room "EVERYONE! EVERYONE! Told me that I shouldn't marry you! Peyton, Rachel, Jake, EVEN your BEST friend Haley didn't trust you not to hurt me! And I didn't listen! Like a fool I married you anyway!" She was going to storm up to their bedroom but Lucas grabbed her, she spun around, flinching away from his touch "Don't you dare" she hissed "Don't you dare touch me, don't you dare lay one finger on me" Lucas took a step back so that they were now facing off

"Brooke-"

"Don't even say my name" she hissed again, hatred dripping from her voice

"Baby, you have to listen-"

"I HAVE to listen? No Lucas I don't have to do anything for you anymore. This marriage is more than over"

"No" Lucas head shot up as he looked at the woman he love, the only woman he had ever loved "Please, let me explain... I-I didn't mean-"

"I hate you" her words made him flinch "I hate you with everything in my being!" Hot, angry tears dripped down her face "I want a divorce!"

"No" he stated simply, he knew what he did was wrong but there was no way in hell he was letting her walk out of his life

"I wasn't asking your permission" she growled

"Brooke-"

"NO! You listen to me Lucas Scott! Here I was trying my best to keep my insecurities in check! Trying my best to be strong for you! To convince myself that you loved me, you wanted me and you actually gave a shit about this marriage! I was lying to myself all along!"

"Of course I give a shit Brooke! I love you!" Lucas yelled back in frustration

"Don't even bother giving me that crap! If you gave a shit, if you ever cared you wouldn't have FUCKED your secretary!"

"And maybe if you gave a shit you would come home once in a while instead of spending every god damn minute at work!" Lucas's temper suddenly flared and Brooke looked at him in shock

"How dare you" she growled "How dare you blame this on me! I never missed a single dinner, a single event you needed to go to for work, I was always there! Where the hell were you for the opening of the new store? Where the hell were you the last three nights that I spent alone? For gods sake Lucas! I came to your office to spend time with you and instead I find you buried inside your secretary!" Tears of sadness and desperation threatened to take over for the angry ones that now stained Brooke's face but she wouldn't let them, she wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing her cry. "How could you?" She looked down at her hands "You could have done anything else to me Lucas but you knew how much this would hurt, you must have known, how could you do that to me?" Tears ran from Lucas's eyes as he looked at her broken stance, honestly he couldn't answer that question himself, he had no idea how he could do it, how he could hurt her so bad. Brooke Davis, the only woman he had ever truly loved, the woman who owned his heart no matter what, the woman who had stuck by him through anything and everything, this is how he repaid her? The only explanation he could think of was that he was sick, twisted, deranged, he had no idea how he would ever look himself in the mirror again, knowing what he had done to her. He understood that she hated him but there was no possible way she hated him as much as he hated himself right now.

"I don't know" he whispered "but please listen-" he looked at her but she refused to return the stare, looking everywhere else but his face "Brooke, look at me" he demanded sternly

"I can't, I-I'm afraid if I do I might run into that kitchen, grab a knife and plunge it right into your heart so you would know how I feel right now. But as much as that would be karma, your not worth going to jail for so no, I won't look at you"

"Your just never going to look at me again?" Brooke smirked

"You catch on quick Scott, but you say 'again' like were going to see each other, as far as I'm concerned the only time I need to see you again is at the divorce hearing"

"WE ARE NOT GETTING A DIVORCE!" Brooke ground her teeth together

"How stupid are you Lucas? Do you really expect me to welcome you back with open arms?"

"We can work through this"

"No, we can't, in fact I'd like you to get the fuck out of MY house"

"It's our house"

"Not any more"

"I won't give you a divorce Brooke"

"I don't need you to give me anything, I don't need anything from you. But there will be a divorce whether you like it or not."

"How can you say that?" Brooke took a deep breath, hardly believing what she was hearing

"How could you fuck someone else? This marriage was over the second you decided not to come home and instead stay at the office to bang her!"

"WELL MAYBE I WANTED TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO COULD ACTUALLY GIVE ME A FUTURE!" The second the words slipped from Lucas's mouth he regretted them, he had no idea what had possessed him to say it, all the talk of divorce was driving him crazy and he had taken his anger at himself out on her. Brooke recoiled instantly, her entire stance slouching, her face falling, her eyes turned dark, she looked like he had slapped her... No.. worse, she looked like he had kicked the shit out of her. It had been devastating news for both of them when they had discovered that Brooke was unable to have children. Lucas had always imagined having little Brooke's running around with her gorgeous locks and dimpled smiles and his piercing blue eyes, so when he had discovered that would never happen, it had been a crushing blow.

They had been friends since junior year at high school and Lucas had been in love with Brooke since the first day he met her. Brooke had been oblivious to his feelings and Lucas was too scared to admit to them so the two had remained close friends until college where Lucas had finally manned up and asked her to be his girlfriend. This had scared Brooke as Lucas Scott was, after all, a 'player' he had never had trouble getting girls and had even less trouble disposing of them as quickly as they came. But Brooke had given him the benefit of the doubt and the two had a flawless relationship for four years before Lucas got down on one knee and asked her to marry him. She had been ecstatic, saying yes immediately, much to the disappointment of her friends who, although loved Lucas like a brother, did not approve of the relationship.

The two had looked into adoption but when they had trouble there an egg donor and surrogate had been considered, Brooke however couldn't stand the thought of watching someone else carry her child so the two had agreed it was not for them. They had to grow accustomed to a life that would most likely never involve children and as much as neither of them would ever want to admit it, it hurt. The news had also taken a heavy toll on their marriage, Brooke, now feeling inadequate and weak, unable to give the love of her life something he so desperately wanted, threw herself into her work and Lucas, in turn, threw himself into his secretary.

Brooke finally looked up at Lucas after what seemed like hours of silence, her eyes were not her eyes, instead they were clouded by pain and desvestation "Who are you?" She asked, her voice coming out low and sharp, she turned away from him walking shakily to the couch which she threw herself into, she had no more will to fight, there was no point, and as much as she didn't want to admit it, he was right, he needed to be with someone that could give him something in return. Lucas walked over to perch himself on the arm of the couch opposite her

"I didn't mean that" his voice was soft but just the sound of it was causing Brooke pain, she nodded slowly

"Yes you did, but it's OK. Your right, I can't give you anything" She shrugged, staring blankly at a space on the wall "But your free now, you can go be with someone who can give you a family"

"I don't want a family, I want you, all I've ever wanted is you"

"But no matter how hard we try, I'm never going to be enough to make up for not being able to have kids" Before Lucas had any chance to protest Brooke burst into tears, she couldn't hold it in any longer, one year ago her life had all but fallen apart when she found out what they could never have, now it was happening all over again and she wasn't sure if she could handle it "Why?" She sobbed through the tears "we picked out a house with a big backyard, so many extra bedrooms, it has everything and-and....." She tried to wipe away the tears but they just kept coming, Lucas wanted to comfort her but he knew there wasn't a chance in hell she would let him "Why?" She sobbed again before turning her eyes to him "Why didn't you just leave? Why couldn't you have just left? You didn't need to stay, you could of left and fucked her with no guilt. Why stay just to-to betray me?" There it was, the same question that every wife desperately wants to know from their unfaithful husband and in return Lucas was going to give her the same answer that any unfaithful husband that still cared for their wives would give

"Because I love you, not her... She meant nothing, all it was was sex, and I know that doesn't change anything but please know, I love you" Brooke wiped her eyes, willing the tears to stop flowing as she looked up at him

"You stopped loving me the moment you decided that I was worth giving up for meaningless sex"

"That's not true I-" Honestly he didn't know what to say, he wanted to make a grand speech to convince her that she was the only one in his heart and to let her know how sorry he was but there was nothing left to say. He knew deep down that he should let her go but a bigger part of him was holding onto her for dear life because after all, she was all he had, she was his everything, the one and only reason he got out of bed in the morning and he had screwed it up.

Brooke looked him dead in the eyes and decided it was time to say it, time to speak the word that they had silently vowed each other they would never say

"Just go Lucas, I'm not your problem anymore, I won't weigh you down. I'm the one that can't have kids not you" They had never talked about it, it had always been 'we' can't have kids never considered that Lucas could go out and have as many as he wanted. They had agreed to be together in sickness and health, through the good and bad, if Brooke couldn't have kids, they both couldn't. Brooke had tried to bring it up in the past but he had refused to listen to her, he could never be happy with anyone but Brooke so no one else's kids would make him happy, would they?

"We can't have kids Brooke, not you, us, we can't have them" He searched her eyes for some understanding but was received with a vacant stare

"There is no we any more. So just go, my futures fucked not yours"

"OUR future is fucked Brooke, thick or thin were in this together" Brooke let out a low growl in frustration

"You gave up our future Lucas, when you screwed her, you gave it up. There is no thick and thin with us anymore, there is NO future"

"Don't say that" Brooke sighed, she was sick of arguing, sick of it all

"What do you want from me?"

"I want you to forgive me" Lucas stated simply

"What's the point?" She knew that even if she forgave him she would never be able to forget, she would never feel safe in his arms, the warmth in her heart when he kissed her or the complete trust she had in him again. Those days were dead and lying in the next grave along, was her marriage. She laughed bitterly on the inside Brooke Davis, 25, divorced and baron that'd read well on a personal ad. "Your obviously not happy, why bother?"

"I am happy"

"Well I'm not" Lucas head shot to her "I can never be happy with you again after what you did, I don't think I can ever forgive you and even if I did I will never trust you again" Lucas heart fell as sudden realisation washed over him, he would never hold her in his arms again, never have the chance to whisper how much he loved her into her ear as they walked hand in hand down the beach, he would never kiss her again, never be the one she came to when everything else seemed to be crumbling around her. His life was over and he had no one to blame but himself.

Brooke stood up, her body slightly shaking from the emotional toll of it all

"I'd appreciate if you leave now" she said sternly "I will be at work tomorrow and won't come home till eight if you want to pick up your stuff before th-then" she stuttered over the last words as she felt a wave of dizziness surround her, she grabbed onto the couch for support, Lucas looked at her with worry

"Are you okay?" Her eyes snapped back to him angrily

"I just need you to go" another wave of dizziness hit her and she closed her eyes to absorb it "th-then I'll be fine"

"Brooke, you've gone white"

"Just get out LUCAS!" She hissed, angry again "I don't need you looking after me anymore" and as soon as the last sentence was out of her mouth her whole world spun and went black.

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