The fire crackled in the corner. Warmth filling the space. A Christmas tree in the opposite corner, gifts decorating the ground beneath it. A troll curled up on the couch, forced into a festive sweater by his not-mother and her dancestor. He worried about cultural appropriation. Trolls were the dominant culture now, there were three times as many trolls as there were humans. Didn't seem right, however Kanaya talked to the humans, they started making sad faces that he wouldn't join in for their celebration. If they want it, then everything is great, right?
They weren't around now though. It was just him and Cronus. The male had been a really good matesprit. Kankri was actually surprised. All that bravado and arrogance melted away when they first kissed. The sea-dweller (well, not so much anymore) was shy and nervous, yet eager. It was a strange awkward kiss, but they made it work. That was just short of a year ago, on New Year's Day. Another human tradition that Kankri had to be persuaded into. Just like all the others throughout the year. Now that he thinks about, maybe he should just stop worrying about it. The humans seemed to want their holidays celebrated by everyone. So who was Kankri to be the downer? Cronus just went with everything and enjoyed himself, the others seemed to enjoy his enthusiasm. Although, he considers himself a human, so that's not really a fair comparison. Kankri didn't have species dysphoria. He didn't long to be a human like Cronus. He longed to remain with Cronus though.
Cronus had never pressured him to break his vows, for a while Kankri was convinced they could have a happy, sexless relationship. And that would probably be the case, if it weren't for the fact Kankri wanted his boyfriend. He had been able to resist his urges for the past several months. Since March, when he first felt that primal pull towards his matesprit. It wasn't very hard to ignore at first, just shift thoughts; focus on something else. However, it became harder and harder to quell the desire as the year went on. Summer was particularly hard. Cronus had been so happy, everyone going to the beach and playing in the water. He was able to show off his body, and the water that glistened on his torso… Kankri shuddered at the thought. That was a particularly difficult few months. He had managed to fight his urges though. Still, as time has gone on, he thought it might not be so bad to break his vows. Cronus would be patient and let him take things at his own pace. They didn't have to rush into the act.
Speaking of which, his boyfriend (as the humans put it), walked into the room, a smirk on his face. "What cha thinking 'bout chief?" Kankri responded with a fifteen minute speech about cultural appropriation and how he still wasn't sure his engagement in "ugly Christmas sweaters" was right. While he had rectified the issue in his mind, he just needed something to say that wasn't the real issue. He didn't want to confuse Cronus with his waffling until he had decided what he was going to do.
The bard of hope made that look that he always made when Kankri launched into one of his tirades, loving amusement. That look that said, "I know this means a lot to you, but you are too cute when you get worked up. At the same time I'm trying to show you respect you deserve." Kankri started to circle in his rants, he usually does. Most people don't detect it because he says the same thing with different language, Cronus had been through enough of his lectures to know when it was happening. This was the point when Kankri had comprised previously that he could interrupt. He did so with a soft peck on the nose. Kankri hadn't expected it. Such a tender, loving gesture. He was smiling. "Sorry, I just wanted to try it. Are you mad?" The seer of blood wasn't mad, what's this feeling? He so rarely felt like this it was hard to place the word to the experience. Red rising to his face, he pulled up his sweater hiding himself. Bashful, that was it. "Aw, I'm sorry! I just wanted to try something new. Showing affection the same way every time gets old. You're kind of picky about PDA, not that I'm upset! I just, I just thought it'd be okay."
Kankri's face was now as red as his sweater. "No, Cronus it's fine. I just wasn't expecting it is all. Although, you really should ask permission first before you do such things. Just because we are in a relationship doesn't mean that consent is implied."
Cronus realized Kankri's true feelings. He always did this when he liked something. Say it's okay and then chastise himself or someone else. Cronus pulled him into a hug, rants be damned. And it was these loving gestures, this closeness, this tender intimacy that made Kankri want to take things further. He released his sweater, grabbing onto Cronus's arm to steady himself, his thoughts overwhelming him now. Maybe he shouldn't think so much about whether he was breaking his vows or not and just focus on what feels right. And Cronus's chest and arms around him felt nice. He pulled away just a little, kissing his matesprit. Lips pressed against each other, passion flooding their senses. Kankir hesitantly let his tongue slip out asking for entrance. The first time he had ever done so. The two had made-out before, but Cronus always initiated. Kankri made a show of compromising in lieu of sex, but the truth was, he was scared. Scared of his own feelings, of letting go of his principles, of letting Cronus so close to his heart.
Cronus graciously accepted the appendage into his mouth. Letting Kankri explore before taking his turn. He could tell the lecturer had been preoccupied recently. Not sure what was going through that mind of his, but he could turn the smallest issue into a complete dissertation in his head. He could too caught up in his of rigidity that way. Cronus would stay near though and be Kankri's support for whatever he was going through. He human-loved this troll, and would do everything he could to make him happy.
Notes: I hope you like it Linda!
Okay, this says it's just a one shot, but I might make it a two shot. I haven't decided yet. If I do add another part, it will most likely be their first time, which will up the rating. So, some things to consider. Either way it'll be a bit. I have three papers to write, but every time I sit down, I end up writing fanfiction.