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This is an AU fan fic for all the Blair/Serena shippers out there like myself. Please leave a review if you read.

Tears like an angel

Blair slowly sipped her martini thinking about how much her life has changed since Serena left for boarding school. In Serena's mind she just had to get away and she knew if she saw Blair she would reconsider, but little did Serena know that Blair falling for her. But of course that was one secret Blair would never tell. Blair tilted her head and drank the rest of her martini in one swift motion. Carefully she got up to pour herself another serving, she was already on her fourth glass. Was Blair hiding something?

Blair just got a text saying that Serena's back. She stared down at her sidekick for a moment in disbelief. There's no way Serena's back - she's at boarding school. Blair thought to herself.

"Serena, darling. How are you?" Ms. Waldorf said happily, giving the young blonde a hug.

Serena. Blair quickly stepped out of her room, to see if she heard wrong. To her surprise there Serena was looking more beautiful than ever. She hadn't changed much; her blonde hair got darker, her sense of clothing got an upgrade, but her eyes - her eyes still remained the deepest shade of blue that were now searching for a light at the end of the tunnel. She wanted to find a way to make everything okay. Blair felt running away and never coming back. What Serena did really hurt. I don't think I can ever forgive her.

"Blair" Serena said happily.

Tears began welling up in Blair's eyes as she saw Serena. She couldn't face her knowing why Serena left she didn't want to get away... she left because she felt guilty. Blair sniffled softly and walked away.

Serena instinctively knew something was bothering Blair and ran after the short brunette. "Blair" Serena said softly, finding Blair sitting against the wall.

"Go away Serena I don't want to talk to you!!!!" Blair screamed.

Serena bent down in front of Blair looking into her eyes to see if they gave away any clues. But it was useless Blair angrily glared back at the tall blonde desperately wanting her to go away. "Blair I know something is bothering you. Please just tell me" Serena said softly.

"Why did you leave without saying goodbye?" Blair asked, a tear silently running down her cheek.

"I didn't know how to be your friend after what I did" Serena said.

"What you did really hurt me... I know about you and Nate"

"Who told you?" Serena asked nervously.

"It doesn't matter. How could you do that to me"

"I- I didn't know you two were together" Serena stumbled over her words unsure of what to say next she just hoped Blair would understand.

"That's a lie Serena and you know it"

"Blair what's your problem?" Serena asked.

"My problem is with you and how you left me and didn't even say goodbye I thought we were best friends but I guess I wrong... because the best friend I use to know would never hurt me the way you did. When I look at you now all I see is a stranger staring back at me. So much has happened since you left - so much that it makes me feel like screaming because you weren't there"

"I didn't know... you felt that way. Even I had known I would have-- " Serena was interrupted by Blair finishing the sentence.

"Stayed" Blair was more confused now more than ever one part of her really wanted to hate Serena for doing what she did... but then the other part of her really wants to kiss Serena. I hate the way Serena makes me feel. When I scared I feel like collapsing in Serena's lap and crying in her arms and when I'm happy I can't help but smile because I know she'll always be with me. I hate the way Serena makes me feel. Vulnerable and weak... I hate the fact that I'm falling in love with her.

"Blair" Serena whispered stroking the brunette's soft hair.

"I hate you!!!" Blair shouted unable to push Serena's hand away from her face.

"What?" Serena stopped stroking her hair. "I hate you!!!" "How can you say something so mean" Serena asked confused.

Blair felt like screaming; Serena I hate that I couldn't stop thinking about you each moment you were away... and now that you're back all I want to do is kiss you.

"I hate you too" Serena shot back each word cutting through her like a knife. Serena felt if her throat was closing up like she couldn't breathe. She never meant to hurt Blair but seeing Blair this way - her being so upset was more than Serena could take.

"You can rot in hell for all I care because we are no longer friends" Blair angrily walked off. Serena silently watched as Blair stormed off - tears began stinging her eyes as she couldn't control this new feeling almost as if she was now suffering of a broken heart.

Gossip Girl here your one and only source into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite. Spotted Serena van der Woodsen crying as she watched her one true love walked out her life. Is S in love?

You know you love me

xoxo, Gossip Girl

The end of chapter 1... what do you think continue or trash? Please give feedback. bye