So hard to breathe…

Summary: Asami hasn't contact Akihito in over a month, and Akihito now has borderline anxiety. Feeling that the wait is too long, he decides to take to his hands to find out. And what he found is…

Warning: Unbeta'd, horrible grammar. Rated M for future chapters and language.

Prologue

Maybe it's because he hasn't seen heard from Asami for over a month, that now he feels a bit lonely. The older man suddenly went off to Brazil for some businesses for more than a month ago, and he has yet to receive a message or a phone call. He felt frustrated, but being prideful and stubborn that he is, he will never in his life admit. Not to mention, it was always the reverse where Asami would be the first one to take actions into reaching him. Yet for now, Akihito has received none.

Akihito has even stoop as low as to contact him first for a change after the first week. He has sent many messages, give calls but there was never a reply and was constantly put through voice mail.

Since the man has yet to reply to him, he (creatively) came up with some conclusions as to why he has not received any form of contact from Asami. They are:

1. The phone Asami has cannot be used internationally.

2. His phone is lost, damaged, hidden or missing.

3. Out of battery.

4. Asami forgot to contact Akihito.

5. He doesn't or can't contact you.

Looking at his list of conclusions 1 and 2 is impossible. That bastard of a man is fucking rich, he can afford an international plan for his phone any day, like he owns a phone company. And can buy a new phone anytime.

#3 sounds like something he himself would forget (that he admits), but no way in hell Asami would forget. 4 shouldn't even be on this list, so he mentally crossed that out. That man is practically a freakin' stalker. Or like he is pet where he has a leash to prevent him from further doing unnecessary, unsafe or unreasonable crazy things, in other words he can't have free rein over himself.

BUT FIVE FUCKIN' WEEKS! Where the hell is that bastard that proclaim him his?

Sitting alone on their sofa in their penthouse living room, Akihito looked around the room with eyes hallowed. Coming back to home has now feel so empty, when he knows the person he is waiting for not coming back. It stings a little every time, and it gradually seeps in deeper as time pass.

There are times where Asami would not message or call him right after he lands, so sometimes it would take him a most two days. But two days has long passed, so why hasn't that man contact him.

Going back to his mental list, he crossed out 1 through 4, and he has yet to elaborate on #5. Why? Because he feared that it would be true.

Everyone (public) knows Asami to be successful Businessman, owner of many clubs, firms, hotels, and other dabbles of business. He is the most sought after bachelor in Japan. Akihito smiled at that thought, because that was what was written not so long ago before Asami went to brazil. Not only is he rich, successful and handsome, the man is still in his prime 30s and is looking as dashing as ever.

Many women and even men flocked to Asami's side for obvious reasons. Comparing himself to other individuals from Asami's past, he is defiantly not the type Asami usual keeps himself close to. All the other people had a distinct elegant vibe to them; they were all beautiful, famous or well known in their own way. Yet compared to them; Akihito is poor with an unstable job. If Asami didn't forcefully cancel his lease and moved all his things to the penthouse, Akihito would never leave his 1LDK apartment.

It's like comparing a mosquito to an ox. If really, there shouldn't even be a comparison. There is no way a mosquito can match up again an ox. If Asami like, Akihito wouldn't even be here instead, he can have any beautiful women who is perfect in every way to be his lover, bed warmer or anything Asami like instead of him; a regular ordinary fish from the sea.

Akihito's chest tightened at that lost thought. His right hand clenched his shirt over his chest as his heart beat drummed loudly. Smiling to himself reluctantly as to comfort himself, he usually never down tall himself like this. But he couldn't help it. If there is someone Asami already have from the side…wait cross that maybe he is that someone from the side, and that someone is the main, then it would make perfect sense as to why this…..neglect.

Another sting hits his chest, but this time deep.

Or maybe just really maybe Asami can't get to his phone because his is really that busy, then…just maybe that why he has contact him. Or maybe perhaps but hopefully not; an incident/accident happened so can't contact him.

…..that is not healthy hypothesis, he thought while he erased that theory. He'd rather Asami find someone special than to be in misfortune.

Standing up, he walked himself to their bedroom and retire for the night.

Morning came rather quickly, more like it hit as if he is sober. He went to bed at nearly 4 in the morning, and now it's 11, the usual time he would head out to work, but today he decided he'd call in sick. He doesn't even feel like getting up. He hasn't been sleeping well after the third week. It almost freakin' ridiculous! Finally getting off bed, he went to his office to pull out his laptop. Clicking to internet, he typed in Asami's name on google.

What popped up was beyond words shocking;

ASAMI RYUICHI GUN SHOT INCIDENT, NOW IN HOSPITAL—date XX/XX/XX, 6 days ago

ASAMI RYUICHI ENGAGED?! YUMISAKI KOHARU—date yesterday

The front two lines got his attention right away. All of a sudden his brain can't register what the screen said with his eyes glued to the word 'engage'.

A long period of time passed before he tapped to click on the first entry. Scrolling down the page, he eyed every word seriously. It turned someone attempted to assassinate his business partner, and Asami was 'mistakenly' shot. The apprehenders are already caught, and will most be sentenced to jail for attempted murder. Akihito didn't believe a word the article said, but he knew for sure this was just a cover up story for the actual truth.

Going back to that search page, Akihito pace himself to click the site.

Click

What appears before him was a head line in bold stating [ASAMI RYUICHI ENGAGED TO YUMISAKI KOHARU, A NURSE!]

Scrolling down, a picture of Asami smiling to a woman in warmth. That warm smile Asami only showed him. Tears fell from his now stormy eyes freely. From his wet eyes, he can barely make out the woman's image. But for sure she is beautiful, perfect and in every way fit for Asami's smile is directed to her. Not him. Anymore.

Tears continued to fall in an incredible rate as he shut his eyes in scrutinizing pain. Clenching his over his heat, he struggled to breathe.

You all can hate me for this.

I've been wanting to write a tear jerker so I am working on it. Hahaha. I should really work on 999, but for some reason my fingers and brain stopped their magic after typing 300 words.

I know this short but… I am sooo sleepy, I typed this is one sitting and know its 2 am something, and I have work tomorrow….T^T So forgive me, I didn't reread this. Hahahaaaaahh…

Thank you for reading. Tell me what you think~

Furikakechan~