A/N: This is part one of what will be a fairly long series. It is AU and as such canon events may be changed or ignored.

I smile to myself as I contemplate the dark headed figure sleeping with his head in my lap. JD has absolutely no interest in sports, unless you count the occasional game of basketball in the parking lot at the hospital or a game of pool at the bar – which personally I don't.

Credit where credit's due though; he did at least try to watch the hockey game with me and he didn't bombard me with questions either, although I'm fairly sure that is not due to a sudden moment of clarity regarding hockey rules but rather because after two years together, JD understands my moods and therefore knew that I would kill him for interrupting such an important game.

I run my fingers through JD's hair. I wish that he wouldn't coat it with mouse. I love the feel of his hair when it was product free; it's unbelievably soft, I've asked him to leave it lots of times it but it's pointless, he'll never leave the house without hair product. Although sometimes he washes it just before we go to bed and leaves it natural; I love that he does that for me.

I begin stroking his forehead and JD murmurs in his sleep. He looks like an angel. God I'm sounding way too much like a girl lately. This is what JD does to me. He's supposed to be the woman in this relationship.

JD stirs and a few moments later he opens his eyes and smiles. I sometimes think I could drown in those beautiful, blue eyes.

'Morning Sleeping Beauty,' I say, returning his smile.

'What time is it?' JD asks as he stifles a yawn.

'Just after four.'

'Oh – I missed the game.'

He actually sounds kind of disappointed. I laugh and place a soft kiss on his lips.

'Don't worry Princess, its ok – we won anyway.'

JD grins and gets up heading towards the kitchen.

'You want a coffee?'

'Please – are we still going out tonight?'

He rolls his eyes.

'Yes, it's Elliott's birthday. We have to go out.'

'Oh but we could do something a hell of a lot more fun than getting drunk at the bar...' I start to say but then I see the expression on JD's face and I trail off. 'Or we could go out that's fine too.'

'You are so whipped,' JD looks smug as hands me my coffee.

There's no point denying it because we both know it's true. I would do anything to make JD happy and as long as nobody else ever finds out I'm ok with it.

'Are you going to stay here tonight at least?' I ask as I wrap my arm around JD's shoulders and he leans into the embrace.

We don't actually live together yet because we're taking things slowly. So although we do spend most nights together – either here or at his place – I don't want to take it for granted; even though I hate sleeping alone. You see what a girl I've become? It's all JD's fault.

'I was planning to, unless you want to stay at my place?'

'As much as I love seeing Ghandi's embarrassed face in the morning because he's heard you screaming my name all night long, Jordan's bringing Jack by early tomorrow so I need to be here.'

JD smiles at that, he loves spending time with Jack. I was so worried, in the beginning that he would freak out at the idea of being a kind of step-parent, because as much as I cared for him, Jack and I come as a package deal. But I was worrying for nothing. He loves Jack and better still Jack loves him.

JD leans his head against my shoulder and I place a soft kiss on his forehead.

Everything just feels so perfect. It's taken us such a long time to get here. All through JD's Internship and the first couple of years of his Residency we danced around each other, my constant barrage of insults served as a pathetic attempt to disguise my attraction to him.

I knew that JD was gay, he made no secret of the fact but I was deep in denial, so much so that I got Jordan pregnant and tried desperately to make things work with her – even though we'd both known we were flogging a dead horse.

Eventually, I was forced to admit my feelings. I was spending literally all my time thinking about JD and I was making excuses to avoid being with Jordan. Then one day Jordan called me on it and I told her everything. She was upset but she still told me to grow a pair and grab my guy before somebody else did.

I literally did just that. I grabbed JD on the roof and kissed him. JD clearly thought that he'd gone mad, but then he began to kiss back. It was the best kiss I had ever experienced – until then at least.

We're taking things slowly because we are both determined not to ruin what we have.

I treat him properly. I take him out on proper dates, sometimes we even double date with his friends, we talk – that's not something you can avoid when you're dating JD but I have actually tried to open up. It's not easy for me but it's worth it. For the first time in my life I feel happy, really, really happy.

JD belongs in his arms like this, he fits perfectly. I don't ever want him to not be here.

'I love you,' I whisper.

'I love you too.'

There's a moment's pause before I speak again.

'Move in with me, JD.'

JD sits bolt upright and stars at me, his mouth open slightly in shock. Oh God what have I said? This is way too soon. Oh God he's going to say no and then we'll have an argument and he'll leave and this will all be over. Oh fuck. Oh fuck.

***

'What?'

I'm looking at Perry with, what I'm sure is a dumbstruck expression. Did he really say what I think he said?

'Move in with me.'

Yep, that's what he said.

'Are you serious?'

The thing is I know he's deadly serious. Perry would never joke about something like this. God, moving in together is such a big step. Are we really ready? Of course we are ready. We've been together for two years. Most couples start living together way sooner than that. We practically live together anyway. I'm always staying over but this would be making it official.

Oh God, what if it ruins everything? Things have been fantastic lately; even Jordan's been ok with us. I don't want to mess everything up. I don't want to lose him but are we ready for that kind of commitment?

Then I realise that Perry's speaking again.

'I'm serious JD. I want this, you and me together.'

Suddenly I don't feel scared anymore because I realise that is what I want too. I'm not scared of making a commitment to him because I'm already committed to him. I have been since the moment he first kissed me on the roof. I knew then there was nobody else for me.

I find myself nodding. Tears are in my eyes, God maybe I really am a girl.

'Ok,' I whisper softly.

Perry's face suddenly lights up and I realise that he was just as scared as I was. I think I just fell in love with him even more at that moment.

He kisses me softly and I run my fingers through his hair as I deepen the kiss. We're going to do this. We're going to live together.

Oh my God.