My one and Only… Kanade
If I could go back in time, I would have stopped myself,
If admitting my true feelings would really destine me sorrow, then why express my happiness.
It's almost like being stuck in a white void, I see her, however… I know it's not real,
Is this what happens?
Those who live a happy life, and go here must be miserable?
It's just too unfair, why can't I be with her?
I can only hear her voice. And picture her face,
"Yuzuru" I hear,
"Kanade!" I would scream, but it's useless,
She can't hear me,
She literally stole my hear,
I wish I could have given it to her,
Unless I actually did,
I just wish I had more time to spend,
Just a few more moments, of passion instead of fighting,
Instead of shooting,
I just wish… I could've… at least kissed her,
But no, I let it slip. I let her slip
Thinking back, I wish I had never hurt her,
But she doesn't feel pain,
I wonder, if impaled her in my heart, would I die, and she live?
Would I have ended my misery?
Only those with hearts can move on,
I guess I really am a heartless bastard,
Im stuck here.
Do I really want to help others?
Do I want to make the same mistake I did before, and fall in love?
I could die a thousand times, and I wouldn't care,
I just want to see her again, to hear her actual voice.
To express with more than just words… I know that actions could have spoken louder…
She truly is an Angel…
Kanade… you're my angel,
I love you… come back please,
I promise… I would never let a moment slip without you,
I would pour my heart out for you if I had one,
Even if I don't, I feel it racing even at the thought of you and I together…
Kanade… even if I can't be with you… the memories that you gave for me to carry… I will cherish forever,
Kanade… you are my only angel, no matter how many there are.
There will be only one I love.
You will be the only one I see,
Kanade, you are the Angel with my heart, and you let it make beats.
And when im around you… I could always tell…
They were Angel Beats, of love…
Kanade… Kanade…
-Yuzuru Otonashi