Chapter One

"One year had passed since Joe broke up with me. It's me, Demi the popstar that got her heart broken by her ultimate best friend. Now we were going on a music tour for a year and two months. Ohh! It gets better Joe and I would be performing 'together' on most of the concerts. Yippy ya do da day for me! Life doesn't get better than that, does it? All the memories that were suppose to be just faded away when I got dumped. Joe didn't want to spoil what we had or so he said because after that I saw a picture on Enews of Joe and Ashley Greene, Alice from Twilight, about to kiss. I know they are working on a movie together and everything but the background wasn't shouting 'movie set' to me, so I assume that's why he broke up with me." I marked the date and closed my journal. I rolled over on my bed, lying vertically with my head facing the door , I let my waist length hair cascade over the bed leaving a trail of my naturally curly hair, I was surprisingly very exhausted, I soon drifted off to a very deep slumber.

In my dream Joe and I were running through a meadow of gold and silver flowers, spotted with blue bells and daisy. The trees swayed with the gentle wind that blew my hair back over my shoulders. I swear I could've felt a smile on my face while dreamed. I faintly heard a voice calling out to me, maybe trying to wake me up, but I didn't want to wake up! UH-OH. I immediately recognized that horrible sweet voice that brought the bittersweet memories back to me. 'Ugh' I let out a groan, and then groggily sat up using my hands to support my body which was swaying from side to side trying to stay upright; I opened my eyes seeing through my thick eyelashes, blurrily. I saw Joe's face a few inches away from mine, my reflex action would have been to flinch away but I was literally unconcern and still very much unconscious.

His hand shot out to hold my shoulders to keep me steady, I said to him I want to sleep but to me it sounded like a mumble mixed with a moan and a sigh. Joe looked at my bewildered expressions and started to laugh. Joe removed his hands from my shoulders and I felt myself inch forward to fall, but that only brought my face closer to his as I tried to stay steady. His eyes bore into mine even though mines where nearly half-open. He started to talk about something which I didn't hear then he said he was bored and wanted to do something. I just shook my head saying no, he pouted his face, ay ya yi, I knew what that meant, he was about to argue until he won and that I was not having, not tonight. I saw his mouth open to start debating with me.

My hands shot out just in time to clamp my hands down on his mouth but I stumbled in doing that as I hadn't regained control of my body, within doing that I crashed on top of him , sending him flat down on my bed. His hands wrapped around my waist to keep us from falling off the bed. My hair created a curtain over us as it was over my forehead as well as his, my hand was still over his mouth, his eyes looked amused and something else I didn't recognize. My muscles still felt like jelly , my head hurt and I wanted SLEEP was that a hard thing to want. My forehead was already lightly pressed against his. I closed my eyes and groaned and within doing that my forehead was pressed deeper into his, "I wanna sleep" I mumble and with that I blanked out, forgetting that I was still on top of him. Yikes!

TWO HOURS LATER

I fidgeted finding it a little hard to curl up on my side, whatever was around my lower back was like a snare. I didn't even bother to turn on my side and started stroking my pillow, it was a bad habit. My fingers traced patterns on a smooth surface. I moved my hands around to try and figure out what I was sleeping on, because it surely wasn't my bed and my pillows. I felt something soft maybe lips; I brought my hand to my face to feel my lips to see if it felt the same way, yea it did. I was getting very frightened. I drew my hands back to the odd surface. I felt lower down where my head was, warm, very warm actually, I stroked around the structure of it, huh? It felt like collar bones, utterly afraid I brought my hands back to my own collar bone to see if I was mistaken. No I wasn't, I gulped and passed my hands back to what I thought was a body and went lower to where I thought was 'IT'S' chest area.

I slowly brought myself up, afraid to face whatever it was. I heard a dark chuckle, I knew that laugh a little too well, and I shot forward to face Joe Jonas! His face was twisted up in freaky way that scared the living day lights out of me. I screamed but it came out in a weird gulp as I tried scramble away from him. His arms remained around me, making it inescapable. He burst out laughing, reforming his face. I pushed his hands away which loosened from his outburst. I scrambled off him and fell off the bed, which made him laugh harder. I got up and ran into my bathroom, I deliberately took long, wanting to make him suffer. When I finished I jumped in a black skinny jeans and a dark, silk blue, baby doll top and a dark blue ballet flats with my favorite charm bracelet, chain, and long earrings; these had musical notes adorning it. Satisfied, I applied my vanilla chap stick.

I walked out in time to find Joe about to open my journal, like a tiger I pounced on the bed and snatched it out of his hands and pushed it under the bed. I got up and fixed myself, then humbly sat on the bed with my hands on my lap. 'What do you want to do?' I asked ignoring the fact that I wrestled my journal out of his hands. He looked at me and opened his eyes wide with a smirk on his face 'Your unbelievable and completely weird, have I told you that already?' he said dryly

'Duh, a million and one times!' I said just as cold and stuck my tongue out at him I so badly wanted to ask him about him and the pixie girl, I wonder what he'll, what if he gets angry at me and shouts at me to mind my own business, but am his best friend, I could ask him that, I wonder if am still his best friend. I sat their contemplating with myself that I forgot about Joe.

'Earth to Demi' and I snapped out of it

'What' I sounded as though I was being pulled out of a trance.

'What are you thinking about, that made you forget that you had me over' Joe asked

'Umm…..I-I nothing' I said sounding embarrassed and my face turned serious.

'What were you going to say Demi' he asked sounding annoyed

'I—I … I wasn't going to say anything' my voice went from high to shallow

'Liar!'

'Ok I got it how about we go get something to eat and then see a movie' I reasoned

'Fine but you are going to tell me what's going on' Joe added

I jumped off the bed and walked towards the door, followed by Joe

We reached outside to my walk and we got in Joe's car, we stopped out at Burger King and ordered two number fives and the Hersey's chocolate pie.

When finished eat, we headed towards the cinema, along the way I couldn't help but laugh at Joe when he started to sing Superman by my favorite co-star Sterling Knight, I joked that Sterling sounded better and Joe argue until he got me to say that he, Joe Jonas is awesome. I closed my eyes , the car got really quite, then I heard Avril Larvengne Losing Grip come on I couldn't help myself , it was my favorite song. With my eyes closed I began to sing, momentarily forgetting that Joe was in the car.

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real..
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say...

I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
That's when I decided...

Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone...
You, you need to listen!
I'm startin' to trip,
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone...

Am I just some chick you placed beside you,
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face..?
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case,
Everything wasn't okay..

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
thats when i decided...

Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm startin' to trip
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Cryin' out loud
I'm cryin' out loud
Cryin' out loud
I'm cryin' out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide

Why should I care
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone

Why should I care
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone
Why should I care?
If you don't care, then I don't care
We're not going anywhere(X2)

I could feel the tears about to fall, that sound always reminded of how I felt when Joe broke up with me. I slowly opened my eyes, hoping the tears wouldn't spill, I saw that it was dark in Joe's land rover. I passed my hands on my face and sure enough the traitor tears where there. I let my eyes steal a peek at Joe to see if he was watching. I quickly saw through my eyelashes that he was watching me with a hurt expression on his face. He halted to stop in the cinema's parking lot; I didn't realize we were here already. I turned in Joe's direction to get my handbag, when a tear dropped onto his hand. I quickly wiped my face, gathered my bag and looked up to see him staring at me.

When we reached the ticket boot, we were contemplating on what we should see, he wanted to see Predators or something like that but I wanted to see The Last Song by my Amiga Miley. I won by saying Miles will totally kick your butt if she found you didn't see her movie and with that I bought the tickets, even though he said he would pay for it. He bought the food, so it was only fair I pay for the movie. We headed towards the canteen where we bought popcorn and I picked up an Oreo cakester.

Joe got the seats while headed towards the bathroom and text Miley. I headed into the theater and found Joe as he was waving like a maniac on top. I laughed and found my way to him. We sat in the middle and waited for the movie to start, when I asked Joe for my Oreos he chuckled darkly and handed me the pack which I found empty. I stared at him in disbelief.

'You didn't?' I argued

'Ohh Dems thanks by the way, best Oreo ever' he smiled wickedly

'Humph! Bigheaded Jonas brother' I mumbled

'I heard that' Joe said in a sing song voice. I pushed his hand away which was around my shoulders.

We continued teasing each other until the movie started, but he wouldn't shut up, so I in turn pulled his ear until he begged for me to stop.

For some reason I had a big grin on my face while I was glued to the screen, I saw Joe watching with an amused expression on his face but I ignored him.

Halfway through the movie when I started to cry buckets Joe laughed and teasingly put his arm around me and patted my head. I pushed his hands away which made him laugh even more. Then his phone rang, he whispered that he would be right back and then left me in the theater. There was about 45 minutes for the show, after 3o minutes I realized Joe hadn't come back yet , maybe it was something really important, I continued crying and I felt I was crying because Joe left me in the theater looking like a loser. When the show finally ended, I text Miley and told her that it was a really good show and I really, really enjoyed. I walked out wondering where Joe was. I finally spotted him with his back turned to me; he was still talking on the phone.

I decided to sneak up on him, as I sleazily made my way to him, mere inches from his back, I heard him say into the phone 'I love you too'. I was shocked, so it was true; he was dating the little pixie from twilight. I turned around as I felt the tears coming up, I wanted to run and before I knew it I started walking really fast away from Joe, it turned into a slow run, I heard someone calling me from behind, it was Joe, I pretended not here him or the people watching us, thinking this was so news worthy. I wiped my face with my hand and turn only to bump into Joe.

'Didn't you hear me calling you' sounding outraged

'I'm sorry I didn't hear you, one minute I saw you next minute I lost through a crowd of people' I replied

'You could've just called me' he still sounded angry and his eyes showed it.

'I said am sorry' I sounded as though I was on the verge of tears but my eyes didn't show.

'Are you ok?' he asked hearing my strangled voice

I turned away; I couldn't watch him straight in his eyes and lie

'Yea, never been better' I said

'Alright' he said

We made our way to the parking lot, located Joe's car and headed home.

'Ugh! This is just great it's a two hour drive to my place and with this traffic it would take about four hours!' I grumbled.

'AHAHAHA' Joe burst into laughter.

'What are you laughing about?' I replied my sweet yet hinted with irritation in my voice.

'Ohh nothing my darling, nothing at all' he said in a British accent.

'Bighead Jo bro' I retorted

'Really Demi, really?' he teased

'Hey that's my line' I argued

'Whatever'

'Fine'

'Fine' Joe mocked

I stuck my tongue out at him and played bejewel on my phone.

I like It by Enrique Iglesias began to play; both Joe and I reached for our phones. I laughed as I got my phone and saw that it was my phone that rung

'Gasp' Oh yay Kendall' I thoughtlessly said really excited

Kendall was my very good friend from childhood, who got in the music industry with some of his best friends who like mine too. He got signed with a record company with his band Big Time Rush. He started telling me that they would be coming out with their first song and how they were going to go international. Then we started talking about childhood memories like when he got me to go fishing with him and the boys where they threw in the water and I caught a fish with my hand and started chasing them around with it.

We kept talking about stuff like that for about two hours, once in awhile I would hear Joe clear his throat , but I completely ignored him, I was having way too much off a good time on the phone with Kendall. Reluctantly, we both hung up, promising each other to go out someday, I replied saying it would be a date, I saw Joe turn his head to me, we both finished by saying love you lots like pok-a-dots, that was our famous goodbye line, we joked about that too. We finally, said goodbye. I sighed and said 'got to love him'

Joe cleared his throat.

With about an hour and half till I reached home, Joe watched with a questioning look.

'What?' I asked still too happy from that call

'Who was so important that you forgot that you where in a car with me?' he said raising an eyebrow

'Ohhhhhhh' I teased

'Well?' he urged

'Ok, if I can't shut up, don't say I didn't tell you so' I got really excited

I went on telling him that Kendall was my greatest buddy ever and how much we had common, and what we used to do when we were smaller, how our moms were best friends, which encouraged us to become best friends forever, I told off what Kendall and I would say when we are saying goodbye and our promise to always have each others back till we grow old. I talked and talked, I think I must have bored Joe out, but he seemed all too interested.

We finally pulled up by my house; I was still talking about Kendall and the rest of the boys. I asked him if he wanted to come in but he said , he had to meet someone.

'At this hour?' I joked

He just smiled

'Hey Joe? I asked

'Yea'

'Are you dating the pixie...rr...Umm I mean Ashley Greene?' I mumbled

He looked amused like he was going explode.

'Well' I got irritated

'No Demi we're just making a movie, didn't I tell you that?' he said

'Umm...yea but you see... I –I um…. You know what goodnight' and with that I got out of the car and headed to my door when Joe called me, I turned and saw him, right before me on my porch.

'What's up? I asked

'So you tell Kendall you love him but you tell me goodnight with no hug or kiss!' he contemplated

'Ummm...i'll think about it' I teased, I laughed and turned to go but he caught my hand and pulled me into a tight hug

'Can't breathe…Joe' I struggled

My feet were off the ground; soon he set me down with a big smile on his face.

'Ok …happy? …goodnight?' I asked

'Nope…am waiting for my kiss'

'Ha-ha… I don't think so'

'Why? You've done it many times before' he teased

'Ah-ha but you broke up with me'

'Just give me a kiss' he shouted

'NO'

'Why'

'Because…' I had nothing

'Because?' he asked

'I have no idea but...' I ran up the walk to the door, turned and stuck my tongue out at him

'Demi, I am not leaving until you come out here' he shouted

'Suit yourself' I shouted back

He looked really surprised with that one. I think Joe has finally lost it, he broke up with me and now he wants me to give him a kiss. I think he's finally gone loco. I admit I do really love Joe and it's really hard to hide that away since am around him all the time and we try to move around like how we used to, more like I try. I got upstairs to my room, my parents where on a trip to Atlanta, so I had the house to myself. I was scared to stay by myself.

I looked outside and saw Joe with his back to the house. What Joe wants, Joe gets.

I changed my clothes into a nice silky pajama's and let my hair down. I came onto my balcony hoping not to find Joe on the lawn, yet there he was. He wouldn't look at the house though, about twenty minutes passed and Joe was still there. I shouted at him to go home but he didn't even take me on, he kept his back to the house. I was seriously getting annoyed with him on my lawn what would the neighbors think or worse yet the paparazzi. Now this would make a good story. I reluctantly made my way to the front door. I was going to jump him since he refused to turn around.

I tried not laugh as I made my way over to him, a few feet away I took off running and made one huge jump and landed on his back. He struggled for balance but stayed upright. My hands around his neck I learned forward and said 'You don't give up … do you?'

All I heard was a 'mmhmm' sound

I pressed lips against his cheek, for 3 Mississippi's.

'Happy now?' I asked

'No' he replied

'What? Why? Wait don't answer that' I quickly corrected

I gave him a quick kiss on his next cheek.

'You can't say anything , you didn't say where I had to kiss you' I slid off his back and ran inside

'Love yah too!' I shouted from the door

I saw head to his car and drive away , tomorrow was a next day , I had no idea what would happen then.