Jasper, Jack's POV

I lay on my bed, staring blankly, unblinkingly, at the ceiling. I flinched as a ice cold feeling paralyzed my legs. I couldn't move.

I shut my eyes tightly as hot tears threatend to spill from my eyes.

"Pl-please...N-n-not today, p-please...!" I begged quietly as the numbness slowly crept up my body.

"Hush, little one. Take peace in knowing that as long as you feel pain, you are living." A feminine voice whispered.

"N-No, please! I-I-!"

A soft voice echoed within my mind.

"Now now, little sweet spark. Quiet down, I promise, it shall end soon."

My eyes shot open and I whimpered as white hot pain flooded my senses. My back arched off the bed as the pain intensified, and my mouth opened in a silent scream.

But then my whole body became paralyzed as the pain turned unbearible.

It felt as though my heart was being torn to pieces, as though my very soul was being scaithed by burning claws. I began to cry, but as always, I cried not tears, but blood.

"Shh, my little sparkling...Listen to my voice, child."

"I-I-I am n-not your sp-sp-sparkl-ling..." I whispered as the pain intensified even more.

The voice then sung the lullaby I'd come to know.

(This is based on a part of the song 'come little children', edited the words a bit though)

"Follow sweet child

I'll show thee the way

Through all the pain and

The sorrows

Weep not sweet child

For life is this way

Murdering beauty and passions

Hush now my sweet one

It must be this way

To weary of life and

Deceptions

Come now my darling

The times come to play

Here in the darkness and

Shadows..."

The pain slowly faded, leaving me there, laying with bloody tears staining my face. I panted, left breathless from the struggle I'd had trying to breathe.

"Rest, sparkling. I will come again tomorow."

The tone was motherly, I knew her intention was not to hurt me she meerly wanted to keep it fresh in my mind that I was supposedly her child.

I strugled against the words that tried to force through my lips, she always did this, and I wanted to refuse her the pleasure of the words. But as always, words were forced from my lips, bo matter how hard I tried to choke them back down.

"G-goodnight, Shadowdusk...M-mother"

The words were rasped, full of my weariness that mingled with my fear and anger.

"Goodnight, Moonsoul."

Soon, my body was no longer paralyzed. I knew she was still in my mind, but was resting.

I slowly forced myself to sit up and go into the bathroom. Only to retch what I'd earlier eaten.

Shadowdusk had warned me that I wouldn't be able to eat human food now. Only energon would suffice.

I moved to the counter sink, washing off the bloody tears and rinsing out the terrible taste in my mouth. I then leaned on the counter, staring at my reflection in the mirror as I remembered how this had happend.

Flashback

I stood before Vector Sigma, waiting for the matrix to be complete. The scraplets and monster had dove off the side of the structure, so now I could wait in peace, with the key out of any danger.

I was staring at the key, watching in awe when there was a clang of metal behind me. I turned abruptly, making my head slightly spin, but nothing was there.

I eyed the empty space behind one last time before turning back to the key.

"Almost done...!" I murmured to myself as I crossed my arms...

I screamed in fear and pain as I was suddenly tossed into the air, landing a ways away from the key with a thud.

I tried to quickly get back up, but something pressed against my chest, forcing me down, making remain on my back.

I stared up and found myself staring into piercing gold optics.

I gasped.

A femme kneeled over me, a hand keeping me down, while the other busied itself with gently stroking the helmet of the space suit almost endearingly.

She was the same size as Arcee, maybe a bit taller. Her face angled in a delicate manner, giving her a soft look. She was silver and blood red. Energon streaked her face, and I realized that she'd been crying.

"H...Hello...?" I hesitantly said, wondering what she was doing here.

A small smile crept across her face, but I wondered if she even understood english.

"Hello, my little sparkling."

I stared at her with shock. Her voice was soft, dipping and rising in ways that made me feel sleepy and happy. But she called me 'her' sparkling, when I was far from a sparkling, and FAR from being her child.

"Who...Who are you...?" I asked as she gently lifted my in her hands and inspected me.

"I am Shadowdusk."

"Shadow...Dusk...?" I murmured, head tilting slightly. She chuckled.

"Yes, and you sweet spark, what is your name?"

Sweet spark?

I cleared my throat before I replied.

"My name's Jack."

She smiled, then reached to remove the helmet of the space suit.

"N-no! Don't do that!" I exclaimed, grabbing the helmet.

She tilted her head in silent question.

"I can't breath here, I'd die. Humans are different from Cybertronians, like you." I explained, glancing over to the key.

So close to being done.

Shadowdusk laughed before cradling me close to her chest plates.

"Don't worry, my little one, I can fix this delema."

I stared up at her, what did she mean?

"No, th-that's alright, really! I need to get the key, get it back to my friend!" I said hurridly, trying to move off her hands, but she simply held me closer.

"Do not leave, I have been alone for so long, now to have a child...it heals my aching spark."

"But I'm NOT your kid! I already have a mom, back on my planet! I can't stay. I'm sorry, I really am, but I-!"

I was cut off when she touched a finger to my chest.

I screamed in agony as pain flooded my senses. But as soon as it had started, it stopped.

I panted looking up at Shadowdusk, but she meerly smiled softly. She then tore my helmet away.

I gasped, trying desperately to grab it. I couldn't breathe without it! I couldn't...

But I drew in a ragged breath. I stared down at myself in shock, I was still alive?

Shadowdusk laughed.

"Now I shall always be with you, my darling. Now you shall always be free to come and go as you please, and I will slowly bring the rest of the change to you."

"Wh-what do you mean? What've you done?" I demanded as panic laced through my heart.

"Hush, my child, you shall know later, but now isn't the time."

"I AM NOT YOUR KID! I AM HUMAN! HUMAN!" I screamed angrily.

Suddenly, her gold optics snapped to me, cold and unforgiving.

"No, you are MY sparkling, Moonsoul."

"Moonsoul?"

She smiled again, her optics becoming friendly again in a scarily fast time.

"Your name, sweet spark."

I yelped when she suddenly placed me back onto the ground.

"Now go, you have a friend to help, yes? I will no longer be lonely, I will always be with you." She said before going to the edge of the platform.

"Wait, what-?"

She jumped over the edge.

I ran to it, looking over to see nothing but fog.

I slowly backed away, grabbing my helmet and placing it back on.

This HAD to be some trick.

I quickly went over to Vector Sigma, removing the key as I glanced over my shoulder.

Arcee raced into the chamber, making me jump slightly. But I shakily held up the key.

I would worry about 'Shadowdusk' later.

Flashback end

Now she visited me in my mind, the pain was supposedly the 'change' she was bringing, the reason I couldn't eat any longer.

Now I was like some possesion to her, her child. Whenever I spoke of my real mom, she'd get into a rage, making the pain worse.

No matter how comforting her voice, I knew she was insane, and I was slowly becoming insane as well.

The tears of blood, the pain, the voices.

All part of my new, beautiful insanity.