Finally Falling, Chapter One

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters in the show Victorious or the plot or anything…

I shouldn't be feeling this way. It was wrong, I had Jade, but as I stared on at Tori I didn't feel the guilt I should have. Tori was... everything Jade wasn't. She was nice, caring, and yet still beautiful. I saw Andre laugh with her and it hurt, I was jealous and I had never really been this jealous before. And while I knew that I shouldn't be feeling this way I couldn't stop because Tori was just… perfect, at least in my eyes.

These feelings had started soon after the play had ended. Playing her love in a play shouldn't have been that hard, it was stage romance, or it should have been. Throughout the rehearsals i just... fell for her, and I knew that they shouldn't have, but they did.

I saw Jade walk over and, as usual, she ignored Tori. I knew why, these bitter feelings Jade had towards Tori were my fault. Jade knew I was attracted to Tori, but I couldn't help it.

"Beck!" Jade screamed.

"Yes?" I replied.

"Let's go, " she said already in the process of dragging me off.

"Bye Tori, bye Andres!" I said while attempting to catch up to Jade.

~In the hallway, away from Tori and Andres~

"What exactly were you doing! Staring at her? Really?! You're my boyfriend… aren't you?" Jade said thoroughly pissed.

"I know, I know," I sighed, exasperated.

" Then why do you still do it?" She said slightly calmed.

"I don't know… I didn't mean to," I said confused by my own actions.

"Don't do it again," she stated forcefully. "You're my boyfriend."

"Jade?" I called as she started walking away, "I… think we need to take a break… We've been going out for two years, and truthfully… I'm not sure we're even going out for the right reason anymore. I know we were 'in love' when we started going out but my feelings have… dwindled. I'm not sure you're really 'that girl' for me anymore."

"So? You're going to go to Tori?!" She screamed. "You and I both know Andre is into her! What's the point? I love you! You love me back! You can't break up with me; we're perfect for each other. We're the 'it' couple of the school we can't break up!"

"I'm sorry, but I just can't stay together with you when I think I might be falling for Tori…" I said trailing off with uncertainty. Just what was she going to do to Tori now that I confessed? "Don't hurt Tori, she hasn't done anything to egg me on, but really… Even in the beginning of our relationship it was shaky. There are plenty of guys pining after you that want you more than I do. Please, just, go out with one of them… I know you don't feel as strongly about me as you did before, we both just need to move on. These two years were… wonderful, but we both know that you're getting sick of me and in reality, I don't think you're the kind of girl I'm looking for. You're so forceful, and while that's not a bad thing it's really not… my type of girl anymore. I tried putting up with your lying and your harshness, but once Tori came along and I saw a girl that was really nice, caring, and gentle I just couldn't find myself as attracted to you as before.

"Fine, be like that, but if you ever want me back I won't take you. I promise I won't do anything rude to Tori, but that doesn't guarantee that I'll be as nice to her as before," she stated, already walking away.