My eyes ached from crying so much,my back stiff from the position I was in. Curled up on my bedroom floor, my quilt wrapped around my shaking body, was what i was reduced to.Between sobs I thought about my situation, which only brought on more tears. I could not decide, would never be able to. The truth was, I loved them both. And there seemed to be no way around it. It was a few days ago that Jake kissed me in the forest, when I was hiding from the attacking vampires. When I realized I loved him. My passion for Jake matched that of Edward's, which brought me to this sniveling mass of tears. Pitiful. I sniffed and blew my nose on my old patchwork quilt, resting my head on the hard floor. After begging Edward to leave me alone, and telling Charlie to screw off numerous times, I was thankful for some "me" time. I sat up and ran my fingers through my tatty hair, recluctantly standing up. I winced as I strectched my back, which was extremely sore from lying on the floor, crying, for over 3 hours. I just couldnt bring myself to lay in my bed, the bed that Edward had made love to me in. Yes, he finally gave in, the night the vampire attack ended. But now I saw it as a big mistake. Because he gave his love to me, and I in other words "gave it away". I cheated.