Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade. I do not own "Immortal Blood", the
fanfic this is a sequel to; Chibi Neko-chan owns it and her own sequel
called "The Biovolt Project".
Trust and Betrayal By Xi Na
How do you learn what trust is, when the only person you've ever trusted in your whole life betrays you by walking away. I trusted him enough to tell him all my deepest, darkest secrets and he walked away. He could hurt me physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually with the information he has, why doesn't he realize I trust him. I may never trust him or anyone else ever again. He said, "When you feel you can trust me, come and find me" and then he walked into the night.
I trusted him even when he did untrustworthy things. He blabbed my secret to Kenny and then he asked me to bite him in front of the White Tigers and the rest of the Bladebreakers after his near rape. I mean come on if that isn't trust I don't know what it is, of course that may be why I responded to Max's question, "No. He's never coming back". Rei, how can you not realize I trust you? The need for blood is growing stronger, I need to get some soon, or I will do something I will regret.
I will need to focus for the tournament or we are going to lose. I know I have trust issues, but anybody would after what I have been through. Li and Mariah came by earlier asking if we all wanted to go for a swim. They noticed Rei was gone and asked where he was, Takao responded that Rei and I had a fight and Rei left last night. They asked what I did to him to make him leave; they all obviously don't notice the haunted/empty look in my eyes. They don't realize how much it hurts to not have him here with me and to know it is all my fault. He promised to protect me from Boris, but obviously, he didn't care what happens to me. I protected him and he just walked away, it just proves he didn't trust me or love me.
Li, Mariah and the rest of the White Tigers took off to see if they could find him anywhere around, but I seriously doubt they will since I searched for him last night and didn't find a trace of him anywhere. Something could have happened to him, but then again I shouldn't care after he left me the way he did. I should just let myself die by not drinking any blood, but I don't think I could stand the pain. I deserve the pain, I should starve myself, just for what I did to him, but I do not know if I can resist the urges enough to not kill Kenny, Max, or Takao. I would regret it, if I did kill them because it would cause Rei more pain.
I have to ignore the pain, but I need the blood to live. It took me a long time to trust even this small handful of people. Rei may make me throw it all away and leave them behind. I don't know what to do.
Trust and Betrayal By Xi Na
How do you learn what trust is, when the only person you've ever trusted in your whole life betrays you by walking away. I trusted him enough to tell him all my deepest, darkest secrets and he walked away. He could hurt me physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually with the information he has, why doesn't he realize I trust him. I may never trust him or anyone else ever again. He said, "When you feel you can trust me, come and find me" and then he walked into the night.
I trusted him even when he did untrustworthy things. He blabbed my secret to Kenny and then he asked me to bite him in front of the White Tigers and the rest of the Bladebreakers after his near rape. I mean come on if that isn't trust I don't know what it is, of course that may be why I responded to Max's question, "No. He's never coming back". Rei, how can you not realize I trust you? The need for blood is growing stronger, I need to get some soon, or I will do something I will regret.
I will need to focus for the tournament or we are going to lose. I know I have trust issues, but anybody would after what I have been through. Li and Mariah came by earlier asking if we all wanted to go for a swim. They noticed Rei was gone and asked where he was, Takao responded that Rei and I had a fight and Rei left last night. They asked what I did to him to make him leave; they all obviously don't notice the haunted/empty look in my eyes. They don't realize how much it hurts to not have him here with me and to know it is all my fault. He promised to protect me from Boris, but obviously, he didn't care what happens to me. I protected him and he just walked away, it just proves he didn't trust me or love me.
Li, Mariah and the rest of the White Tigers took off to see if they could find him anywhere around, but I seriously doubt they will since I searched for him last night and didn't find a trace of him anywhere. Something could have happened to him, but then again I shouldn't care after he left me the way he did. I should just let myself die by not drinking any blood, but I don't think I could stand the pain. I deserve the pain, I should starve myself, just for what I did to him, but I do not know if I can resist the urges enough to not kill Kenny, Max, or Takao. I would regret it, if I did kill them because it would cause Rei more pain.
I have to ignore the pain, but I need the blood to live. It took me a long time to trust even this small handful of people. Rei may make me throw it all away and leave them behind. I don't know what to do.