A/N: For Charlie and Andy
I think the hardest thing for me was accepting that you really didn't care. You didn't care that every time you looked at her my heart broke a little more; you didn't care that every time you sent her a text and she showed it to me my heart would feel trampled on. You knew how I felt and yet you still flirted with her. My best friend. My best friend that fucking used you. And even after that when she treated you like absolute shit, even when I offered you friendship instead of bitching- even then you chose her over me. I just want to know why, I guess. Why her? Why the girl who teased you and made fun of you when you could have had me? Why the girl who constantly looked down at you, the girl who would put you down and hurt you when you could have had me, a girl who would have listened and loved and understood? What was it about me that made me "not your type"? After all, that's what you told her. Was it my weight? I don't think so- both of them are pretty much the same weight as me. What then? My glasses? My hair? The fact that I refused to dress like a slut and roll my skirt, refused to buy converse or vans? I suppose you might have loved me, once upon a time. Years ago when you asked me to go with your friends. I still remember that day, that summer. I still remember that phone call. I lied to her, you know. I told her all sorts of things when we still loved you. You know, I am so scared of her telling you those things. Absolutely fucking terrified that one day she'll need blackmail and remember the day when I told her you touched my leg and smelt my hair. Thinking of that makes me sick. They say at my age I can't love anyone. I disagree. If I can't love someone, how can I not forget you? How come every time I see you I try and think of something clever to say.
Maybe one day I'll be able to forget you.
But not yet.
Yours, Molly
A/N: I don't want hate mail. I realise this isn't really fanfiction. I don't want reviews. I'm just sick of posting fluff, when all I want to do is cry. I think I'm saying goodbye to fanfiction for a while.
Goodbye.