A/N: This lil thing just came to me at night. It was written cause i was feeling really depressed about stuff. angsty remus!

I love you.

I know I do, so I'll just put that out there.

For a whole year, you've been the only one I think about at night, the one thought I hold dear as I drift into sleep.

But you, dear Sirius, will never find room in your heart for a pitiful little Remus.

I know you never will.

At school, in our uniforms, you and our friends exchange your thoughts on homosexuality.

I know they are full of contempt.

Lily and I exchange looks of sorrow for you and our friends,

But I know the looks I give her are really for myself.

She doesn't know that, of course.

I know that my eyes contain the sorrow of months,

Months of you lusting over women,

and I knew you would never lust for me

Like I do for you.

I hear giggles and moans coming from your bed sometimes when you forget the Silencing charm,

And I know when she comes out, I will have to hide the seething ball of jealousy and despair bursting through me.

I know my heart is shattered sometimes,

but I move on,

because I know I am yet young,

and I am strong.

I know I can survive you.

I may never get to kiss you, and run my hands through your thick, shaggy hair,

but I know someday I will find someone I will love

who will love me back.