There's no solution to my story.
It seems now, as I look back on it, there never was to begin with. There was no foundation either; we just…crumbled. And now, as I sit in the rubble and cry, I look around at the ruined details and hate myself more.
He's not who I thought he was. I am broken…I am a million pieces away from ever being fixed again. They tell you in love, you're not supposed to put all of your happiness into that one person; but as I sit here and think about it, I did that. I did exactly that, and it pushed me on my ass.
So I guess now this is the part where I tell myself that I'm a big, fucking idiot. I'm a fucking idiot for losing myself to him; for giving him everything. It's too late to crawl back into my shell and hide away…because everyone knew.
It took too much time to realize it; and now that I did I saw every flaw. Every little crack and crevice that broke us. I suddenly realized just how much we fought; most of it was over stupid shit, trying to prove to the other that one was right. It was a challenge…a competition. I was his game piece, and as soon as I lost, he left.
He took my heart with him; he left me this cold, undefined person. He'd promised me things, but never kept them. So here I was, broken like one of his promises.
Maybe I deserve it; I could live with that explanation. Because of him, I ran away from home at eighteen and threw away everything I worked for. Was I really that easy to walk all over?
Could he really just leave mud on my heart and stain it? It must have been easy for him, because he did it.
My knuckles were bloody and bruised as I continued to pound on the cement. He took my car and left me stranded in the middle of Los Angeles. We had gotten into another fight that left me paralyzed in the heart, and reeling in the mind. I let out screams of frustration and anger as I continued to beat into the cement. How the fuck could I have been so stupid?
I had no one to blame but myself; that's what he told me. But he was wrong.
I had both of us to blame.
A/N: So I was watching a Kristen Stewart movie marathon, and I got this idea for a story. So far so good, we haven't lost power, although I can't say the same for tomorrow. Review? Maybe let me know what you thought?