"Take me instead! Don't kill her!" I felt a lot of eyes staring at me and I swallowed hard. A man walked to me, knife in hand, and a loud cry echoed through the room.

"No! Don't Kendall! Take me!" I was forced to my knees with the knife pressed to my neck.

"You're a stupid boy Kendall Knight." I closed my eyes and heard one final cry.

Three Weeks Earlier

I slowly opened my eyes and groaned. I looked at the alarm clock between mine and Logan's bed. It was 5 on the dot and I tore the blankets away from my body. I sat up and rolled my neck.

"Wow a full hour more of sleep for you."

"Shut up Logan. I already hate myself enough."

"Yeah why is that?" He sat up in his bed and I stared at him as he got out, rubbing his eyes. I could not tell him. I doubt he would understand.

"What are you doing?"

"Please…when you're up, the whole house is up…at least me James and Carlos are." He walked to the door and out into the dark hall. That made me feel worse…I didn't mean to wake them up. I didn't want to wake them up.

I got off my bed and walked out. I saw the hall bathroom door closed and walked out into the kitchen, towards the other bathroom. I walked in, and quietly closed the door. I flipped on the lights and squinted. I stumbled to the medicine cabinet and opened it, blinking my eyes so they adjust. I reached up to the middle cabinet and found the small bottle I had grown so used to. I shook it, and only heard three, maybe four pills. I sighed and popped it open. I tossed the pills back, and swallowed them dry. I squeezed my eyes tight as they went down and sighed when I swallowed them. I stumbled to the toilet and opened the lid. I pissed, and flushed. When I shut off the light, and walked out, I groaned on the inside seeing Carlos, Logan and James all leaning against the counters.

"You guys don't need to be awake."

"What's going on with you?" I froze in place hearing James's icy cold voice. I swallowed hard and opened the fridge grabbing a water bottle.

"You're scaring us Kendall." Carlos sounded near tears and I shook off the feeling of being attacked. "Look at your body. Your skin and bones dude." I quickly looked down at my bare chest and looked away, feeling disgusted.

"Just please talk to us Kendall." I turned and Logan was shaking his head. "You…you scream…and cry in your sleep, when you get sleep."

"And when you wake up…you don't talk to anyone, and when you do you're a total dick." James was softening. Carlos wouldn't look at me.

"Don't worry about me guys, really. Nothing's wrong." Even as I said it, my mind was telling me to break down and tell them the truth. That I've been depressed. It's not easy to have three best friends who are better at everything they do. They all have their dads still. James was good looking and got every girl he wanted. Logan was smart ad could easily do surgery on my brain, and not mess up. Carlos…God Carlos was such a free spirit. He did whatever he wanted, not caring what people though.

I was the fearless tough leader. Bullshit. I was nothing. I was pathetic. I only put up the strong front, because I had to. For my mom and little sister. And the guys. It was my genius idea to come out to Hollywood and be a boy band. And look where it's gotten us…

"We are going to worry about you Kendall. Your our brother." I set my bottle down and walked away from them, going back to my shared room with Logan. "Kendall stop!" James was in front of me, and put his hands on my shoulders. I shoved him away and Logan and Carlos were in front of me.

"Please just talk to us."

"Stop telling me to talk to you guys! I have nothing to say…and if I did you wouldn't want to hear it!"

"Give us a little more credit Kendall!" Logan pushed me, and looked near tears. "Stop being so selfish and stubborn! Let us help you!"

"Just tell us what we can do Kendall…please." Carlos was physically upset, and I was getting tired of this. I pushed through them and into my bedroom. I pulled off my sweats and grabbed a random pair of black jeans on the ground. I pulled them on and grabbed a plain white shirt.

"Where are you going?" I pulled the shirt on and grabbed a sweater.

"Kendall you're not walking away from this!" All three were staring in the door way and I pushed my feet into a pair of sneakers. I pushed past my three best friends but stopped seeing my mom walk out of her room, wrapping a robe around her body. She looked so worried, and it killed me.

"Where are you going Kendall?" I looked down and shook my head.

"Out." I walked quickly out of the hallway, and to the door. I pulled it open quick and walked out.

"Kendall?!" My sisters little voice almost made me turn around and go back inside, but I kept walking to the elevator. I pushed down and sighed, pulling my hood on. "Kendall I want to come!" I turned and she was walking down the hall, pulling on shoes.

"Katie get back in the apartment."

"No! Don't boss me around." The doors clicked open and I stepped in, quickly pushing the down button. Katie pushed her body in and I sighed gently pushing her out. "Kendall stop being a jerk!" She looked near tears and it almost killed me. I kept her out until the doors started closing. I pulled my body in and they shut on my sister, crying.

I backed into the wall and sighed out, holding back the tears. When the elevator stopped, I walked out quickly and into the lobby. The lobby doors leading out into the pool area, were closed, but I still heard the loud, ear shattering splash. I looked out quick and saw a body floating in the deep end, un moving. I ran out quick, pulling off my sweater. I dove in and pulled the body, which I realized was a girl to the shallow end. I saw my best friends run out, and I walked up the stairs getting out, and lacing her on the ground. I hovered her body, and pushed the hair off of her face. I had to look for a second. She was beautiful. Practically perfect. The other three bent down next to me and I looked up at Logan.

"DO you know CPR?" He nodded and quickly got closer to her face. At the same time her eyes shot open, and they were jet black. We all backed away, and she turned her body, coughing out water. Hose laid back and groaned. Logan put a hand on her shoulder and she squeezed her eyes shut.

"Are you hurt?" She slowly nodded and he turned to me. "Take her up to the apartment. She's likely to catch pneumonia out here." I nodded and quickly scooped her up. Carlos and James opened the door for me and I walked her in. She wrapped her arms around my neck and groaned out again. I held her tight as we walked to the elevator, James pushing the button. Logan was by my side looking worried. "Can you tell me what happened?" She shook her head and the doors dinged open. "Okay I'll just call 911 up in the apartment."

"No!" We all froze as the elevator started moving and she turned to Logan. Her eyes were still jet black and Logan crashed into the back wall. "No…" She whispered it, and put her face back in my neck. I looked at the other three all of us wide eyed.

The doors dinged open and I walked her out, letting the guys get in front of me, opening the apartment door. My mom was pacing in the kitchen and when she saw me, with the girl in my arms, she froze and swallowed hard.

"What happened?" I shook my head and walked her to the couch. I laid her on her back, and noticed for the first time what she was wearing. It was a simple knee length white dress, now clutching to her body. She had on plain white flats and a simple necklace around her neck with a small silver cross hanging on it. I kneeled next to her and the other guys stayed behind the back of the couch, while my mom stood by her head.

"I was just walking through the lobby, and heard a…a loud slash. I t sounded like glass breaking." My mom kneeled down and pushed hair out of her face.

"Sweetheart what's you name?"

"Al…Alex…" She slowly opened her eyes, and again me, Carlos, James and Logan sat back. Her eyes were now a light blue and she stared right at me. "You pulled me?" I slowly nodded and she closed her eyes. "Thank you…what's your name?"

"Ken-Kendall." She sat up fast and I fell back running into the coffee table. She looked around and smiled.

"This is the home of Mrs. Knight and Kendall and Katie? And of course the rest of BTR?" My mom fell back also and Alex looked back at her. "Your Jennifer right?" My mom nodded and she turned to me. "God you look like your dad." I heard a gasp around the room and my mom put her hand on her chest.

"How…how do you know any of this…" She smiled and flipped her legs off the couch.

"Because I'm your Guardian Angel."