'I
guess it's time you went to bed, little man.' Sophie said. The
child snuggled deeper into the blowsy old sofa and lay his head in
her lap. Sophie knew the boy had suffered horribly in the past week
but felt awkward in her new role of mother. She had reached fifty
without bearing children of her own. Sophie pushed him gently
upright, stood up and pulled him to his feet. 'Come on, Nathan.
Let's go. Say night to Uncle George.' His uncle remained hidden
behind his paper and the five-year-old said nothing. Holding Nathan's
damp hand, Sophie took him up the narrow creaking stairs, past her
own room, which smelled of camphor, then up another flight of
near-vertical stairs to the attic bedroom.
When it became clear
Nathan would be coming to live with them, she had hastily turned this
storage area, which George referred to as his office, into a bedroom.
She managed to cut two short curtains from an old splashy-patterned
skirt and had hung them at the peeling casement window in an attempt
to brighten the room. The narrow iron-framed bed came from the junk
shop as had the yellow Navaho blanket that served as a bedspread. The
bookshelves had been in the attic all along -- they just needed a
coat of bright blue paint. George wasn't prepared to help, so it
was the best she could do at such short notice. A neighbour had
looked after the boy on the night his parents had been found dead. He
was then passed along to the child welfare agency, which placed him
with foster-care until they established that the boy had family.
She
turned the bed back and Nathan reluctantly eased himself in.
'Kiss
Aunt Sophie goodnight.' Nathan clung to her neck until she finally
had to pry him loose. She noticed that his hair was sticky with
perspiration.
'Hoo, but it's hot and muggy in here,' Sophie
said. She unlatched the windows and pushed them out. It was a still,
star-encrusted night and not a breath of wind.
'No, NO!'
Nathan started to scream. 'Don't open the window, please, Auntie,
please.' His shrill plea shocked her into slamming the windows
closed.
'What on earth-- ' Sophie stood with her back to the
window as if barring the way and stared at the child, head covered,
squirming under the blankets. She put her hand on him and soothed
him.
'It's all right. Look, I've closed it tight.'
Perhaps he was scared of the owls that roosted in the tree outside.
Whatever was going on in the poor child's head, this was not the
time to reason with him. 'I'll leave the light on a while.'
When she returned to the living room, George threw down his paper
testily.
'So what was all that about?' he growled.
'He's
upset, that's all. His mommy and daddy just killed in a car
accident, you'd hardly expect him to be happy, now would you?'
'What's the point pretendin' it was an accident, y' damn
fool? Anyway, his mother was a cheap drunk and his father was a
no-good bum who went from one trouble to another like he was hopping'
over puddles.'
'Please, George--'
'Yeah, I know, he
was your brother and he's dead now, so what's the point talkin'
on about it. Right?'
'Like Paster Whittle said at the
service, there's good in all of us, George.'
'Well, he
weren't talkin' from experience of your brother, 'cause he
never once laid eyes on him. Church would have fallen down.'
'I
know Mikey had his faults, but it's not our right to judge anybody.
Pastor Whittle said that too.' Sophie picked up her knitting and
started to count stitches aloud to signify that the subject was
closed.
'an' why did he say stuff like that? Because the
town's a-buzz about what happened, that's why.'
'Idle
minds. They've no business speculating about it. Isn't it big
enough news that a car goes over a cliff and two people get smashed
up on the rocks below? Coroner said it was misadventure.'
George
Turnbull had his opening. 'Sure was. Susan met her misadventure
with a smack on the back of the head that police say don't sit
right with the way the vehicle rolled.' George paused to leer at
Sophie, who had looked up from her knitting to meet his eye boldly.
'Poor ol' Mike there, he was outside, standin' beside the
driver's seat, pushin' the car over and got himself hung up in
the busted seatbelt. That brother of yours couldn't even do that
right! He went down with the ship. I'd call that misadventure in
the first degree.'
Sophie was spared an answer. Nathan's
renewed screams came drifting down the stairs.
'Lord, ain't
it enough I had to give up my office,' George snarled. 'Now I
gotta put up with that?'
'Have a bit of Christian
compassion,' Sophie answered curtly. 'I'll go up and see what's
wrong.' His office indeed! An old chair by the window where he
could read magazines that weren't fit for a woman to see.
Sophie
bustled into the room to find the boy buried under the blankets
again, sobbing and wailing uncontrollably.
'Nathan! Nathan!
It's me, Auntie Sophie. It's all right. Nothing's going to hurt
you.' Nathan quietened and gradually emerged from the pile of
blankets. Sophie looked around the room. When she looked at the
window, she felt a tingling of goosebumps up and down her arms. One
side of the casement was wide open.
'Did you open the window,
Honey?' she asked. Nathan responded by screaming again and
burrowing under the bedclothes. She put her hand on his body and
patted him until again he settled and emerged. She went to the
window, peered out onto the peaceful, moonlit woodland and looked
down to the yellow circle cast by the porch light below. The casement
was well oiled and moved freely. Perhaps she'd made a mistake. No,
she was certain she had latched it. She closed the window, secured it
and pushed and pulled on it to test it.
'No problems. All tight
this time,' she said as brightly as she could. 'I wonder how it
got open?'
The boy was wide-eyed. 'Daddy opened it.'
Sophie hugged him hard. 'You poor child, you've had a
nightmare.'
'Daddy had no face. He kept saying 'Sorry'
and then he said Mummy misses me. I've got to go with him to Mummy.
He frightened me.'
Sophie shivered. She found she could barely
breathe. She tried not to show it, tried not look at the window.
'How about I sit with you and sing a bit till you go to sleep.'
Nathan nodded solemnly and pressed his face against her hand as it
rested on his pillow. Sophie started to hum some old tunes she
thought might sound like lullabies. Without thinking, she was singing
the old spiritual, 'Sometimes I feel like a motherless child.'
Poor Susan, she thought. Within ten minutes, the child's breathing
told her he was asleep. She withdrew her hand gently from his face,
glanced around the room once more and tiptoed out.
Was there any
point in telling George? Sophie stood in the doorway of the living
room and watched her husband dig wax out of his ear with a match. He
looked up and paused.
'You look like you've seen a ghost,
woman. What's the matter with you?' His words were enough to
start her crying.
She blurted out the story. 'How could he
possibly know about his father's face? Did Mikey come to the room
to see his son?'
'Kid just said his father had no face. Face
was a blank, that's all. Don't mean he knows his father got his
face squashed bouncin' down the hillside.'
Sophie was shaking
her head in disbelief. 'I don't know, I don't know. The window
– how did it get open again?'
'One thing I know, t'weren't
a ghost. You can forget that nonsense. It ain't Christian talk.'
George pointed a blunt finger at her chest and smirked. 'Pastor
Whittle will soon set you straight on that.'
Sophie sat down on
the sofa opposite her husband. She closed her eyes and murmured a
quiet prayer. When she opened her eyes, George was staring at her
scornfully.
'Mikey loved his boy. He wouldn't harm him,'
she said. ' He loved Susan, too. Why would he murder her?' She
turned her chin to him defiantly.
George leant forward and spoke
slowly as though explaining something to a child. 'Because she was
three months gone. Coroner told us that. Now, you know as well as I
do, Mike went to the doctor and got himself cut soon as that boy up
there were born.'
Sophie nodded. 'He did, I know. Sometimes
it doesn't work.'
'Lord, woman. You'll believe anything
but the truth. Some other fella saddled her up, did the job for him.'
'Even if that's true , does it necessarily mean he murdered
her?'
'Sure it does! If I found out you slept with some
fella, I'd kill you.'
Sophie bowed her head in mock respect.
'Thank you for that, George.' She was silent for a moment then
smiled ruefully and said: 'At fifty, I can be grateful that's all
safely behind me.' George jerked his head vigorously in agreement.
Sophie knew it would take him a day or two to realise her comment
wasn't as innocent as it seemed. He'd lie awake at night and
wonder; it would gnaw at him. Then he'd start the questioning,
throwing men's names at her one after the other, and she would sit
and smile and say nothing till he was ready to hit her.
The wail
from upstairs sounded like a fire siren. Nathan was screaming again
and this time, thumping the walls. Sophie jumped to her feet but
George pushed her down.
'No! I'm sick of this. I'll go.
I'll sort the little beggar out once and for all.' She watched
him take the stairs two at a time. She could hear him thudding across
the boards above her head. Praise God, he wouldn't hit the child.
Sophie bit her lip and turned to the window.
A huge bird, it
seemed, flapped past at that moment. No, it was the boy, his arms and
legs flailing, his face contorted in a shrill scream! Sophie heard
the soggy thud as he hit the gravel, then no further sound. She tore
at the lock on the front door, burst into the stillness in a flurry
of skirts, and knelt beside the boy's body. The hideous angle of
his neck told her he was beyond help.
She could hear George
thundering back down the stairs. He ran out onto the porch and
stopped, clinging to the post, as he watched her get to her feet.
'He was standing in the open window when I got to the room. I
yelled but he jumped. It was more like something pushed him.'
'Really, George?'
'What do you mean: "Really,
George?" You know something weird was happenin' up there. His
father musta come for him. Mike pushed him out the window.'
'A
ghost? Five minutes ago I was a fool for thinking it. All I know,
George, is you were an angry man when you belted up those stairs. I
was fearful you'd do the boy an injury.'
George's face had
purpled. He wiped away a fleck of spittle from the corner of his
mouth. 'Surely you're not saying I pushed him out the window?'
'I won't judge anybody, including you, George. That's
between you and God -- and the coroner.'
