Hey people! It's me! I'm sorry I haven't updated anything recently, but i've been suffering from problems with friends and a huge french exam (i took it yesterday).

But i'm gonna try and update more now!

Here's a one-shot to get me back into the flow before I finish the first chapter of my soon-to-be new fic: Thanks for the Memories. Look out for it lol!

Hope you like this.

xo Alexz

I can live without you
I'm happy by myself
But you get to me
You make me feel like there is no one else

I fall back onto the couch in the darkness, the only lights are a few dying flames from candles scattered around the room.

What you doin'
Leaving hearts in ruins
Can't you see
For us to be
That just won't fly with me

I hear the clock strike midnight. That's it; my supposedly great birthday is over. I've been eighteen for a day. But even though I'm eighteen, I still feel like the naïve teenager who walked into this clichéd life 2 years ago.

Slow down
Let's get it right
Make it last
Let's start tonight

Why can't I stop thinking about him? I want to forget, not remember. It's just too hard.

But I know that every time I try to forget him, another part of me holds on. Another part of me wants to remember, to be with him, to never let go.

And you've got a love to burn
Kisses for days
Don't you wanna grab onto something real
And never let it get away

At times like this, I wish I could stay in the moment where we were actually happy together, the morning of my eighteenth birthday. He wrote me this amazing song.

I don't have a love to burn
Time to waste
'Cause I've waited far too long
For the spark to become a flame
And if it comes true
I only have a love to burn for you

And when he sang it to me, his pure voice made my knees go weak, my heart beat faster and my stomach flip in excitement.

I'd see it through
If I was sure you'd feel this way for me
It's gotta be
Much more than anything we say or loved
To ever last

All I need to know though is if he still cares about me. If he still wants to be with me. Was he drunk on the night he betrayed me or had he grown tired of me?

And before I blow out these dying flames and fall asleep in the lonely darkness, I just have one thing to say.

I need to it's not just touch and go
That you are here to stay
Here to stay
That you are here to stay

I still love you Tom Quincy. I always will.

And with that, I blow out the last flame and close my eyes, slowly drifting off into the night.