Okay, this is my first fanfic, I hope it's Okay. I'm from Germany and I'm trying to do my best english, please don't take offence at me if I'm making mistakes (well, I hope it's not too bad ). Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I own nothing of the OC...

Chapter 1

The intercom on his desk whizzed.

„Mr. Atwood, Ms. Cassidy on line two"

Ryan sighed and answered the telephone.

Ryan: „Hey Lily"

Lily: sulking „Darling, you promised to call me yesterday night"

Ryan: annoyed "I know, but it had become very late and I didn't want to wake you up."

Lily: "Okay, will I see you later?"

Ryan: "I'm having a meeting, but perhaps I will come by after that, Okay?"

Lily: "Okay, see you, Darling"

Ryan hung up and rolled his eyes. Lily really was a pain in the neck to him. She constantly called him, sometimes even in the night, appeared at his family without any warning, when she knew that he was there and always called him "Darling"! A couple of times he intended to break up with her, but every time told himself that it was better having her than nobody. But sometimes he wasn't really sure about it. He remembered the moment when he met her for the first time. During Lunch hour he was sitting in a coffee-house and read the newspaper, when all of a sudden someone sat down beside him at his table. He looked up with surprise and there she was – young, beautiful, blonde – and smiled at him. She clearly flirted with him and one hour later he was in bed with her. This was about 2 months ago now and she already behaved like they where married, although he told her several times that from his point of view this relationship was nothing serious. He never had a serious relationship after... there was the memory of Marissa. He took out his purse, opened it and there she was, smiling at him from the photo. That day, the four of them had been at the beach and Seth made fun of taking innumerable photos of them, until Summer took away the camera from him. "God, Cohen, give them a rest now". Seth ran after her to get his camera back and he and Marissa had some time alone finally. He smiled at the remembrance of this day. He still knew every detail: the dress she was wearing, the smell of her perfume, how soft her lips had been when he kissed her and how she looked at him, when she whispered "I love you" and he replied to it by kissing her neck and whispering "I love you, too".

He sighed and told himself "You're such an idiot, it had been nearly 6 years now, when will you forget her already? If she had really loved you the same way you do, she would have never moved to New York.". He closed his purse and continued to work.

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Marissa looked out of the window to see the Skyline of New York and the Central Park. It had been sunny all day and everywhere were couples in love, laughing and joking. Why was everyone happy except her? " Stupid, it's your fault" she told herself, " you lost the love of your life, because you were afraid, perhaps you two could have make it work."

After shooting at Trey the jury found her not guilty, but she herself felt guilty. How could Ryan love her after she killed his brother? He of course told her several times that he didn't blame her for what happened, but she didn't believe him. So she left Newport shortly after the trial and moved to New York, where she studied Fashion&Design und tried to get her liefe back to normal.

And at least refferring to work she succeeded. Two Years ago, she had become vice-manager of a big fashion house and she loved her job. But she was missing her best friends although.

She smiled at the remembrance of Summer and Seth. It was past believe, that they got married, having a kid and expecting another baby.

She often chatted with Summer on the telephone and enjoyed hearing Newport's new Gossip and Storys about Seth and Alyssa. They always left out Ryan as a subject to talk about, after Marissa once told Summer to.

The only thing Marissa heard about him, was that after graduating at architecture, he started to work for the Newport Group but two years later, after having a big dispute with Julie, he started his own architecture company, taking Kirsten with him as a partner. Her mother complained about it, especially because without Kirsten the Newport Group nearly was bankrupt.

She had been very happy for him back then, because he was well and had realized his dreams.

Ryan... she often remembered how it felt laying in his arms. No matter how messed up her life had been sometimes, with him she always felt safe and protected. He only had to look at her to make her knees go weak and every time she looked in his sparkling blue eyes she had butterflies in her stomach. Just by being with him she was happy. Everytime he kissed her...

Marissa frightened up from her daydream, when there was a knocking at the door of her office. Her boss Alice entered her office.

Alice: "Hey Marissa, do you have some free time? I want to talk to you."

Marissa: " Sure, sit down"

Alice: „Look, Marissa. I think that we don't need you here anymore…"