Powerfully Helpless
By: Amanda Marie Johnson
A deep blue sky filled the earth's atmosphere as night settled in. Feelings of affliction and torment filled her soul as she tried to focus on anything but the last few nights. She didn't know how someone could feel this awful. Her heart seemed to beat with the seconds on the clock. That's all she had in her world now, time. Time that brought her deeper and deeper into depression. She hadn't gone anywhere or done anything since the night of his death. There was nothing left to do, nothing but cry. A single tear slid down her cheek, which would soon be followed by a whole load of them. She tried with all of the slayer strength she had in her to focus on something else, but no matter how hard she tired there was only sadness. Suddenly she heard footsteps come up the stairs and into her room.
"Buffy" she heard the voice of Spike behind her.
"Please just go away" she said, not looking at him.
"Buffy, I know how you feel pet" he told her as he sat on the edge of her bed.
"What do you know about this, you stand for death, you welcome it" she said harshly as more tears started to fall.
"I know what it's like to mourn someone you love pet, not even a year ago it was you in the ground, remember" he said.
"So" she said still not facing him, just looking out the window, trying not to sob. She didn't want him to see her cry, she didn't want him to comfort her. She just wanted to be alone.
"That was the most horrible time of my life pet, not seeing you, you not being here, I know what it's like, what it's like to lose someone you love so dearly, I mean, I love you more than anything so, I know" he told her. She felt her heart melt. She didn't want to give into it, but she couldn't help it. She knew he was telling the truth when he said he loved her, and she wanted more than anything to say it back, but she promised herself she wouldn't go there again. She wouldn't fall in love with a vampire.
"Spike please, just go" she said.
"You're call luv, but I'm here if you want to talk" he told her, than kissed her on the top of her head and left. When she was sure he was gone she laid down and began sobbing.
By: Amanda Marie Johnson
A deep blue sky filled the earth's atmosphere as night settled in. Feelings of affliction and torment filled her soul as she tried to focus on anything but the last few nights. She didn't know how someone could feel this awful. Her heart seemed to beat with the seconds on the clock. That's all she had in her world now, time. Time that brought her deeper and deeper into depression. She hadn't gone anywhere or done anything since the night of his death. There was nothing left to do, nothing but cry. A single tear slid down her cheek, which would soon be followed by a whole load of them. She tried with all of the slayer strength she had in her to focus on something else, but no matter how hard she tired there was only sadness. Suddenly she heard footsteps come up the stairs and into her room.
"Buffy" she heard the voice of Spike behind her.
"Please just go away" she said, not looking at him.
"Buffy, I know how you feel pet" he told her as he sat on the edge of her bed.
"What do you know about this, you stand for death, you welcome it" she said harshly as more tears started to fall.
"I know what it's like to mourn someone you love pet, not even a year ago it was you in the ground, remember" he said.
"So" she said still not facing him, just looking out the window, trying not to sob. She didn't want him to see her cry, she didn't want him to comfort her. She just wanted to be alone.
"That was the most horrible time of my life pet, not seeing you, you not being here, I know what it's like, what it's like to lose someone you love so dearly, I mean, I love you more than anything so, I know" he told her. She felt her heart melt. She didn't want to give into it, but she couldn't help it. She knew he was telling the truth when he said he loved her, and she wanted more than anything to say it back, but she promised herself she wouldn't go there again. She wouldn't fall in love with a vampire.
"Spike please, just go" she said.
"You're call luv, but I'm here if you want to talk" he told her, than kissed her on the top of her head and left. When she was sure he was gone she laid down and began sobbing.