Broken Hearts and Torn Up Letters

Chapter 1 – I Love You So….

How did we get here?

I used to know you so well.

How did we get here?

I think I know

Decode –Paramore

It wasn't my fault, I didn't know that it was to be the last night we would spend together Edward made sure of that. I don't think either of us counted on the possible consequences.

XOXO

It was a warm autumn evening when we made love for the first time. I didn't know why we were doing it then; Edward had always told me it was too dangerous. He dazzled me into arousal. He was sweet and gentle and like most people in love we climaxed at the same time. It was a wonderful first time and I would never change it for the world. It was a disappointment when he left that morning never to return into my life ever again

XOXO

The only sign that he had gone and was never coming back was his absence from school. At first I thought he was out hunting but after two weeks I got worried for three reasons. The first being I had missed my period, the second even Carlisle had disappeared and the third reason Edwards mobile was unobtainable. Three months after that night and three missed periods I decided I had to find him. To start with finding out I was pregnant so young scared me at first. I was going to get rid of it but it occurred to me what a miracle this child will be. Not knowing much about human/vampire hybrid children I decided it wouldn't be too bad. It was telling my parents what fuelled my drive to find the Cullen's. Charlie was fuming at first but soon grew warm to having a grandchild, even if I was barely legal. Rene on the other hand screamed and shouted at me, telling me that I should get rid of the child or else I'd end up stuck in Forks. I told Jake because I knew if I couldn't find the Cullen's he would help me raise the child or until he imprinted and I think if Edward would find out in the future a wolf helped raise his child he'd go mental and try and kill Jake, but at least he would be happy knowing I had someone who helped me. Jake had been there from the moment I realised the Cullen's weren't coming back, he took me down to First beach regularly and we just sat and talked, one night he got drunk and told me he loved me, I blew him off telling him that he was drunk.

XOXO

Christmas and New Year came and went without any contact from the Cullen's. Through my skills on the internet I found an article from a British newspaper hailing the latest American import, a surgeon, by the name of Dr Cullen. I had made my mind up I was going to England. I booked a one-way ticket to Gatwick airport and I was on my way two weeks later. When I got to the airport and was sitting in the departures lounge when I heard someone calling my name.

"BELLA!!!" shouted Jake. I ran over to him and asked what he was doing he was off to LA to get a new car, cars were Jake's obsession, which had belonged to Brad Pitt how he could afford that I'll never know.

"So, Bells, where you off to?"

"England. I want a change of scenery for a while"

"Nothing to do with the sudden appearance of a Dr Cullen over there then?!" Jake asked.

"Nope not at all!" I joked; "I've got to go now they are boarding my flight" I said then went of to my boarding gate. When I got to my seat I found that I'd been upgraded to business class due to over booking , which meant my seat reclined, I'd have more leg room and no little children crying or screaming, I was pleased. I pulled my silver iPod out of my bag a pressed play, "In the skies, I'll carve your name; Tear it apart, just to gain control. Your tears are ecstasy, Can you take me higher?" blared out of my headphones. I'm pretty sure the guy next to me nearly had a heart attack, a nice respectable looking girl listening to heavy metal that would surprise any one (A/N that's what I'm like XD) I dozed off during the rest of the flight.

XOXO

When I woke I was listening to the dulcet tones of Rob Pattinson. I looked out of the window and saw the streets of London which meant I'd reached my destination. As soon as I got through arrivals I rented my self a car and paid the guy £10 for some congestion charge thingy (A/N if your English you know what I'm on about.) and drove to Great Ormond Street Hospital where I knew Carlisle was working. I went to the reception and asked if I could see Dr Cullen; I was told no! She was one of those typical receptionists, whiney voice and more interested in her nails than her job. When she spoke she had a strong cockney accent (A/N think Eastenders) and was rather rude toward me. It was only after I convinced them that it was important did the receptionist actually call him.

"Dr Cullen, some bird is down here and she wants to speak to you. She ain't pretty either"

"Tell her I'll be down Mercedes. Could you give me her name first?"

"What's your name love?" she asked me

"Bella Swan. He should recognise the name."

"'Er name is Bella Swan, Dr C; she said you'd know the name"

Five minutes later Carlisle was down at the reception looking at me perplexed.

"Bella what are you doing here? I thought Edward had told you not to try and find us"

"Carlisle, what a pleasure to see you again. I'm afraid I need your expertise can we go to your office to speak privately?" I asked, no, I demanded.

XOXO

When we reached Carlisle's office he locked the door and the tirade of questions began.

"What are you doing here Bella? What expertise do you need? Have you seen Edward yet? Does he even know you're here?"

I answered every question

"I'm here to find Edward. I'm Pregnant. No I haven't seen Edward yet and no he doesn't know I'm here unless you rang him on your way down to reception."

"Can you repeat answer two please Bella?"

"I'm pregnant, no it is not Mike's, Eric's or any of the other boy's at school it's Edwards!" if Carlisle was human I think he would have fainted.

"So that would mean that you must be at least three months gone!?"

"Yeah I am three months gone. If I wasn't pregnant I wouldn't have bothered trying to track you guys down." With that I passed out in Carlisle's office

Hey hope you guys like it so far. If it's a little jumpy it coz I wrote this on my mobile whilst stuck on a bus home from work. I will go back over this chapter and make it longer soon. I don't know how many of you are aware I'm back from a short time away from writing. I'm linking this story in with my Harry Potter one When It Rains which starts five months before the start of this one.

Track Listing

Decode – Paramore

In The Skies – Silent Descent

XOXO

Ms Drake Cullen