"Oh, dear, not this again."
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Thanatos
A Short Cloud/Aeris Romance fic to the tune of Sagisu's "Thanatos"
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I never expected this.
Well, not really. I had known this might come, but not in this fashion.
You've raised your sword, ready to drive it down into my skull, ready
to cleave me apart.
But I know you won't do it.
"Now it's time
I fear to tell
I've been holding it back so long..."
This moment.
Eternally etched into my memory, it reveals an infinity of knowledge about
the pair of us.
But only two points matter.
And it's obvious what they are.
"But something strange deep inside of me is happening
I feel unlike
I've ever felt
And it's making me scared
That I may not be what I think I am..."
I love you.
It's that simple.
Zack? Gone. He died five years ago.
No one else.
This love isn't like my old one.
Of that I am certain.
But this love... it's holding me back.
Why?
Is it because of my duty?
"What of us
What do I say
Are we both from a different world?
Cause every breath that I take
I breathe it for you..."
I'd never really thought that this would happen.
In order to help you, I must go.
But I'm not really leaving.
We are together... yet still separate.
Yet the love binds us in ways we can't even imagine.
"I couldn't face my life without you
And I'm so afraid
There's nothing to comfort us
What am I, if I can't be yours..."
You're on your own now.
You've still got your friends.
You've still got me.
You're screaming in horror.
You don't know how I am, though.
I'm shaking in fear.
But I have to go on.
Even if it means we can't be together.
"I don't sleep
Can't feel a thing
And my senses have all but gone..."
Strange, really.
I hadn't expected to go when _he_ came.
But it was a beautiful sight.
Even my mind, rubbed raw by the days of prayer, sensed the inherent
wonder.
But it _hurts_.
"Can't even cry from the pain
Can't shed a tear now
I realize we're not the same
And it's making me sad
That we can't fulfill our dreams
In this life..."
Not Masamune.
He is painless, and I silently thank him for that.
Not him.
He too is under control.
Not myself.
I too would go eventually.
But you.
You are for whom I cry.
The anguish and pain on your face...
The impotent rage in your heart...
The love shining in your eyes...
That is why I cry.
"So I must
Let us break free
I can never be what you need..."
I should have known.
I look downward at all of you, and I know.
I could not aid you in what you seek as I was.
I shall now aid you as best as I can.
"If there was a way through the hurt,
Then I would find it
I'd take the blows, yes
I would fight it..."
Even now, you fight.
You fight to protect me.
It is... funny.
Even as I am now, you still sense me.
It is small comfort to you.
"But this is the one impossible dream to live
What am I, if I can't be yours?"
There is always this time.
Awash in the endless green, I wait.
And I pray.
For success.
For your safety.
For another chance.
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NOTES AND DISCLAIMER
This is what happens when I see Evangelion. *Shakes head* God
help us all...
Anyways, the song's the property of Shiro Sagisu-san, and FF7
s the property of Squaresoft. Enjoy.
Tuxedo Jack
Tuxedojack@juno.com
1/4/2002
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Thanatos
A Short Cloud/Aeris Romance fic to the tune of Sagisu's "Thanatos"
******************************************************************
I never expected this.
Well, not really. I had known this might come, but not in this fashion.
You've raised your sword, ready to drive it down into my skull, ready
to cleave me apart.
But I know you won't do it.
"Now it's time
I fear to tell
I've been holding it back so long..."
This moment.
Eternally etched into my memory, it reveals an infinity of knowledge about
the pair of us.
But only two points matter.
And it's obvious what they are.
"But something strange deep inside of me is happening
I feel unlike
I've ever felt
And it's making me scared
That I may not be what I think I am..."
I love you.
It's that simple.
Zack? Gone. He died five years ago.
No one else.
This love isn't like my old one.
Of that I am certain.
But this love... it's holding me back.
Why?
Is it because of my duty?
"What of us
What do I say
Are we both from a different world?
Cause every breath that I take
I breathe it for you..."
I'd never really thought that this would happen.
In order to help you, I must go.
But I'm not really leaving.
We are together... yet still separate.
Yet the love binds us in ways we can't even imagine.
"I couldn't face my life without you
And I'm so afraid
There's nothing to comfort us
What am I, if I can't be yours..."
You're on your own now.
You've still got your friends.
You've still got me.
You're screaming in horror.
You don't know how I am, though.
I'm shaking in fear.
But I have to go on.
Even if it means we can't be together.
"I don't sleep
Can't feel a thing
And my senses have all but gone..."
Strange, really.
I hadn't expected to go when _he_ came.
But it was a beautiful sight.
Even my mind, rubbed raw by the days of prayer, sensed the inherent
wonder.
But it _hurts_.
"Can't even cry from the pain
Can't shed a tear now
I realize we're not the same
And it's making me sad
That we can't fulfill our dreams
In this life..."
Not Masamune.
He is painless, and I silently thank him for that.
Not him.
He too is under control.
Not myself.
I too would go eventually.
But you.
You are for whom I cry.
The anguish and pain on your face...
The impotent rage in your heart...
The love shining in your eyes...
That is why I cry.
"So I must
Let us break free
I can never be what you need..."
I should have known.
I look downward at all of you, and I know.
I could not aid you in what you seek as I was.
I shall now aid you as best as I can.
"If there was a way through the hurt,
Then I would find it
I'd take the blows, yes
I would fight it..."
Even now, you fight.
You fight to protect me.
It is... funny.
Even as I am now, you still sense me.
It is small comfort to you.
"But this is the one impossible dream to live
What am I, if I can't be yours?"
There is always this time.
Awash in the endless green, I wait.
And I pray.
For success.
For your safety.
For another chance.
****************************************************************
NOTES AND DISCLAIMER
This is what happens when I see Evangelion. *Shakes head* God
help us all...
Anyways, the song's the property of Shiro Sagisu-san, and FF7
s the property of Squaresoft. Enjoy.
Tuxedo Jack
Tuxedojack@juno.com
1/4/2002