Author's note: Well, this is my first submission, but I won't ask for gentle as many seem to do. Criticisms are welcomed and appreciated. I wrote this poem while working a late shift at work one night a few months ago, and I didn't really like it at first. I was going to toss it out entirely, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I revised and edited it a few times and although I'm still not entirely satisfied with it, but I want it up and out, so to speak… at least from my mind for awhile. Also be aware that after I wrote this, I felt somewhat depressed, so I decided to make a happy ending just for my own sake. Unfortunately, it wasn't very good and just didn't convey the same emotion as this one. However, if anyone would like to read it, just drop me a note, or add a request in your review, and I will be happy to send it to you.
Disclaimer: I do not pretend to own anything. Not J.K. Rowling's beautiful saga of legendary characters contained in her infamous Harry Potter series. Nor do I own any of the Harry Potter films or franchise. Just an avid fan. Remus Lupin is one of my favorite characters. And my opening quote as well as my story description is kindly borrowed from the character Iris, played quite beautifully by Kate Winslet, in the film, The Holiday.
"And then, there's another kind of love. The cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called... unrequited love."
Another Kind of Love
My heart breaks a little when I stare at you
For I know that you are not mine
But my heart and spirit claimed you long ago
And for you they will always pine
My heart breaks a little when you stand by me
For your skin is too easy to touch
But I know if I do –I'll be scorched by you
And your presence is almost too much…
My heart breaks a little when you talk to me
For I just stare transfixed at your lips
I imagine you kissing me –holding me close
My hands round your neck –yours on my hips
My heart breaks a little when I stare at the moon
A constant reminder of you
I want to be there as you go through this pain
Like your north star– I'd be constant and true
My heart breaks a little when you smile at her
And it bleeds when she smiles back
So I fight back the tears –pretend I don't see
My facade is beginning to crack…
My heart breaks a little when you tell me you're leaving
You say you can't stay anymore
I can't stop myself –the floodgates have opened
I tremble and weep on the floor
You stoop in confusion –and ask why I cry
I stutter and can't meet your eyes
You lift my chin with your hand –wipe away my tears
And look at me –knowing and wise.
I tell you my secret and pour out my heart
It's bleeding and now in your care
Your silence is steadfast –you just look at me
Your answer is too much to bear
I flee from your arms, and can't bear your sight
I knew things would end up this way…
I soon hear you've gone –but know in my heart
That you will return here one day
Some years have gone by –you came back as I knew
But on you, this war, has taken its toll
Your body is worn –and your warm eyes have darkened
But they still burn into my soul
Now we fight together –against darkness and evil
And I wonder which of us will die first
My question is answered, one night as we're dueling
For I have been fatally cursed
You hold me as I'm dying and bleeding out fast
As angry tears form in your eye
This curse that was meant to end your life, not mine
You know this, and just whisper, "Why?"
I smile and falter -my head is now spinning
How can you still ask me that now?
"I love you" I mumble, through hazy blurred eyes
It's the truth and my one endless vow
You cup my cheek gently –and hold me close to you
But all I feel is seeping cold
Now your lips on my cheek as you kiss me goodbye
Tears falling from your eyes of gold
My heart breaks at last –as I stare at you
Now I know you will never be mine
But my heart and my spirit claimed you long ago
And even in death... I will pine.
Please review and let me know what you think. Or how it made you feel. Criticisms. Praises. All welcomed.