Not Without

Chapter One: Kiss the Pain away

Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or the characters

(Hey! This is evilslave, if you've read this before in my other name I am so sorry for the wait! )This is my first ever Gravitation fic that I'm putting up on here. Seeing as how I only have one other story that isn't really saying much.. I guess.. anywho! Yea be nice and if you like it tell me if you don't though that's okay.

Yuki had the most horrifying headache in the history of headaches. All he wanted was to not feel his friggin head anymore! But he had a deadline to meet. As always. He'd taken headache pills in hopes of eventually killing the demon within his head that would surely destroy his brain. The pills had yet to work.

Just as he was on the verge of a drinking binge fit to drown an elephant he heard his front door open. He leaned back in his chair with his hand on his forehead and waited silently to see who had decided to come here. Even though he knew it was his pink haired lover and none other.

Surprisingly, Shuichi didn't yell or come running into the room. He walked slowly past the room Yuki was in to the bedroom. Yuki followed Shuichi's body with his eyes, wondering why the younger boy didn't so much as glance into the room. He sighed and got out of his chair.

The throbbing began anew, so bad that he felt his head would explode. Yuki winced but walked to their bedroom where he saw Shuichi laying on the bed, face down.

"What's wrong with you, brat?" He asked a little grumpily.

Shuichi looked up. He knew that, by the sound in Yuki's voice, he had a headache. The blonde looked so sexy standing there by the bed. His hair looked as if he'd grabbed fistfuls of it and Shuichi knew that he probably had. His eyes were slightly squinted, his glasses seemingly useless. His mouth was in a frown, but not at Shuichi.

"Nothing. I'm sorry Yuki, I just… this morning you didn't want to see me so I figured maybe you wouldn't want…" Shuichi looked away sadly.

"I've had a friggin headache all day brat. It's not something I get all happy about. Besides, you know I'm always grumpy in the morning. Especially when I have a deadline coming up." Yuki said. Shuichi nodded and smiled a little.

"I'm sorry. Sit down so you're head won't hurt as much. I'll try to get rid of your headache." Shuichi said.

Surprisingly, Yuki did as his lover suggested. He sat on the bed, lying back so that his head lay in Shuichi's lap. He closed his eyes, blocking out the light. Shuichi looked down at the androgynous face on his lap and gently removed the glasses. He was surprised Yuki still had them on with a headache this bad. Gently at first, then using more pressure, Shuichi massaged his lover's aching head. Yuki felt as if he was going to fall asleep, this felt so good. He'd taught Shuichi all the right places to massage and the boy had gotten very good at it. Shuichi alternated between massaging to raking his nails across Yuki's scalp.

"Go ahead and go to sleep Yuki, I know you want to." Shuichi whispered softly.

"….Deadline.." Yuki muttered. Shuichi smiled faintly.

"Yea, I know, but you can't do much with a headache right? So when you wake up all refreshed you'll write much better stuff. And you write such good work Yuki. I love it when you read your stories to me. Your voice is so sexy, Yuki…" It was when Shuichi talked like this that Yuki really wanted to molest him. He was speaking so softly.

Times like this Shuichi was usually telling Yuki how sexy he was, how much he loved everything about him… things that threatened to drive him crazy.

"Shu…" Yuki groaned softly.

Shuichi bent over his lover and kissed first the left temple then the right. Yuki reached up and guided Shuichi's lips to his. Shuichi moaned softly but pulled away. Yuki lay there, wanting to look up at his lover but not wanting to feel the pain of seeing the harsh light.

"Turn out the lights and close the drapes." Yuki said.

Shuichi stared down at his friend and lover for a moment. 'Oh, the light is probably hurting his eyes… even though they're shut.' He laid Yuki's head gently onto the bed and climbed off to do as Yuki had told him. Shuichi closed the bedroom door in case light from elsewhere would shine through, then went back to the bed. Yuki's golden eyes were open half-mast, staring at him. His breath caught in his throat a moment. Slowly he climbed back onto the bed.

As soon as Shuichi was within arm's reach Yuki grabbed the boy's shirt and pulled him down so that their lips met a little harshly. Shuichi moaned louder than he had earlier and straddled his lover's hips. Yuki had reason to believe his lover liked it a little rough. He smiled and deepened the kiss, thrusting his tongue into Shuichi's mouth. He could still feel the ache in his head but a different sort of ache was in him now. Shuichi unbuttoned Yuki's shirt as they kissed and moved his hips against his lover's. He released himself from the kiss and leaned his head against Yuki's, their breath mingling.

"Yuuukiiii" Shuichi moaned, hands sliding inside the folds of Yuki's shirt. He brushed the two halves of the shirt away from each other and greedily touched the warmth of Yuki's chest. Yuki's eyes were smoldering with desire, but for once he made no move to dominate his lover.

"You get to be on top this time." Yuki said huskily, causing Shuichi to shudder.

"R-really?" He asked, all sorts of desires yearning to be met.

"Yea, really. Either hurry up and do something or put me to sleep. My head still hurts you know." Yuki said.

Shuichi pouted slightly.

"Is that the only reason I get to be on top?" He asked.

"Not really… I also want to watch you move above me, see myself slide into you…." Yuki whispered huskily.

Shuichi shuddered and closed his eyes.

"Yuukii…"

Yuki smiled and kissed his lover.

"Now prove yourself worthy or it's back on the bottom for you."

"I like being under you…"

"I know."

"But I want to look down at you too…"

"I know."

Shuichi swallowed and sat up to take his shirt off. He tossed it across the room then looked back at Yuki.

"I'll get that later."

"You bet your ass you will."

Shuichi giggled and stared down at Yuki. His face quickly sobered. 'He looks so sexy!' He kissed a trail from Yuki's jaw to his collar bone, then licked back up the other side making Yuki shudder in pleasure. A pink tongue tickled the shell of Yuki's ear, threatening to drive him insane.

"Shuichi!" Yuki half moaned, half cursed.

Shuichi smiled and continued his descent until he reached a nipple. He moaned as he licked, sucked, and nibbled the sensitive flesh. Yuki lay there and simply enjoyed Shuichi's attentions. When Shuichi had tortured both nipples he continued on down across the abs that he loved, dipped his tongue in the belly button there and rubbed his face against the front of Yuki's pants as if he were a cat scent-marking. Yuki bit his lip. Shuichi mumbled something about Yuki's hardness then nibbled on the skin around Yuki's belly button as he unbuttoned his lover's pants. He slid the pants down slender hips, actually waiting until the pants were off. (stopping to take of the writer's shoes and socks before continuing to pull the pants completely off) He then caressed both of Yuki's legs as he made his way back up to what awaited him at the center of Yuki's body.

Although Shuichi loved every part of Yuki's body very much, he wasn't as much a tease as Yuki. It was torture to himself to prolong their union. His control wasn't as good as Yuki's, nor was his patience. He licked along the length of his lover's erection from base to tip. Then ran his tongue around the head before taking it into his warm little mouth.

Yuki's hands needed something to grab as the need to both prolong this and end this came over him. One hand held fast to the sheets as his other hand grabbed hold of Shuichi's pink hair. Shuichi moaned around Yuki as the blonde thrusted his hips slightly and pushed Shuichi's mouth down harder. This was only the very beginning though.

Shuichi loved it when Yuki lost control. Being a fellow guy he knew how Yuki felt. Unlike Shuichi though, Yuki was more forceful and rough. Just thoughts of this was enough to turn Shuichi on. As it was, he felt as though he would burst. Twirling his tongue, bobbing his head, and sucking all at the same time, his hands rubbed up and down Yuki's waist. Ocassionally his hand would drift lower, to cup and caress Yuki's sensitive flesh.

Yuki stared down at his lover with heated eyes, barely aware that he ever had a headache. The things Shuichi was doing to him! If he could lock himself away with this boy forever and never stop what they were doing right now (well maybe to do something else just as arousing..) he would be in complete bliss. His hips began to buck more urgently and he held tighter to Shuichi's hair as he felt himself nearing completion.

Shuichi loved this the most. This. Yuki shoving himself inside Shuichi's mouth, going almost too far almost too hard. He was used to it. He didn't gag anymore, or choke, or nearly suffocate... and he was proud. Proud that he could bring his lover so much pleasure and not ruining the moment. It was almost to much. He moved his hips against the bed, rubbing his erection (which was still trapped inside his shorts) against the mattress.

Yuki was oblivious to everything except the feelings in his groin. His head tilted back and came inside Shuichi's mouth. Shuichi took it all in, never stopping his movements, continuing to milk his lover of all the love juice.

"Shu... stop... stop, you're killing me brat." Yuki said huskily and a little breathless.

Shuichi slid his lover out of his mouth, flicking his tongue across the tip before sitting up to look at Yuki. He licked his lips and smiled at the older man.

"Feel better now, Yuki?" He asked.

Yuki eyed his pink haired lover, eyes falling on the noticeable bulge in the front of Shuichi's pants. He smirked. But continued to stare at this boy. 'Should I let him be on top?' He wondered. He was constantly teased by his memory of the sight of Shuichi beneath him. The sight of Shuichi above him would be just as errotic... He swallowed.

"Brat aren't you supposed to be naked for this?" Yuki teased.

"What are we doing? You aren't done?" Shuichi asked.

"Hell no. What did I tell you earlier? You get to be on top this time... when we're done you'll know it."

So Shuichi got out of the bed and stripped, even danced and hummed, for Yuki then climbed back onto the bed where he straddled Yuki's thighs. He looked at Yuki uncertainly. Yuki pulled the younger boy to a kiss, Shuichi putting a hand beside Yuki's head to steady himself. He jumped in surprise when he felt Yuki's hand slide over his lower left cheek. Yuki pried Shuichi's mouth open and dominated his mouth with his tongue. As they kissed, Yuki slid a finger inside Shuichi's tight opening, preparing the boy. He always made sure his lover was ready. When Shuichi was moaning and moving against Yuki's hand he stopped.

Breaking the kiss Shuichi placed himself over Yuki's erection, holding it. He watched as they came closer.

"Ahhh, ahhh.." He clenched his teeth as he lowered himself, his head tilting backwards, back arching.

Yuki watched all this with feelings not able to be put into words. Oh yeah this was definately errotic. There was nothing he liked to see more than his pink haired lover being pleasured by him. A sudden thought came into Yuki's mind. A thought of Shuichi pleasuring himself as Yuki watched. He used to think people who liked that were a little strange but no he understood it. Somewho when Shuichi was in pleasure he was so cute and sexy and... It was something worth paying a lot of money to see. Shuichi could be a famous pornstar... Yuki shook his head. Maybe that was the wrong way to think of it. Someone could film Shuichi pleasuring himself and sell that alone... him pleasuring himself in many different ways to make it more interesting. But, ah, how the mind wanders!

Shuichi moved his body up and down on Yuki, feeling the strangeness of this new position. This new angle, reaching new depths. He managed to bring his eyes to Yuki's face and stopped breathing. Looking down at his lover as he rode him was something he'd never felt before. He felt like crying, the emotions were too much. Yuki moved with him and they picked up a rhythm together. Yuki's hand moved to gently caress Shuichi's thigh, moving up to massage Shuichi's hips, then to encircle Shuichi's erection. Shuichi's head fell back as Yuki's skilled hand worked him while they never ceased their dance. Shuichi moaned his lover's name. Yuki sat up to be closer to his lover, wrapping his other arm around Shuichi's back to keep him from falling backwards.

"Yuuukiiii..." Shuichi whispered breathlessly.

"Shuichi." The other man answered.

"D-don't... st-stop.."

"You want me to stop?"

"N-no dammit, you know what I meant."

"Yea...don't worry."

"Hmm?"

"I won't stop."

"Good... Yuukiii..."

Yuki feasted on Shuichi's pale neck, growling. Shuichi made a whiny, moaning sound and moved more urgently on Yuki. The blonde teased Shuichi's lower head with his thumb as he pumped him harder and faster, then slow and tantalizing.

"Too much.." Shuichi breathed, gripping Yuki's shoulders tightly.

"Too much?"

"Oh god Yuki.. I... I..." His sentence broke off as his warm liquid ran over Yuki's hand.

As was promised, Yuki didn't stop what he was doing. Even after Shuichi's release. He felt Shuichi's nails dig in slightly on his shoulders but that didn't halt him.

"Yuki! Please I can't take much more. It's too much!"

Yuki continued thrusting into his lover and stroking him. Finally he came within Shuichi's tight passage, making Shuichi's eyes roll back in his head. Shuichi came again panting so hard that Yuki wandered if maybe he'd come close to making him faint. He grabbed a fistful of pink hair and pulled Shuichi's face to his in a feirce kiss.

"Ok... I can't do anything else for a few hours." Shuichi whispered when they parted.

Yuki smiled.

"Good. I can finish my damn story."

That's the first chapter dost thou like it? I hope so. There will of course be more! I love yaoi! 3

Evilslave