Dean lay still in his bed.
He couldn't sleep.
How could he possibly sleep after hearing what Cas had told him.
"I'm afraid I might kill myself" the words played over and over in Dean's head with no end in sight.
He was angry, he was confused but most of all he was worried.
Leaving Cas at the nursing home was the hardest thing Dean ever had to do.
And he has done plenty of hard things in his lifetime.
He considered refusing and insisting that Cas stay with them.
He'd probably come up with some bullshit reason why he couldn't leave.
"Cas I think you'd better stay with us, What if you're not fully recovered, what if you're attacked?"
These are the reasons Dean comes up with in his mind
They sound like they are coming from a concerned friend right?
No Dean. They sound like they are coming from a concerned girlfriend.
The stew of mixed and confused emotions churn in his stomach.
Why is he so upset? He has lost so many people. He should be indifferent to it by now. Why is Cas so different?
Why does he feel so happy around him? Happier than he has felt in so long.
And he just left without a backwards glance.
So Cas couldn't see the tears forming in his eyes.