The Test Chapter 1: When I'm Gone, an inuyasha fanfic

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Inuyasha, or any charectors from the series, neither do I own any songs which i have used in any chapters( for this chapter it would be When Im Gone by Eminem)

The Test…

CHAPTER 1

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their amour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of a pain?

Inuyasha sat by the sacred tree. "How could I do such a thing? Why is it that I'm always the one who mess's up? Why? Why was she the one punished for my deeds?" He thought to him self.

"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing this song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

"Is it because of my past… because of what I've been through that I don't really notice till the last second, what I have done wrong?" He now thought aloud as he remembered his past. He was swinging on a swing when he could hear crying with his ears. He ran inside to see his mom crying. "Mommy, why are you crying?" Little Inuyasha asked. "Well, you know what today is?" Him mother asked him. "No," Inuyasha told his mother. "Well today is the day of your birth Inuyasha. It is a very special day, but also a sad one. This was the day… I don't know if you old enough to hear this but I can't hide the truth from you forever. Inuyasha on the day you were born your father risked his life to save us from an evil man. In the end he ended up dying as well," she said, as she wept. Inuyasha didn't understand much, but when he grew older he understood more and more.

Chorus
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

Kagome stood there watching Inuyasha confused about what he was thinking and what he had thought aloud she heard. She then remembered that today was his birthday. Myoga had told them a few days ago. "He must be remembering his father. He only met him once in his spirit form. The day him and Sesshomaru had sealed Sounga," Kagome thought. If people have not watched the third movie or read it then you might be confused a little.

"How will I tell her? Why didn't I think of this when… when I agreed to kikyou," Inuyasha thought.

Flash Back

"K-kikyou…?" Inuyasha said. "Yes Inuyasha," Kikyou replied. "Inuyasha will you join me in hell after we destroy Naraku," Kikyou said with a smile on her face. "Why is she asking me this again…?" Inuyasha thought. "Remember, Inuyasha, you had promised me during our canoe trip, the day we got away from Horai island," Kikyou asked Inuyasha. (Plus u should have also seen or read the fourth movie to know this part as well) "Yes, I remember that day, but what promise?" Inuyasha asked completely confused. "Well you said you would live with me, no matter where it would be. So is hell not a place where we can live and stay?" Kikyou asked with a grin on her face. "Yes… but now… I want to live with you through Kagome…" said Inuyasha really sad. "Well I'm happy I at least…" Kikyo was saying when Inuyasha came out of the flash back.

Verse 2
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

"Inuyasha…? You okay?" Kagome said, "Plus! Happy Birthday!" "Huh… oh thanks…" Inuyasha replied. I Wonder if I should have brought that up… /I Kagome thought. "Kagome we need to talk…" Inuyasha said. His voice sounded very depressed. "Kagome… I met Kikyou… it was a few hours ago…" Inuyasha said waiting for her reaction. Like always some how Sango, Miroku, and Shippo are spying form behind a bush. "Why is he telling Kagome that?" Shippo said almost blowing their cover. "Don't know? But please Shippo be more quiet," Miroku said using his hand to cover his mouth.

"Why… why are you telling me this…?" Kagome said a little sad wondering what happened. "Well, it's just that I have chosen between you two…" Inuyasha replied. Kagome gasped, she was in shock she didn't know who he would pick. "Well… Kagome… I… picked… K… Kikyou…" Inuyasha said. Kagome fell to her knees. I How could… I mean… Why…? Didn't we… How come… I… No… I wont believe it… there' no way… /I Kagome thought has tears starting rolling down her face.

Kagome couldn't believe what happened. "Kagome… I'm sorry…" Inuyasha now said with a hint of guilt in his voice. Kagome then grabbed Inuyasha's top and had an insane look on her face. "No! You're joking… Tell me that this was all a joke! Tell me that!" Kagome said, then again falling to her knees. "Kagome!" Sango said coming out from the bushes. "No!" Kagome screamed. I This better work Kikyou… /I Inuyasha thought.

Verse 3
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are gone"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go up there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

Kagome ran. She couldn't believe anything. "Inuyasha… You sure this will work… What if when she finds out that she'll hate you even more?" asked Miroku.

"If it doesn't then, it'll just mean that she doesn't love me," Inuyasha said as his bangs covered his eyes.

Chorus/Outro
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

In Kagome's era. "Inuyasha… I won't lose you… What ever you may say I'll still stay by your side… hate me if you must… but I'll always love you… I won't feel any pain from what ever you say… I'll just take it in and live my life… all I'll do is smile back… maybe some day you'll realize that… I loved you…" Kagome said to her pillow.