AN: This is my first Uchihacest story ever and while I know I'm going to hell for it, I've always wanted to write one. Anyways, warnings: Yaoi, incest, angst, etc. From Itachi's POV. Beta'd by Mrs. Padfoot x. And I hope you guys enjoy!

I'm sick.

That's the only way to describe it, how else is one supposed to? I'm mentally fucked in the head, a wire somehow got crossed in my brain, I'm defective, I'm fucking sick!

I don't even know how it all started, maybe it was when our parents died six years ago. It figures that they would kick the bucket just as soon as I turned 22, technically old enough to run Uchiha Corp. without having to have my father hold my hand. It's almost like one last test from the grave, can I survive on my own or will I just fuck it all up?

Well I managed to prove to them that I was more than capable at running an entire company as such a young age. I was appointed as the CEO almost immediately after their deaths, Sasuke was still in high school but as soon as he graduated from college, he was set to become the new CFO of the company.

However, I blame their death for happened between my brother and I. What still goes on between us, to their death...

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We just got back from the funeral, Sasuke- only 16 at the time- couldn't stop crying. Our father raised us up to never show emotion, no matter what the circumstance was. Sasuke, however, was still so young, he hadn't truly learned the meanings of father's teachings. When we walked back into the house, his eyes were still full of un-shed tears, face completely red from previous crying. I made a comforting noise as we crossed through the living room entrance and pulled his small body close to mine. He hung onto me tightly and sobbed into my shirt as we sat down on the couch. I shushed him and stroked his soft, silky hair.

He looked up at me through teary eyes and said, "Itachi, why did it have to be now? I-It's too soon."

I sighed softly and placed a gentle kiss to the top of his head. Nothing out of the ordinary, Sasuke always looked up to me like I was some kind of hero instead of his brother. When we were younger, he used to shower me with hugs and kisses, as he grew up though, they became few and far between. I was convinced that since he hit puberty that he found it weird to do such acts to another male, especially his brother.

I leaned back and said, "Sasu, I don't know. There's nothing we could've done. A drunk driver struck them on the way home from that charity ball that dad had to go to. We should count ourselves lucky that we decided to stay home and study instead of going or else we would be gone as well."

He whimpered and curled more into me. I felt my heart tug at the action. Sasuke was always regal, strong and proud. He never let anything affect him like this. He always had this air around him that he was the best and nothing could ever make him falter. His looks helped greatly with this as well, midnight black hair, onyx eyes that shined whenever he was planning something devious and pale, porcelain skin. I shared the same traits but my skin always seemed more like a muted grey to me, my hair and eyes not as shiny and my tear tracks were more prominent than his. He was a beautiful angel while I was second best to him.

I soothingly rubbed his back and let him cry. We stayed like that for hours. When I no longer felt wet tears land on my stomach or chest, I looked down and saw that Sasuke was peacefully asleep. I clicked my tongue softly and chuckled lightly. The poor boy had cried himself to sleep. I scooped him up in my arms and carried him off to his room. I smiled to myself as I remembered doing this countless times when I was his age and he was ten.

I managed to open up his door without too much difficulty and walked over to his bed. I gently laid him down and pulled the covers over him. As I turned to leave I heard a meager voice call out, "Itachi, please don't go. Will you lay with me?"

I felt something odd in the pit of my stomach. I turned around and saw a strange look on his face. It was a mixture of sadness and something else. I sighed and gave him a small smile, "Yeah, of course, Sasuke."

I padded over to the bed and slipped under the covers. I tried not to stiffen as he cuddled up to my chest and let out a content sigh. The position felt...Awkward to say the least. The only other person that I've cuddle with was my ex-boyfriend, Deidara and even that felt weird.

Time went by. I could tell by his breathing that Sasuke was sleeping deeply, he probably wouldn't even noticed if I left now. I grasped his arms and gently removed them from my waist. I heard him whimper in his sleep, which sent off warning bells in my head. Was he having a nightmare? I couldn't blame the kid but at the same time I need to leave and get some sleep of my own.

I waited for roughly five minutes before trying again. This time he whispered out, "Don't go."

I looked down and saw those beautiful eyes blink open. I frowned and brushed his bangs out of his face, "Are you okay? Were you having a bad dream?"

An uncharacteristic blush crept up on his face. I cocked an eyebrow but said nothing. He looked like he was debating with himself so I let him. After a moment, he looked back up at me and said, "You know I love you, right Itachi?"

I blink but nodded my head, "Yes, I love you as well, Sasuke. You're my little brother, how could I not love you?"

It was true. I loved him more than I loved my parents, I think. He was the closest thing I had to a best friend growing up. Even in college, I only had one other friend besides him.

He took a deep breath and said, "Then please forgive me."

I didn't even have time to process the statement before I found his lips on mine. He was kissing me...! A true kiss, not a brotherly peck that he would give me on the cheek when we were younger but a real kiss.

And I loved it.

I shouldn't have loved it. This was wrong. My brother is kissing me. T-This goes against every rule there is. Being gay? That's fine now but not with your sibling! That was just not how the world works! It's disgusting, sinful, wrong.

But it felt so good.

I moaned softly into the kiss and pressed back eagerly. Sasuke mewled as I swiped my tongue across his lips and parted them for me to explore his mouth. I felt my member stiffen as I tasted him. It was minty, with a hint of his own personal taste that I can't describe.

He whimpered and pulled back, saliva connecting our mouths together. I panted softly and suddenly reality hit me. I shot back away from him, "What the hell was that, Sasuke!"

He flinched at my harsh tone and peered up at me through his eyelashes, "I-I don't know! I just really wanted to kiss you. I love you, Itachi, a-and mother and father are gone so I-I-I."

Tears were flooding back into his eyes. I made a noise and pulled him close to my chest, he started crying once again and I just held him. I didn't know what to make of the situation. Sasuke's my brother, but why did I like kissing him so much?

Soon, his sobs subsided and he nudged me softly, "Y-You can go if you want, Itachi. I know it's late. You should get some sleep."

I looked down at him. His eyes were red and puffy, his usually clean face was dirty with tears. I wiped them away and kissed his forehead. He sniffled and flinched at the contact, "D-Don't. It's clear that you don't like that. You don't have to force it just to make me feel better."

I almost growled at the accusation, "I'm not doing it because I think I should make you feel better, I want to make you feel better."

He huffed and scooted back from me, "Just go. I've done enough to you for one night. I need to be alone."

I saw the closed off look on his face. It was the usual mask he wore whenever he got upset, a common occurrence when we were younger. I gripped his chin and forced him to look me in the eye, "Sasuke, listen to me. I enjoyed what just happened. I know I shouldn't have but I did. It's just...It's wrong."

His face softened and he leaned closer, "I don't care. It's wrong our parents are dead, it's wrong that they haven't caught the person that killed them. I could give less of a shit on whether or not kissing you is wrong."

I lowered my head at his statement. There's no doubt in my mind that I'm attracted to my brother, my member was still half hard from kissing him. But it was just so...

Fuck it.

I tightened my grip on his chin and crashed our lips together. This kiss was far less innocent. It was more of a mess of tongue and teeth than anything. I forced his mouth open and stroked his tongue with my own, trying to convince the shy appendage to come out and play. Sasuke moaned eagerly and wrapped it around my own. I groaned as he sucked on it softly.

I moved my hands down to push up his black dress shirt, I damn near tore the thing off of him. When it was finally shaken from his shoulder, I moved from his lips. I pushed him down to lie on his back and straddled his waist. I bent down and placed sloppy, wet kisses all along his neck. He moaned and bucked his hips up into mine, " 'Tachi, more. Ple-ah!"

He gripped my shoulders as I sucked harshly on his collarbone, leaving an angry mark in my wake. I knew it would be easy to cover up and smirked to myself as I discovered the hot-spot. I continued on down, kissing, licking and nipping his nipples. He squirmed and ground his hard member on mine own, sending electricity down my spine.

I pulled off of his chest and looked down at him. I almost came in my pants when I saw the look on his face. His face was flushed a beautiful shade of red, his hair was disheveled and his eyes were sparkling with lust. I smirked down at him, "How far do you want to go? Because unless you tell me, I won't be able to stop."

He made a keening sound and bucked up against me once more, "I want it all. I want to love you like I've always wanted. Please, Itachi. I-I don't care if it's wrong. Just take me...You're all I have left."

I snapped at those words. Everything started to become blurry as images flooded my brain. I shook my head slightly and got off of him. I quickly stripped myself down, chuckling when I heard him moan when he saw my hard member. I tugged at his pants and said, "Take these off while I go get something from my room."

I didn't bother to watch as I quickly got off the bed and made my way into my room. I went to my nightstand and grabbed the lube I kept in the top drawer. I mentally pat myself on the back for not throwing this out after Deidara and I broke up. Otherwise Sasuke would be in more pain, granted it'd be physical but still.

I almost ran back to the room and my jaw dropped at what I saw. I guess in my absence Sasuke had decided I was taking too long and started to get ready for me. I saw that he had his own bottle of lube on his nightstand and frowned at this. Had he already been experienced when it came to this?

I padded over to him and forced myself to not stroke my member as he wiggled and moaned my name while impaling himself with two fingers. I smirked sadistically and popped open the cap on the small bottle in my hand. I squeezed a dollop out and moved my hand down to join his. I slowly pushed one of my fingers in and chuckled when he moaned louder. I looked up at him and said, "How does it feel, Sasuke? Knowing that your brother is fingering you? That I'm touching one of the most private spots on your body?"

He whimpered, "I-It feels great! Please more!"

I chuckled and continued to help stretch him. I pushed deeper inside and groaned when I heard him scream in pleasure. It was like music to my ears. I stroked his hidden spot a few more times before forcing his fingers out and mine as well. I grabbed those beautiful milk-white thighs and pulled him closer to me until the tip of my erection was brushing against his hole. I bent down and kissed him as I poured more gel in my hand to coat my member, "Are you ready?"

He nodded eagerly, "I need you. Please, fuck me, Itachi."

I smirked as I slammed in all the way to the hilt. I kissed him once more to muffle his scream. Fuck, he was tight! Any doubts about him not being a virgin flew out of my head. My body was shaking in attempts to not pull out only to slam into him again.

I waited for a few minutes, letting him adjust to my size. I saw tears leak from the corners of his eyes. I kissed them away and said, "No more crying. Just relax and you'll be fine."

He nodded and another moment went by before he wiggled his hips, "Move, now. Just be gentle."

I chuckled darkly and nipped his earlobe. I slowly pulled out before shoving all the way back in. He clenched around me and let out a garbled moan. He glared up at me, "I said gentle asshole!"

I rolled my eyes at him and buried my face in the crook of his neck and slowly pumped in and out of him. It was almost sweet, the soft sound of skin slapping on skin accompanied by low moans and groans filled the room.

Soon, he was begging me to go faster. I all too eagerly complied. I lifted myself up and threw his legs over my shoulders before setting a ruthless pace. He screamed out my name as I brushed against his hidden spot and I made sure to strike it every time.

It was over too soon, though, I could feel the coil tighten within my gut. I reached down and started stroking Sasuke in time with my thrust, "Come for me, Sasuke."

All it took was a few strokes and one harsh thrust to send him toppling over the edge. He clenched down around me and arched his back as he came in my hand. I moaned loudly and gave one more deep thrust before I came deep inside of him. I don't even remember pulling out of him or laying down. All I remember is how I reacted the next morning...

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I had screamed at him after that night. I tried to blame our emotions on what had transpired and honestly that's what it probably was. However, I found myself addicted to him. It wasn't enough. I craved his touch, whenever I had to go away for business I found myself staring at pictures of him on my phone, fantasizing what we could do next, jerking off to them or both. He was the only drug that seemed to help me with my sickness.

The side effect was that it made it grow worse.

Here we are now, at the ages of 28 and 22, respectively, living together in secret. We didn't dare breathe a word about this to anyone. The thought of the whole nation knowing that the CEO and CFO Uchiha brother's, leaders of one of the biggest company's in the country, were in a romantic relationship terrified me.

I let out a deep sigh and I cast my gaze down. Sasuke was in between my legs, firmly sucking me off. I groaned softly as I hit my peak and came down his throat. He swallowed it all greedily and pulled off with a soft 'pop'. He looked up at me with a small smile on his face, "How was that, Itachi?"

I grunted and yanked him up so I could kiss him hard. He groaned into the kiss and pushed me down on our shared bed, groping at any place his hands could reach. I chuckled and nudged him off, "You're very horny today, little brother."

He moaned against my neck as I called him by the title given to him the moment he was born. It seemed to be a kink for him, the fact that we're brothers doing this excited him more than words could describe. He nipped at my neck, "What if I am? It's been a long, long time since you've let me top, maybe I really wanted to fuck you today."

I grunted and shook my head softly, "I don't think so, I'm not really in the mood to pound you or be pounded."

He lifted his head up and pouted cutely at me. I chuckled and patted his cheek, "Maybe later, I can take care of you though with my amazing mouth skills. You think you're good? I've yet to teach you everything."

His eyes lit up in excitement, it was very rare for me to ever suck him off. He grinned down at me and ground his hips into mine, "Oh, that sounds wonderful! Please, Itachi?"

I pecked his lips and mumbled, "Move then so I can do it properly."

He eagerly complied and shifted on the bed. He leaned back and quickly pulled his pants and boxers off in one fluent motion. I rolled my eyes at his eagerness and got settled in between those creamy thighs. I lowered my head and took him all the way down my throat. He let out a loud groan and bucked his hips. I gagged and glared up at him. He smiled sheepishly and said, "Sorry, got kind of excited."

I huffed around him and continued to blow him. His taste was still as heavenly as it was back those six years ago. I moaned softly and sucked harshly, trying to get as much of the taste as possible.

That taste that helps continue my sickness.

This was not the usual train of thought one kept while giving a blowjob but I couldn't help it. For some reason, my brain seemed hell-bent determined to have me question and hate myself for my relationship with Sasuke. I just wish I knew the answers as to why I felt this way about my brother. Why he felt that same towards me. It's so sick.

So perfect.

Sasuke let out a high pitched moan and came down my throat. I swallowed every drop like it would be the last time I ever tasted him.

He looked down at me with a goofy smile, "You're right. I still have so much to learn, Itachi."

I chuckled and leaned up to kiss those perfect lips. He groaned softly when he tasted himself on my tongue and shoved me back, "Go brush your teeth if you're going to kiss me."

I shot him a playful look, "Oh, so it's okay for me to taste my cum but not okay for you to taste yours?"

He nodded in affirmation, "Of course. Besides, I know you love the taste, do you really want to share that?"

I sighed and hung my head in mock defeat, "I guess you're right on that one."

He chuckled and it spread warmth throughout my body. No matter how old we get, it still seems like we're little kids, just playing around and poking fun at each other. In public, we're both cold, ice princes with sticks shoved up our asses. In private, however, we're loving, caring brothers and lovers.

I poke his forehead and said, "We should get some sleep. We have business meetings all day tomorrow and we need to get our rest."

He huffed and situated himself in my lap, "Can't we just take a sick day? I don't understand how you've done this shit for six years. It's about to drive me crazy and I've only been at it six months."

I shrugged, "I can't explain how but I can tell you that having you by my side has helped me out. I always know no matter how hard the day, week, or month gets, that I will always have you right next to me to keep me sane."

He snorted and kissed my cheek, "You've been reading those romance novels again, haven't you?"

I rolled my eyes at him and nudged him off, "Kakashi suggested them to me. He said they could help me relax since it was so clear to him that I'm not getting any."

Sasuke busted out laughing at that, another rare occurrence, and said, "Oh, if only he knew!"

My face turned serious, "I don't want to think about it. Anyone knowing about this would ruin us."

He frowned at my words and let out a heavy sigh, "I know, I was just joking, Itachi, don't take it so seriously. We're careful in every way possible. No one will ever find out about us being lovers. Plus so what if they did? We have literally millions in trust funds, in our own personal bank accounts and in investments that we could cash in at any time. If anyone ever found we could always have Uncle Madara and our cousin Shisui take over for us."

I growled lowly at him, "That is if our little coming out doesn't completely tank the company. People would be outraged, disgusted even. I mean, an incestual relationship between two of the most powerful people in one of the most powerful company's in the nation? It would be awful!"

He glared at me. I almost wanted to slap that look off of his face but I knew he was just as worried as I was. He just handled it differently. I tend to overthink the situation while he thinks it over but come up with a plan to make sure nothing bad would happen.

I sighed and kissed him softly. His eyes fluttered shut and he wrapped his arms around me as he pressed back against my lips. I pulled back first and said, "You know I'm just worried about you, right? I love you, Sasuke. After what happened a few years ago, I don't want anything bad to ever happen to you again."

He stiffened at the words. We both knew what the unspoken thought was but now was not the time to think about it. I rubbed his back soothingly and laid us both down on the bed. I quickly removed the rest of our clothing and said, "Now please, get some sleep."

He whimpered softly and I mentally cursed myself. I shouldn't have said anything. I peppered kisses all over his face until he was squirming within my grasp, "Enough, Itachi. It's okay. Let me sleep now."

I nodded and kissed him one more time. He gave me a small smile and brushed a lock of hair behind my ear, "I love you."

I smiled back at him, "I love you too, Sasuke."

His smile grew bigger and he curled against my chest. He was asleep within mere minutes. I, sadly, couldn't sleep. No matter how long I laid there, I felt those same damn thoughts come back to my head. I turned to look at the clock and saw it was roughly one in the morning. Fuck. I untangled myself from Sasuke and stumbled into our adjacent bathroom. I opened up the medical cabinet and grabbed my salvation.

I poured out two small tablets into my hand and threw them back, swallowing them dry. I coughed slightly and huffed after they went down. I've been on these little bastards for longer than I can remember. I never felt like I could sleep anymore ever since.

I shook my head. That thought would keep me up for days. I set the bottle back and closed the cabinet. I quickly made my way back to Sasuke and resumed my duty as his pillow for the night. He sighed contently as I pressed my firm body against his. I smiled softly and pecked his forehead, after a while, I felt the effects of the pills hit me like a train and soon, sleep finally took over me.

AN: So this is the first chapter! I don't know how many there will be but there will be more. I hope you guys like this and yes to anyone who hates this pairing, I know for sure I'm going to burn for this story. Anyways, read and review please, check out another one of my stories or just pass this one by. Whatever you do, I hoped you enjoyed a little bit!