I'm finally out, thought Tara as she glanced around the empty room she had been staying in for the last three months. After all the shit that happened prior to this day she just felt so relieved. She felt inspired and hopeful that a new start had just begun. I feel like me, just me, no others inside me, no Alice, no T, no Buck, and definitely no Bryce.
The whole reason why she had to leave Overland Park in the first place was because her alters started to really effect her life in huge ways. From destroying Marshall's, her son, room and saying unforgivable things to him, to almost killing one of her professors she finally reached out for some real help here in Boston. The people here really dug deep into her DID and made real progress with her. As Tara reflected on her journey to recovery in Boston she wandered if she was the only one inside. These passed years may have seemed crazy and bizarre to her friends and family but her alters were sort of like her friends.
You have Alice who is the homemaker, caretaker, and all around housewife, T the teenage, sex-crazed girl who can show anyone a great time, and Buck the manly redneck who likes fucking and guns. To Tara it felt like there was so much missing since they left her but yet she felt so relieved and happy they were gone. So with a deep breath Tara walked away from the mirror, grabbed her bags, and headed out to meet her husband Max to finally go home to her family back in Overland Park, Kansas.
The trip home seemed so exhausting to Tara. She felt a little overwhelmed by the thought of seeing everyone. Tons and tons of thoughts were going through her head like how is Marshall doing?, does he hate me still?, does Kate resent me for having to stay to watch Max instead of moving in with Evan to St. Louis, and does Charmaine still hold everything against her? Tara knew that everything seemed fine when she left for Boston but she did some very unthinkable things to her family that she was scared they would hold against her for years. "Hey, babe, are you thirsty? I am so fucking thirsty!", Max said.
"No. I am okay. Maybe you should pull over at this gas station and get you something to drink.", replied Tara in a very monotone voice.
"Sounds good to me!", Max said in a way that made Tara feel awkward. I should be so ecstatic to be going home to see everyone but something is just making me feel like I should have stayed longer.
"Hey… Max", Tara started to say as he was opening the door to go into the gas station.
"Yeah baby", answered Max.
"Remember how they said I will never ever be better in Boston… I just want to know one thing… will you ever leave if it gets bad again?", Tara looked so distraught when saying this to her husband.
"No, never.", Max said with the most love Tara had ever seen in another person's eyes and she knew in that moment she had nothing to worry about.