hey guys check out ma new story...sorta... as you've read in the description i dont know if i wanna make this a story yet. so this is the only time I'm gonna ask you to review a this story. Please... okay here it is!
The night darkens, the light of the full moon blocked out by raging storm clouds. The clock tower chimes, signaling the time. Rain falls from the heavens as the city below sleeps. Lightning strikes a nearby building as a boy sits atop the clock tower. Thunder roars loudly, but the boy does not flinch. He does not move. He just sits there with his legs spread wide, his right arm draped over the iron cross standing in front of him while his left arm lie limp at his side. Rain water soaks his clothing . But he does not shiver. Rain drenched his gravity defying hair, making its already black color darker. More thunder rolls. The wind howls, raging around him in his own personal whirlwind, blowing the hair from his eyes, as he slowly opens them. Lightning strikes closer to the clock tower, quickly fading in the wake of two piercing golden orbs. His eyes. His eyes were a golden shade of amber only very few had. The boy released a low and dangerous breath.
(Van P.O.V.)
Why? Why did it have to be this way? I was fine! I was happy with the way I was! That stupid girl. She just had to ruin it. Had to ruin EVERYTHING! I look up at the sky. It's been raining since it happened. The black shadows of rain clouds dance, blocking the rays of moonlight I have been unable to see for days. My phone stopped ringing after my jeans got soaked. There was nothing to disturb me. The only sounds that screamed through the night were the sangs on the wind and the beats the rain made, striking the tower. The occasional thunder called my name as lightning screamed Hers. My mind is clouded with thoughts of Her. Fragments of images of Her smiling at me, Her musical laugh, her pale blue eyes...
She's like a disease I can't get rid of, a sickness I crave. Nothing seems to drown Her out. No amount of sex, drug, alchol. Nothing! Her face is etched in the back of my eye lids. Her voice echo's in my ears, over all the screams and moans through the night. Her taste overcomes the taste of the booze I drown in. Se haunts me everywhere I go. Memories of Her still run through my head...
I grin at the memory of the first timee we met...
(Flashback)
I hate Roxas. How could he do this to me? I thought he loved me. I thought he cared about me. I can't believe I-
I felt someone give my leg a heavy nudge, followed by a deep voice saying, "Get up."
I ingored the voice and continued to cry to myself, hoping who ever they were would go away soon.
"I said get up." the voice commanded, giving my leg another kick, harder this time.
I flinched from the contant as a soft whimper escaped my lips. I burried my face in my hand deeper into my lap. It was then that whoever was speaking to me got irritated . I felt a pair of strong hands grab hold of my arms and pull me up and slam me against the wall. I gave a sudden cry of pain as the hard brick sufface of the wall dug into my skin. Just as sudden my attacker grabbed my forearms and pride my hands away from my face. I quickly closed my eyes and turned my head, not wanting whoever it was to see my face the way it is.
"That's better," the man purred mecheviously, "Now I can see that pretty face of yours."
I could feel the bile begin to rise in my mouth. Was he going to...? "W-w... what do y-you... w-want?"
"It's not nice not to look someone in the eyes when they're talking to you." he whispered in my ear. His husky voice made me shiver with fear as i slowly turn to him. I slowly opened my eyes to meet a pair of golden amber eyes. His eyes stared back at my pale blue ones with a mechevious glint that made my skin crawl. "Wow," he purred, "You are beautiful."
"W-who are you?" I asked, just above a whisper.
"Name's Vanitas," he smirked darkly, "and today's your lucky day."
As I open my mouth to speak, Vanitas crushes his lips to mine, sticking his tongue in my mouth. I felt him smirk through the kiss as his tongue slid around mine. I tried to fight him off, struggling to get free, but he just kissed harder and pressed his body closer to mine. I was able to get my left hand free, as I reached for something in my bag. I finally got a hold of what I was looking for. I pressed the tip of the barrel to his head, freezing his movement. He removed his tongue from my mouth and gave me one last hard kiss before backing away.
"Hey, I was only trying to help," he defended with a smirk, holding his hands up in front of him, "Cant blame a guy for tryin'."
I cocked the gun in my hands and aimed it at his head.
"Okay, I guess you can," he chuckled, smirking from ear to ear.
(End Flashback)
Yeah, that was a good kiss. I could tell she was into me. 'Course thing would of been better if She didn't point a gun at my head, but that never stopped me before. Ugh. But then She just had to go asking around about me.. Why bother? It's like she never heard of me. The rain starts to pick up some more, getting heavier. I start to remember the day She asked me out...
(Flashback)
They helped two convinced me to do it. And if I didn't Selphie would jump at the chance, though I'm pretty sure if kairi wasn't with Sora she would too. The three of us slowly made our way over to Vanitas. When he looked over at us we froze, he gave us that skin crawling smirk of his that said, 'Yeah, I'll rape you'. Just then the girls pushed me forward. I turned around to them to see them running away.
"KAIRI! SELPHIE!"
"Sorry, but I wanna live to graduate high school," Kairi yelled.
"Good luck!" Selphie shouted.
'traitors...' I thought to my self. I took a deep breath, and gathered up my courage as I turned to meet his golden eyes. My words caught in my throat. All I could do was open and close my mouth like a fish.
"What's wrong," he teased, "cat got your tongue?" His smirk spread, and suddenly all the courage I managed to gather disappeared. Fear took its place. Was I seriously going to ask a guy out that scared the hell outta me? Why?Then he started to walk towards me. I slowly backed backwards, until he reached out and grabbed my arm, pulling me to him. "It's not nice to walk away when someone's talking to you."
"i-I," i stumbled, "w-wanted to ask you..."
"Yes?" he raised an eyebrow at me, curious about what I'm about to ask.
"W-would you... wanna...m-maybe..."
"Your so cute when your shy," he purred, "Spit it out."
"Go out...w-with m-me?" I finally said.
Vanitas' eyes wided at the question. Obviously he didn't expect that. After a few minutes he regained his composure. "No." he said.
"No?" I repeated in disbelief, "why not?"
"Because you sicken me," he stated slightly taken back by the question, looking me in the eyes. He acted like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
silence.
"ex-CUSE ME?" I yelled. I can not believe he just said that.
"Why would you wanna go out with me anyways, huh?" he asked, looking me over, before giving me that dark grin of his. "You need somethin'?" he asked seductively.
"Uh...," Damnit why is this so hard! It's not like he's Roxas... No... He's not like Roxas... Then I smirked at him. "no reason," I said innocently, closing my eyes, "I just though you weren't a pussy, like Roxas." I then turned and walked away. I made maybe three steps before he grabbed my wrist. I looked up at him and shrank in fear. He looked completely outraged.
"Don't ever compare me to that wuss," he growled, his grip on my wrist tightened.
I bite my lip to keep me from whimpering. I then looked into those golden orbs he calls eyes and whispered, "Prove it."
(End Flashback)
How she convinced me to go on a date with her, I will never know. It still bugs me how weak I was. How could I let some Nobody trick me! Still she somehow wormed her way into me. I started to need her close to me. I wanted to touch her skin. I laugh, thinking about our first real fight.
(Flashback)
When I looked into his eyes, all the courage I managed to gather was gone. All of it. I looked into those hypnotizing golden eyes, and melted all over again. Everything I was going to say to him gone. Everything he had done to me, forgoten. The only thing that mattered right then was that he was here, and all the emotions running through me. But what emotions? I can't remember. My thoughts are all hazed.
"Damnit, Van!" I glared, crossing my arms over my chest.
"What now?" he yelled, glaring back at me with those eyes.
We continued to glare at each other. By now I had completely forgoten why I was angry to begin with in the first place. I just knew I had to vent whatever emotions where coursing through me. And when it came to fighting with Vanitas, there was only one way I could properly do that. I groaned loudly, forcing my arms to my sides, as I stomped over to where he was standing. His eyes continued to threaten me as I approached him, daring me to do something I'll regret. Right when I was about to walk straight into him, I grabbed the back of his head, clutching a fist full of hair, closed my eyes and crushed my lips to his. He wrapped his arms tightly around me, kissing me back, as he walked backwards into his room, before we fell on his bed.
(End Flashback)
Things always seem to change when She's around. I feel... different. I never like this feeling, yet it feels so natural. She's the only one who can make me feel these things... Why...? I'm getting sick and tired of not knowing whats going on. I didn't want this to happen. I knew feelings for you were growing, but nothing like this. I fell for a girl that never took a risk in her miserable life. In a life where I was the most exciting thing is... good. In the end I never got too tell her what was wrong with me...
It was too late...
(Flashback)
"LET HER GO!" I screamed, struggling to get free of the hold his lackies had on me.
"Now, now. Why on earth would I do a silly thing like that."
"If you touch her," I snarled vemonously, "I'll kill you were you stand." One of the guys holding me punched me in the gut. Because these idiots decided to hold my arms to my back, I was able to slid one of my knives out.
"Tsk, Tsk," he sounded going to the table, and picking something up before walking over to her, with his hands behind his back.
I struggled harder to break free as he walked up to her and caressed her cheek, only to recieve another punch to the gut. He then turned her head, forcing her to look at me.
"I believe it is time you learned your PLACE!" he emphasized his last word by taking the object in his hand and stabbing it through the base of her jaw up through her head.
"NAMINE!" I screamed as I tried, futilely, to run to her side.
Her eyes widened for that instant as her pale blue eyes found amber ones. He then kicked over the chair she was tied to and laughed in my face.
He had pushed me too far.I took the knife I had hidden in my waistband, and stabbed the guy to my left. When he released my arm, I quickly swung and slit the man on my right's throat. Too shocked to move, HE watched as I butchered the men that came at me. When I cut down the last lacky, I ran at him as fast as I could, backing him against a wall, , pulling my other knife out, and stabbing them both through his chest. I dragged the knives through him, cutting his chest and abdomen open. I then jabbed the knives throguh his shoulders, pinning him to the wall. I didn't want to waste anymore time than I already did, so I ran to Namine, and pulled the pen out. An agonizingly painful scream was heard as I realized she wasn't dead yet.
"Namine!" I shouted, pulling her onto my lap.
"V-v... V-Van-nit-tas..." She struggled, drowning in her own blood.
"Don't talk, okay," I pleaded, "Your gonna make it, I promi-"
"S-s-sing...to m-m-me..."
(End Flashback)
And so I sang to her. It was the one and only moment in my life, where I felt utterly, and completely, alone... I never got the chance to tell her my true feelings for her... She didn't care. She only wanted one thing. to hear me sing the song to her.
The song I sang when we first met...
The song I sang on our first date...
The song I sang when we first made love...
The song I sang whenever I saw her cry...
The song I sang every night she went to sleep...
The song I sang... the night she died...
Embrace me my angel,
who's eyes enlightens my world.
I sang aloud, and I began to stand up.
Let me feel your golden hair,
so soft so beautiful.
The the wind slowed and the rain softened, while the thunder rumbled quietly, fore the lightning had stopped.
Take my hand and follow me,
to the realms of silence.
I opened my eyes to the city below.
Let the ligth of all lights devour us.
I walked over to the edge of the clock tower, close my eyes and spread my arms wide.
Spread out your wings,
and take me to this paradise
"Namine..." I whispered, as I slid off the clock tower and dived down to the city in front of me. The tower bells rang throguh the air, as her innocent, sweet voice sang the last two lines back to me.
Spread out your wings,
and take me to this paradise
May 13, 2011... Friday 12:00AM
I fell from GRACE...
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