STOP BULLYING! this is one of the results!
'Much happened last five years. My grandparents died, mistreats, my best friend died and I were bullied every day. Why am I still alive?'
When I opened my eyes, i saw nothing. It was dark, very dark. I felt with my hand on my cheek, they were wet. I felt pain, a lot of pain, but no one will understand it.
'Why does people still want me to be alive?' I asked myself, but I knew the answer. They wanted to common treatment me further. 'I can't take this pain anymore, I want to leaf this world, I want to an another world, heaven.'
I walked to school like usual. "Hey you ugly girl!" a boy said. I ignored him, I was scared to say something back. "She is scared, ha ha" the another boy said with a big smile on his face. Like always, I still ignored them.
When I stood by some people they said they were my friends, I smiled, but they don't know that this is a mask. I was crying inside. I smiled and laughed the whole day.
After school when I was home, I ran to my room and locked the door. 'Why am I still alive…? I don't want to live this way anymore…' I thought.
I picked a knife and held it by my throat.
-flashback-
'do you promise you won't do suicide?' my boyfriend said. 'I promise…' I said 'fine' he said smiling and gave me a hug.
I released the knife. 'What do I have to do now?' I picked my pillow and cried. "I don't want this anymore! I don't want this pain anymore!" I shouted very loud. Luckily I was home alone, I didn't want to let my mom know about this pain.
'I felt lonely, no one likes me. Even my boyfriends don't like me, even he said he does…, I don't know if I have to believe it'. I watched out the window to the sky. 'What's wrong with me that I have to carry this pain?' I sat with the pillow in my hand.