Choosing to Smile to the Past
It was everything I wanted
Just this, that's all, just this
It was all I thought I needed
But you don't know how much you need it 'til you miss it when you loose it
I was foolish and half-witted
And maybe I still am
But at least now I've admitted
On this one final day
Walking through the paths along the street
Freezing away
My heart would race with anticipation
But not today
In this cold foreboding fall
The last day
I used up my chance
Fighting meaningless fights, battling battles not meant to battle
I can't take that one last glace
The glint in your eye when I told you my secrets
Digging into my soul
We'll never get to fight those fights again, you know
Fulfill each of our stubborn roles
I think I've known all along I shouldn't be here
I didn't want to think it would end
I know the way I feel for you and know you don't feel that too
Only a friend,
And I know I can never compare.
I'm sighing a lot now, I find
Trying to get the image of you out of my troubled mind
Walking along, I'm falling behind
I know I can't forget you, even if I wished to
But at least now I've admitted
Yes, I was foolish and half-witted
We both were, admit it
Yes, I hoped I wouldn't have to go
I know it's only fair
Yes, I hoped I would never have to know
Only a friend, I could never compare
But what I saw in your eyes in that one last stare
What I hoped I saw there
Were you begging me like I was begging you?
Begging for it not to end
Not to go
Begging for a seam to mend
Everything we left to be broken
Every day we left with words that will remain unspoken
After this final day
I will no longer continue to do things with the lightheartedness I found
With you
I know, though, I'll find myself again
Walking through the paths along the street
Freezing away
My heart would race with anticipation
But not today
In this cold foreboding fall
The last day
The birds won't seem to sing their songs
Not today
Maybe tomorrow
But with my memories I can smile back
And push forward
Until I'll find we can smile truly to today
Tomarrow
Not only to the yesterday
On today
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