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Hermione was trying to focus on helping Harry, she really was. She knew how important it was that they find this diadem and destroy it. Without that, Harry was doomed. But thoughts of how this could be the last time she would ever see Ron kept running through her head.
He's such a
wonderful, loyal friend. He would do anything for us. Even sacrifice
himself. I'm feeling things for him that I never though possible. And
they are such wonderful, happy, heart-lifting things. I know,
it could destroy our friendship if I act on my feelings. Nothing
would ever be the same between us, and poor Harry would be stuck in
the middle! That just wouldn't be fair to him. How can we ask him to
just be the third wheel? But, I know Harry would understand, he
wouldn't mind at all. He's so nice that way. I would still feel awful
though. But I can't help the way I feel. I can't help that I
love being around him. I can't help that I love the way it feels when
he's near me. I can't help that I love the way he smells, and
the way he cares about me. I can't help that I love it when he's
goofy and dumb, and I love it even more when he's smart. If
today is the last time I ever see his face, I may die. I don't know
if I can live without him. No, I know that I can't live without
him. He is my world, he is my everything. That was shown when
he left me alone with Harry that night. I didn't realize how much he
meant to me until he pulled my entire world out from under my
feet. He may have hurt me so badly that night, but he also
made me realize that I am nothing without him. He is my world, and he
is my everything. If he dies tonight, or if I die tonight, it
will be worth it. But will the lives we lived be remembered for the
wonderful things we did, or the feelings we never acted on? Will any
of this be worth it if we don't act? I can't help that I'm
thinking too rationally. I've never felt this way about anyone
before. I can't help that he's perfect! I can't help that he's
wonderful!
They
pulled away, gazing into eachothers eyes, she barely comprehended
what Harry said, and even less so what Ron said. She was too focused
on his eyes, gazing lovingly at her.
I
can't help that I love him.
