This is like my other story "The life of a murderer and her brother" This is before Resu went crazy and became a murderer. Her story to why she is this way, why she is alone with Kenji. And why she was brutally killed by someone she loved very much.

I own Resu, Kenji, Zeena, and DB. Hataro characters are owned by Ritsuko Kawai and the Hamtaro crew.

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So whats the deal with your piercing eyes

Such a f----ing cheap disguise

So pale so thin

Your remarks soak in.

"The dew is cold..." whispered a soft, gentle voice in the cooling wind. "Just like...my brother. Oh, my brother..."

The morning was cold and humid, there layed a young, white furred hamster named Resu. Her blonde hair was alover the grass. She looked up at the cloudy sky watching the sun come up. She closed her eyes and whispered to herself these words...

Just a lacadazical whirl

Just a f----ed up lonely girl..

Thats all she was, thats all she believed she was. A lonely girl, with a careless brother in a careless world.

She closed her eyes slowly as she felt the wet dew seep through her silky hair. She began imagining her past while humming a song.

Far away

Long ago

Glowing dim as an ember

Things my heart used to know

things it yearns to remember...

She stopped, and layed there dead quiet, while feeling a cold tear stream down her eyes, her lips quivered as she was remembering her past, her past...with her and Kenji.

-FLASHBACK-

"Kenji..." said a small, frightened female hamster looking out the window. "I want to go outside..but it looks really scary out there, can you come with me...?"

Her brother, a silver coated hamster who was making coffee in the kitchen, turned to her and quietly smiled. "Its scary because...its raining, and its thundering. Are you sure you want to go outside?" he said washing his paws in the sink then walking over to her, picking her up over his shoulder.

The little girl, named Resu giggled and moved her legs in the air. "Yeah...Im not so scared anymore. I have you by my side." she said hugging his brothers head.

Kenji chuckled and pet Resus hair gently. "Im glad to hear that...come on, get your raincoat..."

Resu giggled excitedly and jumped off Kenjis arms, running in to get her black trenchcoat.

Kenji turned to her and smiled, then slowly looked out the window waiting for her. He looked slightly sad, as if he wanted something...he sighed watching the rain softly fall into the ground without making a sound. It was foggy outside, he squinted his eyes and saw a young female hamster and a male around his age, holding paws across the neighborhood streets.

Kenji smiled slightly at this, then looked back down at the ground. Thats all what he needed...company. Thats what he felt, alone. He was lonely, alone with his little sister, who was so young to believe in anything and really know nothing at all.

"KENJI! KENJI!" yelled Resus faint cries from Kenjis mind. Kenji shook his head and tried to smile again. He looked at Resu who was wearing her raincoat with her blonde hair tied in a blue ribbon to the side. "Im ready...Kenji." she said smiling and hugging him happily.

Kenji felt happier inside knowing that alteast someone cared for him, even though their parents had died from a horrible murdering accident. He wouldnt tell anyone, not even his sister. If his sister knew what really happened to them...that they were murdered awfully by an axe murderer, her mind would be terrified.

Kenji sighed quietly and put Resu on his back, reaching out an umbrella and handing it to Resu. "Open this when I head out the door..ok?"

"Okay." Resu said trying to open it, leading into the dark, foggy streets of Chanterrel.

-END FLASHBACK-

Resu slowly opened her icey-blue eyes and stared at the morning sun. She slowly got up feeling the dew all dried up. She looked back up at the sky again, noticing that the grey clouds have gone away, everything seemed brighter, but that did not brighten Resus heart, as if anything could now.

Resu was 14 years old in human years. She wore a blue corset with a black 1700s skirt with lace that dragged to the floor. It seems her blonde hair has reached her knees at this point.

Her ears perked up hearing a loud zooming truck coming through the neighboorhood street. She turned slowly to the right and stared at the truck, it was huge and silver, and felt the wind so stong that it was making her cover her eyes. She heard screaming, loud screaming. She tried to make it out, it was a "WHY DID YOU DO THIS, BRO? WHY DID YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME?"

Resu stood dead silent. She squinted her eyes feeling more leaves flying past her by the wind, she spotted the silver truck going closer. She started to silently cry, because those screaming words reminded her so much of what her brother did to her. She couldnt take this anymore. "I wish I could take all these tears you made me cry and f----ing DROWN you in them." She screamed and ran into the streets sobbing. She quickly looked up at the truck and closed her eyes tightly biteing her lip. "Kill me...kill me now, kill m-"

"Gooooood morning Chanterrel! Welcoming you another wonderful day! Its 7 am and you know what that means? Yeah, work! Boring aint it? Well-"

Kenji quickly shot open his eyes breathing heavily. He stared at the clock and quickly shut it off with his paw. He leaned back against the wall and groaned. "Augh..what the hell was I dreaming about..? Wait..." he paused. "RESU!" He yelled throwing the covers on the floor, then just standing there in his room. "...wait. It was just a dream, Resu DIDNT really kill herself did she...? No..no of course not" laughed Kenji to himself.

Resu slowly peeked in Kenjis room silently with her black nightgown on. "Did you call me... brother?" she said sadly looking up at him.

Kenji caught his breathe and shook his head. "No. Forget about it, just go up your room or something...Im expecting someone."

Resu nodded and looked away sighing. "Kenji there is a silver hamster with pink bows outside the door...I think her namy was Mary."

Kenji instantly grinned, pushing Resu to the side and opening the door. "Marianne! My sweetie!" he said happily hugging her close. "Ive been waiting for you..."

The pink bowed hamster smiled and giggled. She was so perky and so full of life. She kissed Kenjis cheek and spoke in her french accent. "I am zee glad to be zere.."

Resu held her shoulder hard and winced slowly getting up. She stared at the two, she never seen Kenji so happy before...she knew it was for the best. But...did he have to forget about her like this?

"Resu-setta..." bowed a black furred hamster with red ribbons and a maid dress on. "Your piano is dusted...you may play it now."

Resu didnt say anything, she just nodded and quietly went into the living room, setting down on the piano and placed her paws on the keys. She stared humming silently in her ghostly-like tune. She played along the keys trying to get a rhythm. The black furred maid named DB sat down next to a couch and looked at her. "You hum beautifully..." she said softly.

Resu smiled and kept on playing the scales, she closed her eyes and tried to remember the keys. "I remember this song I once heard..."Join me in death"" she said quietly and looked at DB. "You seem preety saddended..." said Resu. "You sing beautifully too..."

DB looked down blushing. "Thank you...play the song, for me...please?" she said smiling.

Resu smiled back. "..not only are you my maid, but you are my best friend. I never really do go out much.." she said playing the intro of the song. "And well...the world is just too cruel for me.."

We are so young our lives have just begun

but already were considering escape from this world

Resu opened her eyes and kept on singing in her soft, calming ghostly tune. She let her hair sway back and forth and kept on playing.

And weve waited for so long for this moment to come

was so anxious to be together

together in death

Kenji and Mary stopped hugging, and looked around the house wondering what was going on. Kenji took Marys paw and led her to the living room, where Resu was playing.

Wont you die tonight for love

Baby join me in death

Wont you die baby join me in death

Wont you die tonight for love baby join me in death.

Mary and Kenji sat next to DB, who was listening to Resus playing and singing, DB eventually got up and sat next to Resu on the piano seat and joined in the singing.

This world is a cruel place and were here only to lose

so before life tears us apart let death bless me with you

DBs voice sounded nicely calm, in tune, and a little higher than Resus.

This life aint worth living (4x)

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End of chapter 1. Next Chapter: The axe murder past