If you were with me now :)
If you were with me now.
I would tell you how much you mean to me, how for the past few years I have loved you and only you, no matter what it must have felt like for you at times. How no one could ever come close to you and how without you I just don't work properly. You make me happy, at least happier than I have ever been before; see I never really did happiness till I met you; maybe that's why I found it so hard in the beginning.
If you were with me now.
I would tell you how sorry I am for all the bad things I've done to you; sometimes I wonder how you can even speak to me, but then you have always been the only one to see some good in me. Maybe you can still see it. I am truly ashamed of myself for hitting you, if I could take it all back I would, but all I can do is regret it and tell you how sorry I am. The thing is it was never about you and that is the saddest thing, you never deserved any of it.
If you were with me now.
I'd try to act together, try to convince myself that I have my feelings for you under control, although the pounding of my heart and the nervousness I feel around you might give it away. Outwardly I might be Brendan Brady, hard and untouchable but on the inside I'm just a man in love, scared to have his heart broken. You would be the one to break me, maybe that's why I fought you so hard and denied you for so long. I'm so scared of losing you for good.
If you were with me now.
I'd get lost in those beautiful blue eyes of yours; they always were so sexy and inviting. The smell of you is like nothing else, I call it the Steven smell. I have never smelt a smell so addictive before. I'd look at you and take you all in; you would blush and try breaking my stare, but you never could and you would look even more gorgeous to me. I could look at you for hours, days, weeks; I could look at you for the rest of my life.
If you were with me now.
I would pull you close to me and as soppy as it sounds I would hold you tight, never wanting to let you go. You always did fit so well in my arms. I would inhale your scent and smile at you snuggling in to me, you would look up to me with such love in your eyes and if I could stop time I would stop it right at that moment. I miss you looking at me that way, you used to make me feel like a king totally worshiped.
If you were with me now.
I'd put my hand on your face, touching your soft golden brown skin, I'd kiss your full, pouty lips and grab hold of you tightly. I'd want you so badly and you would feel exactly the same. We'd undress each other, so desperate for one another and the feel of your skin on mine is the best feeling in the world. We'd touch and kiss and fuck for hours and there would be no limit for my desire for you. You are perfect for me in every way and I can't get enough of you.
If you were with me now.
I'd be on such a high that you were lying next to me, our bodies hot and sweaty and for a second when I'd look at you it would look like your glowing. I adore you Steven from your head to your toes and I wish that we could start again and just be together, in love like we were once upon a time. Reality is such a horrible place as you haven't been with me for so long. Someone else has all these things with you now because I was stupid enough to let you go. I have tried to get you back and prove to you that I'm ready, but it's all too late, you love him now. I would still try and make you love me again though.
If you were with me now.
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