Title: Between Life and Death
Author: Britani Gael
Game: Final Fantasy IX
Rating: PG
Summary: Kuja's thoughts as he was dying.
I was wrong.
It is something I've never said before, never thought before, never meant before. But it is true.
I was wrong. Wrong wrong wrong.
I lay here, in the Iifa Tree, where the mess began and where it would end soon. Very soon. I lay here, in a place between life and death, wishing death, but wanting nothing more than life.
I still fear death, though I deserve it, having given it to so many others. Thousands of others, whose only crime was being in the wrong place at the wrong time, getting in my way. I fear it, though I understand now.
I feared death, I could not fanthom the thought that existence would continue on without me. So I would end existence. Everyone would die with me.
And now I have brought Necron down on them.
Zidane, I hope you can undo what I have done.
Zidane. You were to be my better, and by trying to advert that prophecy, I seem to have fufilled it. I was invincible, I controlled unimaginable power, but you, with your army of children and misfits, have outsmarted and defeated me.
You and me are the same, though you do not know it. You do not know how close you came to being me. I hope you never do.
It's my fault ...
It is coming apart around them. I can feel the tree, collapsing on itself, destroying itself.
I do not have much left in me, but I can hold it back. I know I can. I can save them.
I can feel my strength leaving me, bit by bit, and my vision is becoming spotted with black. My death is coming, I can feel it. Afraid, but I accept the inevitable.
Is this how the Burmecians felt, as the Black Mages destroyed their city and their lives?
The Cleryans, as the terrible eidolon brought fire and death upon them?
The Alexadrians, as the Invincible hovered above their castle?
God, if anyone deserved it, it is me.
I am ... sorry. For everything.
They, Zidane's ... friends. They saved everything when I would have destroyed it all. If I save them, maybe I can earn a little forgiveness, even if I don't deserve it. A second chance, even if it only lasts a little while.
Farwell, Zidane ...
Author: Britani Gael
Game: Final Fantasy IX
Rating: PG
Summary: Kuja's thoughts as he was dying.
I was wrong.
It is something I've never said before, never thought before, never meant before. But it is true.
I was wrong. Wrong wrong wrong.
I lay here, in the Iifa Tree, where the mess began and where it would end soon. Very soon. I lay here, in a place between life and death, wishing death, but wanting nothing more than life.
I still fear death, though I deserve it, having given it to so many others. Thousands of others, whose only crime was being in the wrong place at the wrong time, getting in my way. I fear it, though I understand now.
I feared death, I could not fanthom the thought that existence would continue on without me. So I would end existence. Everyone would die with me.
And now I have brought Necron down on them.
Zidane, I hope you can undo what I have done.
Zidane. You were to be my better, and by trying to advert that prophecy, I seem to have fufilled it. I was invincible, I controlled unimaginable power, but you, with your army of children and misfits, have outsmarted and defeated me.
You and me are the same, though you do not know it. You do not know how close you came to being me. I hope you never do.
It's my fault ...
It is coming apart around them. I can feel the tree, collapsing on itself, destroying itself.
I do not have much left in me, but I can hold it back. I know I can. I can save them.
I can feel my strength leaving me, bit by bit, and my vision is becoming spotted with black. My death is coming, I can feel it. Afraid, but I accept the inevitable.
Is this how the Burmecians felt, as the Black Mages destroyed their city and their lives?
The Cleryans, as the terrible eidolon brought fire and death upon them?
The Alexadrians, as the Invincible hovered above their castle?
God, if anyone deserved it, it is me.
I am ... sorry. For everything.
They, Zidane's ... friends. They saved everything when I would have destroyed it all. If I save them, maybe I can earn a little forgiveness, even if I don't deserve it. A second chance, even if it only lasts a little while.
Farwell, Zidane ...