Author's Note

Yes I wrote this on a whim. Yes, I avoided doing my homework by writing this. But! Thatsokayyy! Reviews are very much appreciated!

Also just a warning. But there is a character death and there is gay marriage.

When you're happy, you feel like that feeling will last forever. But one day that illusion will break and reality will send you tumbling into the infinite darkness.

Lately Kagami has been acting strangely.

He never looks me in the eye anymore, hardly ever smiles. And even when he does it's such a pained expression. Like a stereotypical shoujo manga where the heroine dies with a smile and tears running down her face.

Sometimes I find him in the apartment just sitting there, not doing anything in particular. I'll call out his name and he won't respond until a roughly shove him to get his attention. And when he answers me his words are slow as if the stupid idiot is trying to put thought into everything he's saying.

Occasionally he locks himself in the bathroom for hours and won't answer me at all when I call out to him. And he always looks so damn tired. Every Sunday he takes long extensive trips out to god knows where for almost the entire day. And he comes back with eyes red and sore from tears.

But the worst part is watching as each day he gets a little thinner, a little more dead, and his light dims.

At first I thought he was cheating on me. But each night he clings desperately to me, murmuring my name over and over like it's the last time he'll ever say it. I may be an idiot, but I at least understand that much of his feelings.

It's probably something serious, but he hasn't said anything to me about it. And I haven't asked. Maybe it's because I'm an idiot and he's an idiot too. Maybe it's because I don't want to be the one to shatter our happy days. Maybe it's because I'm scared.

For once each day is interesting and I don't want to lose that. But somehow it feels like those happy days are slowly drifting away, like water dripping out of my cupped hands. What I thought I had a solid grip on is slowly melting and flowing away. As the days go by, I'm starting to lose everything. Him. Us.

That day when I saw the stack of papers on the table I don't know what compelled me to flip them over and read them. Maybe I was just too desperate to save our days together. Maybe I already knew that it was the answer to Kagami's odd behavior. I may be an idiot, but there are some things only idiots understand.

I can't explain the shock that thrummed through me as I read the paper. It was like facing an opponent one hundred times stronger than I was. By the time I reached the end of the paper, I was shuddering, the hair on my neck standing on end. I felt fear.

I used to think that the only one who can defeat me is myself. But now I have discovered an opponent who can and always will defeat me no matter how many times we fight. And I was the one who handed him the power to do so.

I heard the door open slowly, Kagami's soft footsteps as he walked in, the soft sound of him sighing, the soft thump as he roughly tossed his jacket and bag to the floor, the thud as he slumped against the wall and slid to the floor to take off his shoes, and then the soft tread of his bare feet as he stumbled into the living room.

Even though I was facing away from him, in my mind I could clearly see as Kagami's dead eyes slowly roved around the room, searching for me. I could see his eyes light up a little and a faint, pained smile spread across his face as he headed towards me.

And I could see as he froze in his tracks, his eyes glued to the stack of papers in my hand.

"…Aomine…" his quiet voice murmured, "…Did you read it?"

"No, I just decided that holding it in my hand is really fun," I scoffed sarcastically. Glancing over my shoulder I could see the hurt on his face. But for some reason I didn't feel sympathetic. I didn't feel sorry. I just felt angry and agitated and that feeling wasn't fading. And I know I loved the person in front of me and I know he loved me too but somehow it just wasn't clicking anymore. And all the times when I had felt happy with him, I suddenly can't remember those times.

"I'm sorry, Aomine, I was going to tell you… I really was… It's just that—" Kagami mumbled gripping the edges of his shirt nervously as he glanced nervously away from me.

I roughly grabbed the collar of his shirt, pulling him towards me as I spat "Just what? You think there's even a reason that you should hide something this important from me?" Kagami showed no signs of speaking so I continued. "You're dying Kagami! You're dying! And YOU THINK THAT'S NOT SOMETHING WORTH TELLING ME?" And suddenly I was shouting. I succumbed to my rage and let it take over. "You think I could just sit there and watch you die? You think you could've just… left me? Alone? And that wouldn't hurt me? Or anyone else? KAGAMI. ANSWER ME. TAIGA" I shoved him forcefully against a wall, his back hitting it with a dull thud.

I heard him grunt and his forehead slumped against my shoulder, his dual toned hair tickling my neck. I felt something wet on my shoulder and I could tell he was crying. He reached for my hand hanging at my side and he pressed a small circle of cool metal into the palm of my hand.

"Aomine…" he murmured my name.

"What?" I answered irritated, "If you have any lame excuse for—"

"Marry me."