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Only in my Dreams
I see him in my dreams and it breaks my heart. He was the one who told me who I am. With out him I probably would have walked around like a zombie not knowing who I was. Without him I wouldn't have my patch-worked memory or be alive.
When I see him, I see what he has been doing since he left. He doesn't act the same at all. He is no longer gentle and caring with a curious nature that is as innocent and beautiful as a child. I remember every time we went to a new world how his eyes would light up ever so slightly at the possibility of learning. But now it was all gone replaced with a cold demeanor and one clear blue eye.
I think he sees me too, for he always looks me straight in the eye. He makes my breath hitch every time with mismatch eyes. It is not the same gaze I'm use to seeing. It is not the same at all. It used to be warm and bittersweet twin amber eyes gazing at me with a hint of a secret I can barely understand. Now it is nothing but an indifferent stare that makes my blood freeze. It only seems perfect that his once blind eye is now the color of ice like his new personality.
But as we look at each other, this familiar stranger and I, I can't help but feel the same way I did before he changed. My heart still flutters and I still blush! He's not the same but I feel the same towards him! I shouldn't feel this way! He has hurt so many people, even our own friends. But he hasn't hurt me. Not physically, at least, but mentally he has struck me many times.
In my dreams, after he is done, he always starts walking towards me. All I can do is stand there with tears in my eyes hoping that what he has done only occur in my dreams. But at the same time I wish what is happening is real because than it means he is really here with me. Stopping a few feet away he opens a portal and sends the feather into it while never taking his eyes off mine. Through out this all, I never blink thinking if I do he might leave me again. But I don't ever want him to leave. No matter how much he has changed he still is the same. He has to be.
He lifts a hand to my cheek and wipes a tear away that I didn't know had escaped from my eye. I realize then that I have been crying since I saw what he has done to this world. And then he does the unthinkable.
He walks away, leaving me there to stand for myself.
As I wake the next morning I remember it was only a dream.
I Have To Admit I Hate When People Do Drabbles Or A Characters Thoughts Yet Here I Am Doing What I Hate. I Mean Come On They Have No Plot! But I Now Understand. A Litte. I Got An Idea For This From The Latest Manga Chapter Where Clone Syaron Has A Blank Stare On His Face And Sakura Looks Torn.
LOOK LOOK READ! READ!!!!! Oh And Yeah I Misspelled Syaron But That Is How They Did It In The OVA And As Stupid As It Looks, IT Is Growing On Me.