This story starts off right after Jacob goes to the wedding and Sam and the others have to pull him out of there in brCeaking dawn. This is what happens with him after that night. THIS IS NOT A JACOB AND BELLA STORY! this is about Jacobs life and how he tries to get over the loss of Bella, even though it seems she doesn't want to let him go just yet! all characters belong to SM
my hands dropped to my side,as i barely realized what i was doing. i was hurting bella. my only women i have ever and will ever love. the second i let go the leech had her behind and quil were in front of me in the next, though i couldnt tell if they were blocking edward from me or me from bella, maybe just trying to prevent a fight. i dint care i wanted so much to say sorry to bella but my anger at her surpassed that need. which is the only reason i let seth tug me out of there, i refused to phase in front of bella,refused to give the leech any more satisfaction at my lack of self-control. "C'mon, jake. Lets go." seth said quietly to me "I'll kill you," i said
my voice co choked with rage i could barely say them, it came out in a whisper,though i'm positive everyone heard. i was looking straight at edward,makinh sure he saw the fury in my eyes. "I'll killl you myself! I'll do it now!" I said as i shuddered convulsively as sam in his wolf form growled warningly. "Seth get out of the way," edward hissed.
Just then i saw red, how dare he think i was gonna hurt my brother? I was angry i could do nothing but shout at the bloodsucker in my head,throwing every swear word i knew out there,and let seth yank me back a couple of more feet back,farther away from bella and her leech husband. "Don't do it, jake. Walk away.C'mon."
i barely heard the words penetrate my mind, much less heard who they came put his big massive black head on my chest,shoving me back,into the cover and darkness of the forest. immediatly i phased without saying a word, keeping my mind blank to what i was thinking,the anger helped. I paced back and forth between two trees, we weren't far from the party and i could still hear the music playing. thinking of the party i lashed out at the tree to my left, breaking it. I heard one of the pack step forward i turned seeing seth his eyes as well as his mind was full of worry as was the others. i took i deep breath knowing i had to say something. "I'm sorry, i should have left as soon as i got angry." i aploligezed sam step up to me noy 3 inches from my face "I told you it would be like this jacob. It's done,she's leaving soon and she won't ever come back, and if she does she won't be the same bella. She'll be one of them." he thought. I put my head down looking at the forest floor. i knew what he was saying was true,i just din't want it to be or hear it, but i knew i had to. it hurt so much,the pain of losing someone you loved. i now understood how bella felt when edward left her.i understood very much now why she always had her hands wrapped around herself,felt like she was falling apart on the inside. memories of those months with her brought on a series of painful convulsions to my body and i did the one thing the wolf in me knew how to do very well. i lokked at the moon and howled the longest most painfullest howl i could manage,knowing everyone within 5 miles maybe 10 had to have heard with one last look at my pack i ran. i ran as fast and as hard as my wolf form allowed. I didn't know where i was going but i had to get out again, out of this town,out of this did isabella swan do to me? I was glad the pack didn't follow me, though i knew seth and quil wanted to,but sam stopped them. if i was able to i would have smiled. sam always seemed to know when to and when not to give me my space.i knew embry would be hurt, from me not letting him know i was leaving i didnt have the time to think about anyone elses feelings but my own. which at the moment were raging out my control. imajes of bella were running through my head. her at my house sleep on the couch or on my bed. us together in my garage and sitting together on the old driftwood bench at the la push about i all made me cry which in wolf form sounded liike horrible little soul and mind would forever be afferected and hunted by isabella marie cullen.