Here I am, yet again, in this wholly darkness that seems to imprison my soul. Oh! Woe is me! Will my gaping hole ever be filled again? When will my heart beat steadily once more?
How can I not stand on my own two feet without his sweet perfection lifting me to the heavens that he is forbidden to touch? Why has he forsaken me?
I am nothing without his sweet touch of burning passion, his frozen fingers upon my face. Oh, the wreckage of my feeble heart has left me in a stitch of endless torment! When will this relentless darkness slip back into the shadows of the room and release its firm grip from my bosom?
"Bella!" Charlie calls to me from behind the door separating my dark world from the cruel world outside.
"What!" I call out in a rather irritated tone.
"We need to talk!" says he. Does he not know that the light from the outside will disappear into the abyss of my chest? This empty abyss of empty hopes and dreams. I am off into another spell of tears!
Upon hearing my helpless cries for help, Charlie enters my room without my consent. His face scrunches up in disgust at my banshee wailing. This unwelcome demon comes to me and grips my shoulders.
"Be gone, demon!" I plead and beg. How can a weak human female such as I ever hope to slay a beast such as him?
"Don't talk to me that way," he demands in a stern voice. "This needs to stop right now, Bella!"
I laugh at him! He does not understand the pubescent pain of first love lost! He cannot comprehend the barren that occupies my shattered heart!
"What do you know of heartbreak?" I spit at him. Foolish man is he!
"Bella, please, just let me talk to you in a normal conversation for once!" he begs me.
"You do not command me!" I shake my head vigorously. That tires me, so I lie back in my bed and close my tearful eyes.
"Fine," he sighs in contempt. He leaves my chamber of eternal grieving and I am again free to play my pain as I wish.
I chose to weep and wail more. I will call to my love until I can see his perfect face once more at my window. Sorrow burrows in my chest and I hold myself. My love, he shall return to save my lonely soul soon!