1: The bar: BPOV

Edwards' cold body pressed against mine, kissing me all over leaving me feeling all tingly, we were lying on my queen sized bed in my apartment and it seemed like the whole world had disappeared and we were the only two people left or I was the only person left and he was the only vampire left.

"Bella, I love you so much" he whispered in my ear, in his soft velvet voice and bit softly on my earlobe.

"I love you too, and I always will" I said much louder and smiled Edward moved his lips too mine kissing me so passionately I thought I could hear my heart miss a beat. After years of being together my heart still had its same reaction to Edward either missing beats or growing much louder and faster.

"I will always be here for you until the end of time" he whispered to me between kisses his hand moved down my shirt until his hand had slipped under my coral blue shirt, onto my warm skin moving his hand inside of my shirt Edward kept moving his hand up until his cold hard hand was on my right breast the fabric of my bra was the only thing separating Edward from my hard breasts. Edward smiled an evil lust ridden smile and lifted my shirt up I pulled my arms above my head to make it easier for him to get my top off Edward flung my shirt across the room with barley a flick of the wrist and then put his hand on my hot back trying to find the clip of my bra. I knew that my bra was a front clip but it was fun to watch Edward try and find the clip and have him fail, his shaggy gold-ish brown hair fell into his eyes as he growled at himself I couldn't help but laugh at this it was just to amusing not to.

"This is so not funny Bella, where the hell is the clip?" Edward said sounding very serious which made me laugh even more.

"It's a front clip not a back" I laughed as Edward lifted his body off mine to be able to see what I was talking about and unfasten my bra.

"Oh right" he grumbled as he laughed a little at himself as he undid the clip kissing in between my breasts.

I closed my eyes I couldn't bear to look as he saw my hard breasts for the first time what if he thought they were funny looking or to small? Was all I could think about.

Edward let out a small gasp as he saw my breasts and kissed them "you're so beautiful" Edward whispered and I let out a small sigh as he placed both him hands on my breasts giving them a gentle squeeze.

BEEP. BEEP.

BEEP. BEEP.

Aggh I had been dreaming of Edward… again. He had never come back once he had left me in the forest in Forks I was still alone… and unloved. I turned off my alarm clock which had been making the horrible beep noise and sat up in bed the sheets falling off of me to reveal my naked chest I had stopped wearing pajamas when I had left Forks after high school and moved into my small apartment here in Seattle now I just wore a pair of undies. After all now there was no need to cover up seeing how no one watched me sleep anymore or even slept with me. I reached into my wooden draw next to my bed and grabbed a plain black 10 C bra out and put it on making sure it was a back clip.

Having dreams about the man that I still loved wasn't unusual they happened five out of seven nights a week but they still rattled me it had been 3 years since that day in the forest I was now 21 and working at a bar named Dracula's. I knew how ironic it was working there, after going out with a vampire and now working at a bar named after a famous vampire I was often reminded how funny that was by my best friend Jacob whenever he, Quil and Embry came to visit who were also werewolves. But something that they didn't know is that the bar also serves vegetarian vampires animal blood with whiskey in it the humans that came in had no idea that they existed and they were never in danger.

I looked over at my clock the time said 5:30 pm I had an hour to get ready for work. Since working at Dracula's I had been having the occasional nap in the afternoon so that I could catch up on my sleep that I had been missing for the week. I got out of bed un-wanting to a few minutes later, and walked over to my closet it was bound to be a cold day seeing how it was Seattle. So I grabbed my work shirt which was just a black shirt that had bite marks on the collar and had Dracula's written in white across my chest and then I grabbed my leather pants and shoved them on and put my 2 inch black boots on over the top of the pants. I didn't add any jewelry to my outfit I just had my usual sleeper earrings and black watch. I walked into my bathroom and had a look in the mirror I still looked the same as I had years ago except that now I was more curvy and had longer hair which at the moment looked like a haystack so I quickly brushed my hair and then my teeth I kept my hair down and quickly straightened it.

Once done I walked into the kitchen and dining room area of my apartment and grabbed my leather jacket, keys and my helmet then walked out of there to the parking area down stairs. When I got to the parking lot I sighed at my beautiful black 200 Indian motorbike, put on my helmet and straddled the bike then put it in gear and with another quick sigh I took off for my 15 minute drive to work.

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As I pulled into the parking lot at work I felt a chill run down my spine as if something big was about to happen, I sighed and shook off the feeling, nothing big ever happened to me not since Victoria tried to kill me 3 years ago or Riley the year after that. But Jacob and the other werewolves had killed her before she could kill me although I had been left with a scar running from my belly to my hip; the cut had been made by the shape edge of Victoria's knife. So I simply just walked inside.

"Hey Bella how's it going?" my friend Cassie asked me as I walked behind the counter and gave her a hug.

"It's going fine thanks what about you?" I smiled.

"The usual" she smiled back "I'm having a party tonight after my shift do you wanna join?" Cassie smiled at me.

"I can't sorry, I'm catching up with some friends after work" I replied wishing I could go, Cassie's parties were always awesome.

"Aww that sounds fun… next time you're coming to my party though." She laughed "we should get to work before Kyle yells at us for talking" she finished.

"Yeah you're right" I said and walked to the other side of the counter laughing.

The next three hours went by really quickly serving customers and two guys gave me there phone numbers which I automatically threw in the bin. I was use to getting guys numbers by now. "Hey doll could I get a draught" an old man asked me.

"Sure can or glass?" I asked politely.

"Can's fine how much?" he asked getting out his wallet.

"4 bucks" I smiled and gave him his beer.

I started wiping down the counter when 3 guys came in laughing and sat down in one of the booths they looked so familiar but I was too far back to be able to see them properly so I walked over to the booth watching my feet to make sure that I didn't fall over.

"Ok so what will it be?" I asked the men lifting my head so that I could see them. HOLY SHIT it was Edward, Jasper and Emmett my mouth must have nearly hit the floor with shock I thought I was never going to see them again. Edward was in front of me all gorgeous and the same as he had looked 3 years ago obviously seeing how vampires didn't age. But seeing him again brought back all the pain I had felt three years ago I just wanted to crawl into a ball and cry. It was like being stabbed instant pain washed over me.

"Bella?" Edward chocked out sounding as surprised as I felt, all I could do was nod I was too afraid that I would start crying otherwise, all kinds of emotions washed over me. Love. Anger. Betrayal. Pain. And lastly the emotion that surprised me the most and the emotion that was only for Edward, hatred.

"Oh my god it's so good to see you" Emmett said now standing up and gave me a hug.

"You too Emmett" I smiled fully embracing the hug and to Emmett I meant it, it was nice to see him and Jasper but Edward not so much which surprised me I had always wanted to see Edward again but now that I did I just wanted to run away or scream and cause him the same pain that he had inflicted on me.

"Hey Bella" Jasper said giving me a hug.

"Hey Jasper it's good to see you" I smiled again loving the hug

"Bella" was the next voice that I heard it was Edwards velvet and gorgeous voice but I was so angry at him how could he of just left me? In the forest? No him I would also show my feelings to I'll just ignore him like he has ignored me for the last 3 years.

"So what are you guys doing here?" I asked not answering Edward or looking at him.

"Where going to school here" Emmett replied now sitting down still smiling.

"As in high school?" I asked trying not to smile.

"No collage" Edward said I could feel his gaze on me but I would not look at him I kept telling myself.

"Sweet! So anyways what do you guys want to drink? We have mountain lion with tequila or whiskey or we have black bear with the same" I asked casually I had asked the question so many times before that it was like second nature. The boys all looked at me shocked they probably still thought that seeing blood made me pass out or just really weak but I had gotten use to it by now with all the times that I had been cut accidentally or by someone else. It took them all a second to look as if they had remembered how to think and then they talked over which drink they wanted.

"Mountain lion with tequila sounds perfect" Jasper smiled. Tequila good man I could use some of that stuff now.

"Ok I'll be back in a second with your drinks" I smiled at Emmett and Jasper then walked away.

As I was walking I heard Emmett say behind me "Edward you just got rejected" and laughed, but me? No. I didn't find that funny at all after all it had been me that had been rejected all those years ago. Not him. I choked back tears and kept walking.

I walked back behind the bar finding the jar that contained mountain lion and poured them a big jug to share and then put around ¾ of a cup of tequila in the jug. I put the jug and three cups on a tray about to take it out when I looked down at the third cup and smiled I took it off the tray and poured around half a glass of mountain lion blood into it and then diluted it with water. I sure as hell wasn't about to have Edward drinking in a bar after all he is under age I smiled an evil smile and walked back to them.

"Thanks Bella I really needed a drink" Emmett smiled that makes two of us I thought as I put the jug and two glasses down in front of him and Jasper.

"No problem" I smiled back and gave Edward his drink.

"Thanks" I heard Edward mumble and take a sip of his drink. He spat it out all over Emmett who didn't seem to mind but just gave a, what the? Look to his brother.

"Ugh it's got water in it" He said, shocked and looked at me.

"Well what did you expect you're a minor" I smiled and heard Emmett and Jasper laughing.

"I'm 112 years old I'm not a minor!" Edward hissed I finally allowed myself to look at him.

"True but you're stuck in the body of a seventeen year old so you're a minor" I smiled and walked away hearing Emmett and Jasper burst into laughter and I couldn't help but laugh also but there was also this feeling in my stomach telling me to turn around and give Edward a kiss and fall into his arms and see what he would do about it. And then another felling telling me to walk back to him and punch him, but I knew the only thing that would come from that was a broken hand… mine. Because no matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop loving Edward, I just couldn't. But at that moment it wasn't just love that I felt for Edward it was also hate. I had even tried dating Jake for a while but he just wasn't Edward, we had even had sex but that had just been uncomfortable and I had cried most of the way through it. After the sex incident Jake and I had decided just to be friends because I couldn't give him what he needed. I couldn't love him that way I had always loved him but only as a friend.

"Bella hello? You in there?" I heard a velvet voice ask me it was Edward.

"What?!" I almost hissed at him I was not going to be the nice little shy Bella that I once was I had changed, I had taken self defense classes after high school had finished and I now was not defenseless or weak or shy and most of the time I wasn't all that nice.

"I was hoping that we could talk" Edward said keeping perfectly calm. How can he be so calm? I wondered does he not care at all?

I looked down at my watch to find that the time was 11pm work was over for me and I had to meet Jacob and his mates.

"Well we can't for three reasons one: my shifts over and I have to go and meet friends two: I don't wanna hear whatever you have to say and three: just being around you is making me want to punch something and I don't wanna hurt my hand by punching you so bye" I said trying to keep calm as I grabbed my helmet and put my leather jacket on and started walking outside but Edward followed me.

"Bella listen I am so sorry that I hurt you I never meant to--" Edward started but hell no was I going to hear him talk about anything he didn't deserve it I loved him so much and he left.

"NO! Ok I don't care if you're sorry you left me in the forest. You broke my heart, hell it's still broken. And I'm trying so hard to be strong but I wake up in the morning wondering if I live in hell because my angel left me three years ago in the forest. I was a walking zombie for months after you left, life didn't seem worth living so don't tell me you're sorry when you left me. I guess love doesn't last for eternity when you're a vampire after all!!!!" I yelled tears now filling my eyes that I could barely see Edward but no way was I going to cry in front of him I'll break down later I thought.

"Bella I never wanted to hurt you I just thought that life would be better for you if you didn't have a vampire boyfriend but that doesn't mean that it didn't hurt to leave you it hurts every day that I don't get to see you" Edward chocked his eyes were filled with all kinds of emotions but I didn't look deep enough to see what they were.

"Life was not better Edward" I hissed "and it sure as hell wasn't safer but you don't get to hear it you don't deserve to know how life was after you left, hell I don't even know how you could leave me and now three years later say 'oh I left because I thought it was safer' me and me alone gets to decide what is and what isn't safe for me. And besides if you wanted to see me every day why the hell did you leave me" I yelled and walked over to my bike.

"I'm so sorry I wish that I could take it back I missed you so much" Edward whispered taking a step towards me and instantly I took as step away I didn't want to feel his breath on me if I did I would give in and kiss him.

"Well you can't take it back Edward Cullen so move on like I've been trying to do for the last three years and now it's none of your business what I do with my life if I die its none of your business if I get pregnant it's not of your business or if get eaten by a vampire its none of your business just like you wanted" I said and straddled my bike.

"That was not what I wanted and what the hell are you doing?!" Edward nearly yelled at me.

"I'm going home to change what do you think I'm doing?" I hissed he was getting on my last nerves.

"You so aren't driving a death-trap you could get killed" Edward said with a look of fear in his eyes.

"I've nearly died 5 times in the last three years and a motorbike hasn't been the cause of any of those near death experiences" I whispered and rode off into the night.