Okay, I just couldn't wait to post this fan fic! I've been thinking about this fan fic for five years and I've started writing it a few months ago and I said that I would wait until the whole fanfic was done before I posted it, but… I really can't wait! Just a little info about the fanfic (
The fan fic is about Xiana, a girl who lives a perfectly normal life (or, not really, but she is a human!) but one day when she and her friend decides to go to see the cirque du freak, something happens that will change her life for forever…
Like you may have noticed, this fan fic is going to be almost exactly like the books, except that Xiana is the main person here, not Darren (although, he is in the fan fic). But I'm not going to follow the books exactly, there are going to be some changes, which (I promise) you will notice.
And at last, I'm going to have a song for every chapter. Fun, right? All kinds of songs to! They are related to the chapter somehow, so if you can find them on youtube or something, it would be very fun if you listened to them while reading! That's what I did! (while writing though)
Now I'm going to stop talking and let you read. Please review to!
Jonathan Fagerlund – Welcome to my life " "Hello, hello, hello, hello here I am.
I don't care what people are thinking.
I know now what it's all about."
Welcome to my life.
Welcome to this world of mine.
Hello, hello, hello, hello do it my way.
Driving in the fast lane.
Living, out loud.
Welcome to my life."
"So, you can start by telling me a little about yourself."
No answer.
"What's your name?"
No answer. Again.
The psychologist sighed resignedly and ran a hand through her perfectly fixed, blonde hair.
"Okay, well… Can you at least tell me your name?" She asked and tried again.
"No" I answered and looked at her like she was the one who was classed as a freak, not me.
Gosh, did she seriously though that I would sit here and tell her about my life? Even if I would, I know she wouldn't listen for real. That's not what psychologists do. No, they just sit there and pretend to listen, while they actually just wait for the meeting to end so they can get their money.
"Please sweetheart, can't you at least tell me your name?" She asked and looked like she was going to go down on her freaking knees and beg me.
I might had told her, but after she had called me sweetheart… No way that I was going to tell her now.
"I said: No" I explained and had to try really hard not to roll my eyes. Gosh, was she retarded or what?
An awkward silence appeared, and for a while (which felt like a thousand hours) we just sat there and looked down at the floor, waiting for the meeting to end.
Eventually, she broke the silence.
"Well, we should probably try to…"
"Listen, I really need to hurry back home, I need to check up on my mom before I head off to school."
Normally, I wouldn't have said that to anyone because… Well, come on, that's sounds pretty lame. Me, checking up on my mom? It should be the opposite. But when your mother is an alcoholic, you kind of have no choice.
Although, now I just said it to get out of there. Truthfully, I had already checked up on my mom and she was fine. Or, well, fine for her, which meant that she was still lying in her bed, just staring up on the roof.
"Oh, of course" she said and gave me an "I'm gonna act like I totally understand you" smile. "How is school by the way?"
"Eh… Great" I said, not wanting to revel anything more about my life in school. Or, anything about my life at all. "Look I really got to go now so... I'll see ya…"
"Next week" she finished, still with that smile on her face. "Are you sure there's nothing more you want to talk about today?"
"Yes" I said as I rose and quickly walked out of the door, slamming it behind me.
I sighed as I went into the elevator and clicked the button to get to the first floor. Gosh, all these meetings were so ridiculous! She really acted like I needed them. Just like the school did. If it wasn't for the school, I wouldn't be going to these stupid meetings. They are really convinced that I am this kind of crazy girl who, like they put it; Just needs to feel loved.
I walked out of the elevator and out of the building as fast as I could. Seriously, feeling the wind hitting my face had never felt so good.
I picked up my iPod and put the headphones in my ears. Somehow, it felt better with music in my ears instead of all the thoughts and memories that I had to deal with every day.
You see, I kind of have a… Gift, curse, call it whatever you want. I can see auras. And when I touch people, I see their whole life passing by in like a second.
That might be a reason why people think of me as a freak. Of course, no one knows about it, but people notice that I keep away from them and that I act well… Weird, when I'm around them. I almost never hug people (except Ave, my best friend) and I never shake hands with people. And when it comes to something more intimate like kisses… Well, let's just say that I haven't had a boyfriend for five years. And I'm not the player type, so I don't go around and kiss people just like that.
So I basically keep away from people, well, accept Ave and her friends of course. They aren't really my friends, but I let Ave and her friends think that I am.
"Xiana! Xiana, over here!"
I turned around and couldn't keep a smile away when I saw Ave, sitting on a bench with her friends; Steve, Darren, Tommy and Alan (Yes, she likes guys. A lot). She was the only one who could scream so loud that even the people on Tokyo could hear her.
I started walking towards them and pulled out my headphones (sadly).
"Hey guys" I said and sat down beside Ave. "What's up?"
Ave gave me a flyer with the words "Cirque du freak" with large, black letters on it.
"Check this out" she said and pointed at the text. "It's a freak show, and we totally have to go!"
"A freak show?" I asked and raised my eyebrows. "you can't be serious Ave."
"I am! I really want to go and I don't want to go alone, so can you please go with me?" She said and smiled innocently.
"But…" I started and tried to figure out a way to pull myself out of this. "Can't… Can't Steve or Darren go with you?"
Steve looked at us and shook his head.
"No can do, I'm going with Darren and I don't want some stupid chicks with me."
Ave glanced angrily at him and then turned her glance towards me.
"Well? Are you coming or not? I'll pay for your ticket, I'll promise."
"I don't know…" I started.
A freak show. It sounded so… Freaky (Haha, I know, Im funny). It just sounded wrong. I mean, put a bunch of people on a stage before a lot of "normal" people and make them do weird things just to be able to call them freaks. That sounds a little extreme even for me.
"Please! I'll by you ice cream!" She said, sounded almost desperate.
"Fine" I said after a couple of seconds. "I'll come with you. When is it?"
"Yay!" She screamed and hugged me. And just when she did that, I felt her happiness bubbling up inside her and her aura turning into yellow. Finally she let go of me. "Okay, it starts at eight pm. So what about that I pick you a half hour before?"
"Sounds great" I said and smiled. Ave was the one of us who had a car, and she always drew when we were going somewhere. "So you actually think that they are real freaks?"
"Of course they are!" Ave said, like it was logical that they were real freaks. "Otherwise they wouldn't call it a freak show, right?"
"Right" I say and succeed to keep myself from roll my eyes. "So, what kind of freaks are they? And where did you get the flyer by the way?"
"I don't know, I just got the flyer from Darren" Ave said and shrugged.
I look over at Darren who stands and talks to Steve, and looks pretty excited. And he's not the only one. Steve (not to mention Ave) look like they're going to explode if they don't get there now. I would want to share their enthusiasm but I can't. I can't stop thinking about how's there's something really weird about this freak show and the fact that something bad is going to happened tonight.