A/N: Mhm, I love this new story I'm writing Screw everything else:D Just letting you guys I wanted to be inspired, but haven't, which is why I've been very inactive...
"Heads up!" a voice screamed and before I knew it, my back collided with the stone floor and spots took over my vision instantly.
"HEY!" A girl's voice shrieked, then a sound of flesh on flesh appeared and another voice yelled, "LILY!" I was too shot with pain to notice who was screaming.
"I told him not to mess with my sundae!" I heard Sirius bellow.
Feet appeared next to my eyes and I was being hauled up by my arms. James grinned grimly once I had stood, and Sirius looked bitter, rubbing a red streak on his face. Lily looked indignant at Sirius, but then looked at me rather kindly.
"Are you all right?" She asked softly. I nodded quickly, ruffling my hair only a little, a blush cascading across my cheeks.
'Oh, come on, he's always all right.." James grinned at Lily, who smiled lightly at him but glared at Sirius. I turned around, sighing and fell into a chair, feeling exasperated. It hadn't been the first time that'd happen.
"It's a good thing no one caught you doing that, like a prefect or something.." James said warningly. Me and Lily both stared at him with flat looks and he mumbled, "Oh."
It was, indeed, another Saturday night in Gryffindor tower, minutes before curfew, with Sirius having his traditional Common Room Desert, a giant banana split. With all the works, apparently. Peanuts, whipped cream, a fresh banana, strawberry, vanilla and chocolate ice cream, with five cherries trailing the top in a giant bowl Lily was always convinced into conjuring. James had wanted a tidbit, so when he had stolen the spoon, Sirius threw it across the room.
And it was, indeed, another time I had been siting across from him and had taken it straight to the temple.
"Game of Exploding Snap?" James hollered across the room. I watches as several girls came scurrying to him, watching him from afar and looking as if they were to collapse with giggles and boys glaring, wishing they could be like him. But he stared at them absentmindedly before glancing at Lily.
"Wanna play with me, Lily?" James raised his eyebrows in mock-suggestion, and Lily elbowed him in the ribs.
"I think I'd rather study. Wouldn't you, Remus?" She asked kindly, in the same soft voice she used for me.
"I would like to catch up on Transfiguration-"
"Besides the fact you get top marks!" Sirius interrupted, and I couldn't help but to grin proudly and shrug, sheepish.
"Hah...well.." I felt another surge of pride, but it seemed to vanish as Sirius and James played their own game of Exploding Snap, Lily cracked a book open and I stared at the one of my lap. Whilst she wasn't looking, often, I stared at Lily.
She was so tough but looked as delicate as her namesake. Lily pushed a lock of her hair, that fiery red, behind her ears. I must've been caught, because she slowly looked up at me and blushed slightly. I did the same, then glanced back downwards, but I found myself staring at her.
I also stared at Lily's friend, Jennifer Strewing. She was talking to Jade and Marcia across the room, cracking her gum as she talked. I blushed. She was more beautiful than Lily, not that I liked to compare. Her eyes were such an icy blue, her hair a platinum blonde and I could swear her face were made of porcelain, those long lashes and cherry lips...but Lily and Jennifer were bitter enemies. I didn't see why-I thought Jennifer was prettier and, well, not the sharpest wand at Ollivanders, but strives to be excellent. However, she didn't have to try to capture a sweet look from a guy's eyes.
The only people who hadn't been after her were Lily, James and Sirius. Sirius has fantasized, but Lily snapped it out of him. I never expressed what I felt for Jennifer, knowing Lily would hate it. James had all eyes for Lily, but not many guys had eyes for Lily. Boys wanted her and girls wanted to be her. But not us..for the most part.
My eyes trailed to James. I snickered under my breath, for his tongue was stuck out of his mouth and his eyebrows furrowed in concentration, gently building a house. James always beat Sirius in Exploding Snap, for Sirius was, sometimes, a clumsy person. Confident, broad, and sharp, James handsome features if anything. Lily had really liked him as much as he loved her, it was obvious. When he was hurt during Quidditch, when he was serious, even when he was having a crying moment, she was there.
But, I thought, sighing wistfully, he was meant for her. That's simply the way it was supposed to be. I keep to myself. I had already let her in on too much; my eyes closed and I went back, back to that fateful night...
My throat burned as I tried to keep control, my eyes dizzy and disoriented as I tried, tried, tried to keep to my place against the tree. We had decided to stay here, in the Forbidden Forest tonight.
"Stay still, Lupin. We're your friends." Sirius barked, whimpering and getting on his hind legs. I looked at the stag at his side. He was brushing leaves off of him, for they fell rapidly in Autumn, but he blinked understandingly.
I nodded my head when suddenly, a bird flew low towards us. Without thinking, instincts controlling me, I lept forward, Sirius barking loudly at me, my powerful legs sprinting me forward and my paws flew into the air and my nails ripped feathers from it, blood pouring over my hands-
"James?" We heard a female call. I instantly stopped, turning around, but James had taken off with Sirius, but only James stopped to beckon me away from the mess of the bird I had made, but my body tore my mind from itself and I was taking off after the sound.
"Sirius!" The voice called, and I had licked my lips, four it sounded human, but on the inside, I felt disgusted with myself, trying to will my body away, my nerves on fire as my body fought itself, yet it kept moving gracefully and powerfully.
My vision was red, my ears burned with sounds of howling from myself and Sirius, James silent, but I could hear him, fast and stomping.
I sniffed the air and smelled cherries, fueling my lust for blood, before I skidded to a stop and saw her.
Her eyes were wide and blue, but everything was so blurry at the moment..her hair was fire red and her face, white of hue, the moonlight shining on her blue nightgown.
"I..I..." She froze instantly, paralyzed with fear no doubt.
And I whimpered, "Lily?" Before I knew it, Sirius had tackled me with as much force as possible, his head ramming into my side with James galloping behind him, leaping over the two of us.
I growled loudly as he did so, but he was barking, "Moony, no!" And I growled back, "I wasn't, I wasn't!"
James approached her with caution as Sirius and I got to our legs. I tried to be under control, Sirius watching me and James intently. James poked her head in her general direction and somewhere on his stag face, a hint of a smile appeared.
Her eyes were still wide and she glanced at me. My eyes widened also, staring back her, whimpering uncontrollably.
"Remus?" She whispered softly.
I opened them. I promised myself some things that night: I were to never keep in the forest, but the Shrieking Shack. Alone.
I were to never put Lily Evans in danger again. James had been okay, Sirius concerned, but I could tell...days afterwards, I saw the bitterness in his eyes. I wonder if sometimes, I looked like that too.
"Hey, Moony.." James asked absentmindedly, softly placing a card near the very climax of his card house. "Will you help me out with my Herbology essay tommorow?" I sighed, rolling my eyes.
"Sure, James." He looked up and smiled at me and I smiled back, feeling warm. While 'helping out' actually meant 'do it for me', I didn't mind.
"Well, off to bed with me, fellows." I got to my feet, brushing my legs off of lint and anything. Lily stretched and yawned widely. "Me too.."
I collected my books and with another tiny yawn, walked towards the stairs leading to the boy's dormitory.
"Bye!" Sirius hollered , waving, and within seconds, there were several loud, individual explosions. I turned; the cards had been exploding quickly, taking the house down one by one.
"You idiot!" James said, pushing him. Soon, they were on the floor, laughing and wrestling.
"Oh, children.." Lily said admiringly towards me. I raised my eyes, surprised and laughed fondly.
"They grow up so fast, don't they?" I quipped, and we were both soon laughing.
"Haha, good night, Remus." She smiles warmly and walked away, a bounce in her step I noticed. I began to leave too, reaching the top to find other boys asleep, three beds empty. I sat on my and looked at my poster, reading clearly, "ReadingLove" With books, flipping their pages softly. Changing into night garments, I smiled slightly. It had been a usual day with he Marauders, as James called us, and Lily.
Lily. I sat on my bed. I was so apparent to her, we were friends, and I was glad. I glanced at a full length mirror that decorated the far wall. My face had a long white scar across my jawline I'd never noticed. But then I got to my feet. I was just about as tall as James, if not shorter by an inch.
I held up my shoulders, trying to make them seem broader to have a rather barreled chest, but didn't work. Yet, when I did stand normally, my shoulders squared. Feeling a bit..well, differently about myself, I leaned into the mirror. I had been generally pale, but I smiled, even lightly. I had a nice smile...a sort of strange light brown hair, bangs messy and unkept, reaching my eyebrows already?
My eyes, however...I stared, wondering how people could stand looking at them. They were supposed to be brown, but, looking closer, they were..well, more golden if anything. Honestly though, my eyes actually a dark gold! I raised my eyebrows and couldn't help to smile again. I was a handsome boy.
I walked back to my bed and laid down, turning off the light as I did so and stared down at my pillow as I attempted to drift into sleep. Hiding from girls was tiring...I usually hung out with Sirius and James, for they were my best friends. And Lily...I had, well, felt something for her. Something I hadn't felt in a long time stirred in me when I looked at her.
However, she was for James. And I respected that completely. I will not overstep my bounds. If not-I sighed wistfully again. How nice it would be to not have such a difficult life. Popularity...girls...fun. It sounds like James all over again. I dont want to be like him, not at all-but...
I closed my eyes. I wonder what it's like to be..be...out. My brain went to Lily, then to Jennifer, then to being out with Marauders late into the night.
Without a second thought, sleep had stolen me away from my own company.
A/N: Awesome? Not awesome? Awh, I dont care, I love it!